I cannot stand to see suffering either, I just didn't know what *he* wanted. Usually, I am pretty connected to my instincts but lately, I have had such a bad month that I feel so disconnected and I could not tune into whatever subtle more "psychic" signals were being sent regarding the matter. I am not sure if I wanted advice or to vent with this entry, maybe both. I just hope that I did the right thing, I hope that Sid feels I did the right thing, that is what really matters to me, you know?
Katie you did the right thing. Nothing like this is easy to go through. If I was off today I would have taken you instead of dealing with the extra drama.
Thank you Meliss. I cannot believe how Mother has been toward the whole affair. It is just outright wrong. Dad didn't seem as amazed as I was by her attitude though. He told me that everyone on her side of the family were "coldhearted bastards". I guess to a degree she is. And I only say this because of some of the things she said later.
I wished today that I could have had my peeps (my "peeps" being you, Kim, Jamie and Chris) around me. I called Kim immediately once I got home. I felt like a blubbering wuss. I really pray that I did the right thing by Sid. Poor guy. I have just been a wreck, I can barely finish typing this, sorry.
Like I said in my reply to Kim, and she thinks *I* am cold? Whatever. And yet, she truly seems thoroughly perplexed as to why things always happen to her. Whenever she is nice to me, I always feel like it is because she either wants something, has done something or is trying to get me to be against Chris or Dad in some way. And the sad thing is that that is usually the case. I just want to move away....far away.
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Me? If my Telly or Cleo were in that much pain, I think that I'd have to put him/her down...I can't stand suffering in any form...
But that's just me. Peace to you.
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I cannot stand to see suffering either, I just didn't know what *he* wanted. Usually, I am pretty connected to my instincts but lately, I have had such a bad month that I feel so disconnected and I could not tune into whatever subtle more "psychic" signals were being sent regarding the matter. I am not sure if I wanted advice or to vent with this entry, maybe both.
I just hope that I did the right thing, I hope that Sid feels I did the right thing, that is what really matters to me, you know?
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And I only say this because of some of the things she said later.
I wished today that I could have had my peeps (my "peeps" being you, Kim, Jamie and Chris) around me. I called Kim immediately once I got home. I felt like a blubbering wuss.
I really pray that I did the right thing by Sid. Poor guy. I have just been a wreck, I can barely finish typing this, sorry.
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Like I said in my reply to Kim, and she thinks *I* am cold? Whatever.
And yet, she truly seems thoroughly perplexed as to why things always happen to her.
Whenever she is nice to me, I always feel like it is because she either wants something, has done something or is trying to get me to be against Chris or Dad in some way. And the sad thing is that that is usually the case.
I just want to move away....far away.
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