[THOUGHTS] Starting All Over Again
Hello.
I will not be surprised if all you guys think that I already disappeared in the face of the earth but… tadaa!!! I’m still alive.
It’s just… in some point of my life…
I honestly didn’t know if I can ever write again after all the things that have happened. Jin leaving KAT-TUN then having a baby with Meisa before getting himself married.
Don’t get me wrong. I am happy that he fulfilled his dreams of having a family of his own, a wife and a baby to come home to. But in doing so, he left KAT-TUN, he left Akame, he left Kazuya.
Forever an Akame believer, the things he did was like a slap in the face, a major eye opener.
I cried myself to sleep for months. I really, really believed in them, that they were in love with each other even after all this years. That AKAME were real after all. They were like, my dreams.
But Akanishi Jin proved me wrong. It hurts a lot when you came to realize that all the things you believed in were just a figment of your imagination. That in the end, it comes down to one thing, YOU delude yourself. That hurts.
But you know what? A month ago, I stumble into this one post that enlists several Akame evidences. And I laughed while crying. You want to know why? Because, even after all that happened, even after all the tears I have cried, I started in believing again, believing in them again. Or maybe, at what they used to have several years back.
The heck! I subjected myself again to inevitable pain! Maybe Koki is right. KAT-TUN fans are really masochist!
Maybe I’m deluding myself all over again. And I know without a shadow of a doubt that there would be times that I’ll cry all over again but I can’t deny he fact that I’ll be an Akame fan forever.
Maybe now they are Akanishi Jin and Kamenashi Kazuya. The Hollywood star and the J-pop idol, but once upon a time, they are just Tackey’s baby. His AkaKame. Our Akame.
We’ll never know what the future may bring. Maybe…
Anyways…
Getting back on track is not easy, but I’ll try my hardest to write for you guys again. I missed writing and I missed you guys!
Hope to see you again soon!
Love lots~~
Freya.
I will not be surprised if all you guys think that I already disappeared in the face of the earth but… tadaa!!! I’m still alive.
It’s just… in some point of my life…
I honestly didn’t know if I can ever write again after all the things that have happened. Jin leaving KAT-TUN then having a baby with Meisa before getting himself married.
Don’t get me wrong. I am happy that he fulfilled his dreams of having a family of his own, a wife and a baby to come home to. But in doing so, he left KAT-TUN, he left Akame, he left Kazuya.
Forever an Akame believer, the things he did was like a slap in the face, a major eye opener.
I cried myself to sleep for months. I really, really believed in them, that they were in love with each other even after all this years. That AKAME were real after all. They were like, my dreams.
But Akanishi Jin proved me wrong. It hurts a lot when you came to realize that all the things you believed in were just a figment of your imagination. That in the end, it comes down to one thing, YOU delude yourself. That hurts.
But you know what? A month ago, I stumble into this one post that enlists several Akame evidences. And I laughed while crying. You want to know why? Because, even after all that happened, even after all the tears I have cried, I started in believing again, believing in them again. Or maybe, at what they used to have several years back.
The heck! I subjected myself again to inevitable pain! Maybe Koki is right. KAT-TUN fans are really masochist!
Maybe I’m deluding myself all over again. And I know without a shadow of a doubt that there would be times that I’ll cry all over again but I can’t deny he fact that I’ll be an Akame fan forever.
Maybe now they are Akanishi Jin and Kamenashi Kazuya. The Hollywood star and the J-pop idol, but once upon a time, they are just Tackey’s baby. His AkaKame. Our Akame.
We’ll never know what the future may bring. Maybe…
Anyways…
Getting back on track is not easy, but I’ll try my hardest to write for you guys again. I missed writing and I missed you guys!
Hope to see you again soon!
Love lots~~
Freya.