I'm slowly working and pushing myself forward in life I'm doing my best to keep myself and change the things I need. but I feel so broken.I feel I hurt ppl, I'm a walking curse. I do nothing but draw attention to myelf sometimes. it drives me nuts feeling like this, and ontop of this. I'm all alone and craving closeness. I have no one really close ( Read more... )

oh great googa mooga. well lets see. news of the hour, brought to you by jeremy fox. In others news. One faximily of my self, D, is currently out in comotose land, loosing braincells to sleep. in front line news. Viper Jeremy Reptile is well savely to say, a bit ...controlled in his own dillusional state at the current time being. Current Computer ( Read more... )

Right now today I feel Like I've got the whole stand alone complex going. I can't really look to ppl. When I try I find their not their or they're busy. So I don't want to bother them with myself. IT's best that way right? Gods I hate moon phases. They mess with me enough. On stop of that I'm starving in various ways. starving for attention, ( Read more... )

Well yesterday was an interesting one, went the entire day without sleep. gods did it kick my ass. but eh, it was all work. I worked and work, fell asleep, and drain myself into what was left of me. beyond that. I was just here. nothing much else really. I slept from 2am this morning until 4 pm today. lots of sleep, mwhahahaha. I guess. Just ( Read more... )

Founding out a lot of stuff. I recently slept most of sunday away, and Did laundry. A friend of mine borrowed my laptop most of the day so I didn't getta us it. Found out that When I get it back. I feel Like I've let someone down. It hurt me knowing that I wasn't here to help her. Don't know if she needed me, but I felt that I should have been ( Read more... )

Well home now, drains and sucked dry of my life force. worked late again. No dishwasher 2 nights in a row. So things are getting roughter. *groan* hope things are light tomorrow. night all*passes out in bed*

great googa mooga. just got don't with a 30 minute rush for my work. And I'm dead on my feet. There is a reason I'm called the "Swiss army Knife" of my resturant. In that 30 to 45 minute span of time I did everything from dishwashing, all the way up the line as of bussing tables, setting tables, cleaning, serving, and cooking. my left arm is ( Read more... )

what a morning for me. I'm all sleeping and it's yesss feels so good wake up. umm why is it 4:30?...*I work at 3:30 so I had to rush to work. Yikes , hate evil power outages KHISSSS.

Don't really know who's all still watching me after all this time. But either way. got this droped on my head and found this all over again. My brain is bad enough but now it's just a bit coo coo. So things for news update. I'm in rawlins Wyoming. Still out and about. not much else really going on. Same old Same old. work work work work, sleep and ( Read more... )

gods all mighty. sigmagnatics of the world make me work. people ask me the same thing and I keep tellin them the same thing ( Read more... )