Fic: Some Truths Hurt (V/Logan, all) R [28of ?]
Title: Some Truths Hurt
Author: jenwin23
Pairing/Character: all, LoVe
Word Count: 9,655
Rating: R
Spoilers: Season 1
Warnings: Slight violence, cussing, discussions about rape and possible incest.
This story so far recaplet: Canon up until Echolls Family Christmas. Veronica copied Duncan’s laptop hard drive to get his journal. Connor and Veronica were dating for awhile, until she and Logan finally managed to work through their issues enough to get together. Veronica took a paternity test and is a Mars, Duncan wants to date her again, awkwardness ensues. LoVe investigates the rape and the truth is revealed (but is it the whole truth?). Lynn tried to commit suicide but Logan found her and got her to the hospital in time. LoVe breaks up, Lynn disappears, LoVe work together to find Lynn in a rehab center in Santa Barbara. Logan finally removes his head from his ass, but V isn’t ready to try again. After some creative courtship methods, LoVe gets back together. Mac is dating Enbom. Casey has hooked up with the new girl, Nadia, who has ulterior motives and an unhealthy interest in Logan. Duncan and Meg are dating, and Veronica is worried. V finally tells Logan about the paternity issue with Duncan, and tells Meg to be careful. Logan and Veronica don’t see eye to eye on Duncan, but they manage to disagree and not break up. Alicia and Keith are going strong. Veronica busts a rogue ATF agent, Dick had a birthday party, LoVe has a bunch of sex. Logan visits Lynn in rehab and they discuss his abuse. The prank calls Veronica has been getting for weeks turn out to be from Leanne. LoVe heads to Barstow to find Leanne, who blows the Kanes alibis out of the water. With Leanne in rehab, LoVe returns to Neptune for midterms. Veronica is paid to uncover that Hamilton Cho’s father was trying to sabatogue Sabrina during the tests so his son could win the Kane Scholarship. Veronica calls in the Tritons to save the day. Jake stops Veronica to ask that she take another paternity test.
Chapter 28
Previously…
Jake: I have a request to make of you. (he stares at her and his eyes are soft) Your mother said you’d had a paternity test.
Veronica looks shocked and steps back.
Jake: She said Keith Mars is your father.
Veronica: Yes.
Jake: I’d like you to take another test. This time with my doctor.
Veronica: (confused) Why?
Jake: Please. I know I don’t have the right to ask this of you. But I am.
Veronica stares at him, trying to puzzle out his reasons. Still puzzled, her face is scrunched then smoothes into shock.
Veronica: (hollow tone) You think Celeste somehow got to the testing place and doctored the results.
Jake: I don’t know. But I would like to resolve this issue once and for all.
Veronica: How would she have done that? She couldn’t have known what facility I would use or if I tested my blood against my father’s or yours or Duncan’s.
Jake: I don’t know. But I would like you to submit to another test.
And now….
Veronica: (flatly) No.
Jake: Why not?
Veronica: Because if you wanted to know so badly you should have gotten the test done when I was a baby. You could have gotten the test done anytime in the 13 years before I started dating Duncan. No. You either don’t believe I’m yours or you just don’t care, so what do you want? Are you worried that I’ll come after your money? You want a test you can use to force me to sign a paper saying that I’m not a Kane so I won’t come after your fortune.
Jake: That’s not it Veronica.
Veronica: Sure it is. You don’t want me to make a claim against you. (bitter) Well don’t worry, I don’t want anything from you.
Jake: I set up a trust fund for you the day you were born Veronica. You have no need to make a claim against me, you will be well taken care of financially throughout your lifetime.
Veronica: (stunned) What?
Jake: I said…
Veronica: You’re sick. (deep breath to steady herself) Disgusting.
She looks like she might throw up, her face is pale and her arms are clutched around her stomach.
Jake: Veronica.
Veronica: (whispering) You really think…you believe I might be...
Jake: Yes.
Veronica: (upset, accusing) Then how could you let Duncan and I date? If you thought that there was even the possibility.
Jake: Your mother didn’t want the test. Then later, I thought that if you were my…the rules of nature usually don’t allow for close relatives to be attracted to each other. When you and Duncan fell in love I thought that that meant you weren’t my daughter.
Veronica: (incredulous and growing hysteria) So you based your decision to allow your son to possibly commit incest on your theory that nature, some kind of biological instinct, guards against it? Are you kidding me?!
Jake: I know I should have...
Veronica: Should have? (shaking her head) Should have? There are a lot of things you should have done (biting tone) Jake. So many I can’t even name them all for you. I am not interested in taking another paternity test. Keith Mars is my father. You are nothing to me. You should try working on your relationship with your remaining child. I told Duncan we weren’t related months ago. I guess he didn’t feel the need to share that info. Must run in the family. And it’s another sign that I’m not like you. I’m a Mars. Through and through.
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Cut to Veronica sobbing in her car. She drives away from the Kane estate the pulls over a few miles down the road leaning her head against the steering wheel as tears leak from her eyes. A few minutes later she takes a few deep calming breaths and sits up, wiping away her tears. She needs to go to the hotel to take Amelia some food and make sure she’s still convinced to help Veronica, she has things to do.
Veronica Voiceover: Life is fundamentally unfair. It takes real talent to make unfair and accept it coolly. Hamilton Cho did it. He was willing to give up his chance at Oxford for his dad. Proof that kids love their dads, no matter how badly they screw up. It’s the exact kind of love I’m banking on from Amelia DeLongpre. I love my Dad. I won’t allow Jake Kane to make me doubt our relationship.
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Ocean Beach Hotel. Veronica brings two bags of food for Amelia. Amelia tells Veronica that the paperwork should arrive tomorrow then asks Veronica if she can arrange a visit with her dad in prison. Veronica looks guilty and tells Amelia it will take a few days to arrange it.
Veronica Voiceover: He’ll still be dying, no matter when I tell her. But this way I get the proof about the Kane payoff. And she gets the comfort of knowing that her father isn’t a murderer.
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Neptune High Auditorium. The final curtain falls on Much Adu About Nothing. The smiling and happy cast hugs each other and races off to get changed and get out of there. Spring break plans have waited long enough.
Veronica congratulates Meg, Dom and Cristina before finding Logan. He is directing the stage crew to tear down the set as quickly as possible. Turning to see Veronica he smiles. She moves to hug him but when she holds on for a bit longer and tighter than a casual good job/ congratulations hug his smile falls.
Logan: What’s wrong?
Her smile is bright but her eyes are shadowed and unhappy.
Veronica: Nothing that matters.
Logan: Veronica.
Veronica: It’s not important Logan. Now, when can you get out of here? I have a surprise for you.
Logan is skeptical but puts his worry aside for the moment.
After a quick dinner at Luigi’s Veronica and Logan both park outside of her apartment. It’s after 10pm and the porch lights reflect off the pool as Veronica unlocks her door.
Veronica: So you remember your non-birthday party?
Logan: Yeah.
Veronica: Well, (she pushes the door open to reveal an empty and dark apartment) my dad got a tip. He’s currently flying coach to San Antonio. He won’t be back until tomorrow afternoon at the earliest.
Logan: (smiling) So that gives us until tomorrow morning.
Veronica: That is does.
They kiss and Veronica pulls Logan back towards her bedroom.
Later.
Veronica: Wow.
Logan smiles at her and leans in to kiss her gently.
Logan: Right back at you.
Veronica: So. I have something else for you.
Logan: (smirk) I may need a few minutes Veronica. I’m not a machine you know.
Veronica: I’m very well acquainted with the fact that you are made of flesh…
Logan: (interrupts) and bone?
Veronica: Exactly.
They grin at each other. She sits up and pulling on a long t-shirt walks over to her desk to pick up a white envelope. Walking back to her bed, Logan has scooted to be sitting up against the headboard. She hands him the card then crawls on the bed to sit on her knees facing him. He opens the envelope and pulls out a birthday card. On the front is a dog looking amorously at a fire hydrant. It says “Every dog has its day.” On the inside it says “Don’t piddle yours away.” Her hand written note says “Happy 16th Birthday Logan. Love Veronica.” The date at the top says October 19, 2003 via April 16, 2005. Logan smiles at her.
Logan: Another dog reference and no gift?
Veronica: Actually, you gave me the idea for the gift. I mean what could I buy you that you don’t already have? So, I’m giving you birthday wishes. Sixteen to be exact.
Logan: Wishes?
Veronica: Yeah. But like any genie, I have rules.
Logan: I can’t wish for more wishes?
Veronica: (smiles) No. And the wishes have to be for things you want, not for things you don’t want me to do.
Logan: (nodding his acceptance and understanding of her point) But that means I can use them for things I do what you to do?
Veronica: Yes.
Logan: Anything?
Veronica: (squinty stare) Within reason.
Logan: (glib) Whose reason?
Veronica: Lets put it this way, if you ask me for something completely outside of what I’m willing to consider, you lose the wish and probably will be in some sort of physical pain.
Logan: Humm.
She smiles, trusting him enough to not ask for a threesome or something else she has no intention of doing. She snuggles into his side, resting her head on his chest. A few minutes later Logan speaks again.
Logan: So do I have to use one of my wishes to get you to tell me the first thing that crossed your mind when I bribed you with any sexual position you wanted to get out of Norris’s dungeon?
Veronica: (still slightly hesitant and unsure, speaking slowly but holding Logan’s gaze) No.
Logan: (half smile) No? Good.
She still doesn’t speak and he can see her cheeks pink up with a blush.
Logan: Veronica, I want us to be able to talk about stuff.
Veronica: Stuff? What kind of stuff?
Logan: Everything. Anything that is important to us.
Her gaze darkens and a question is clear in her eyes, but she doesn’t ask it. Logan is mildly frustrated and shifts irritably before sighing. Knowing that a physical connection helps Veronica to open up to him when she’s uncomfortable he rolls over and settles himself over her small body, making sure to keep most of his weight off of her. Veronica automatically adjusts her position to allow the change and her hands slide up his arms to rest on his shoulders.
Logan: Including sex.
Veronica: Ok.
Logan: I’m not trying to embarrass you Ronnie. (she smiles at the nickname)
Veronica: I know. (deep breath) Ok. Soooo. I thought we could try it, um, (she pauses then spits out the rest in a burst of speed) with you behind me. Again. If you wanted. (when he doesn’t respond right away she swallows hard turning her head to the side to avoid his eyes) Or not.
Her body has stiffened under his and Logan grasps her chin and turns her face back towards him.
Logan: (slowly grinning) Ok.
When she still looks unsure, he kisses her with a soft lingering kiss. She relaxes again and meets his eyes when he pulls back.
Logan: I’d like that.
Still uncomfortable with the words but running her fingers through the hair on the back of his neck she appears ok with the topic.
Veronica: When you first said it, I thought of that time in the pool house.
Logan: (smiling, remembering that she had not been at ease with the position at first but then had orgasmed twice, his voice is self satisfied) Exactly like the pool house?
Veronica: (smirking back at him) Yeah. (then her face tightens as a thought crosses her mind)
Logan: What?
Veronica: Yeah. Like the pool house.
Logan: But?
Veronica: Well at Dick’s party you were…but I could still see you.
Logan smiles again, glad that it’s not just good sex that Veronica is happy and enthusiastic for, but good sex with him. Lilly had always been eager for sex, but it was about the act not about him. With other girls Logan had not been interested in any kind of connection, he was just interested in getting what he wanted and only put in enough effort to satisfy his partner as well. He doubted Veronica even knew how her words made him feel, that that fact that she associated sex with him, and how they felt about each other, that she trusted him after everything she had been through was a miracle in his eyes.
Logan: (sincerely) I love you.
Veronica: (amused smile, curious about where his train of thought had gone) I love you too.
He drops a lightening quick kiss to her lips, then rolls off of her leaving her perplexed. He pushes her desk chair over to the end of her bed then twists the plastic clamps that hold her full length mirror to the back of the bedroom door up releasing the mirror from its anchors. She sits up watching as he props the mirror against the chair seeing herself in the reflection now.
Veronica: What are you doing now?
Logan: Giving you what you wanted.
Logan comes back to the bed, kissing the smile off her face as he pulls the sheet away from her eagerly, causing her to giggle even as he kisses a trail down her body exciting her senses. Her giggles turn into keening sounds as his mouth traces around the curves of her breasts skipping over the nipples teasingly.
Veronica: (demanding) Logan.
She arches her back up and finally his mouth closes over one aching tip. Her hands clutch at his shoulders sliding up into his hair fisting tightly as his teeth scrap with the perfect amount of roughness over the sensitive peak. He works her breasts for several minutes until she is writhing under him. She pulls him up, sealing their mouths together with a deep kiss, her arms wrapping around his back tightly. Her legs wrap around his waist and her hips move urgently against him, but he slides back to sit on his heels, pulling her up with him. They shift around so she is kneeling in the middle of the bed facing the mirror with Logan behind her. Both are clearly visible in the mirror, Logan’s much larger body behind her. Her cheeks flush more as she leans forward to be on her hands and knees.
Logan: No. Wait.
With his hands on her hips he pulls her back so she is kneeling again. Moving in closer behind her he maneuvers so she is sitting on his thighs with her knees straddling his legs. She is curious and lets him position her however he likes. Tilting her head back to be resting against his shoulder she smiles as he focuses on her in that way that makes her feel like they are the only two people in existence. Their mouths meet in a slow kiss as his hands slide over her skin, teasing and squeezing as they drift south. He breaks the kiss.
Logan: Watch us.
She turns to face the mirror again watching as his hands pull her knees farther apart, spreading her legs wide. His hand dips into her wet folds, circling her clit teasingly. Her pulse pounds as she watches his hands on her body, watches him watching her, his gaze shifting from his hand to her face in the mirror. As the sensation builds in her he back arches and moans slip out from the back of her throat.
Veronica: (pleading) Logan please.
His response is to smile and quickly slip his fingers into her heat. He moves them in and out slowly his other hand caressing over her stomach and breasts. Her body tightens, her breathing in with quick pants, and out with his name. Abruptly pulling his fingers out and shifting her up on her knees Logan thrusts his erection into her. She cries out at the fullness and Logan plunges into her quickly and deeply. He only manages a few thrusts before her body clamps down on him tightly in orgasm. She shakes and quivers, moaning as her climax hits her, feeling her muscles tense as her mind whites out.
Logan holds her up against him, his cock still buried in her as she comes back down.
Logan: (whispering in her ear) You still with me?
Veronica: (faint, breathless) Yeah.
He pushes her forward keeping his hips nestled into her backside as she drops to her hands and knees. He begins slowly thrusting into her pressing all the way in then pulling almost complexly out, over and over again. Each time her warm, tight heat closed around him, her muscles instinctively squeezed him in welcome heightening both their pleasure.
Logan: Fuck Veronica. You feel so good.
Veronica: (speaking with her words broken up with gasps) You. Too. Always.
Their eyes lock in the mirror and he thrusts into her forcefully popping against her cervix, making her whole body quake. She rocked back against him with each stroke, trying to increase the pressure, the speed, the contact to get what she needed but he continued with his long powerful thrusts, manipulating her body at will and drawing out their mutual pleasure. His hands closed over her breasts squeezing, rubbing her nipples as she ached into his hands, her body bowing as he pulled her back to meet his forward movement into her. Finally he began to speed up, releasing her breasts to hold onto her hips as his hips slammed into her causing her breasts and buttocks to jiggle with each contact. Her eyes are locked on his, seeing the dark desire in his face as their bodies move together. When his eyes close hers shift down his body admiring the way his abs bunch and flex with each thrust.
Veronica: Please Logan. Please. I need….
Logan: I know. Me too.
Her inner muscles were clamping down on his cock with each thrust now, demanding that he stay within her. He felt her body contracting around him as she shudders and gasps before him, her climax triggering his own violent release. Both their moans fill the room as he wraps one arm around her waist pulling her to the side as he lies down on the bed and takes her with him. Her world still hazily out of focus she sighs as his warmth surrounds her.
Later, lying in Veronica’s small twin sized bed Veronica on her side with her arm and leg slung across Logan. She looks at him for a long moment, appearing sad, before she speaks.
Veronica: I’m going to miss you.
Logan: I know. Three days doesn’t seem like much…
Veronica: It’s longer than we’ve been apart in awhile.
Logan: Yeah. (long pause remembering their last split and then remembering that he wanted to ask her why she was upset earlier) Are you going to tell me what happened today?
Veronica: (swallows) I had to go back to the Kanes. For the Sabrina/Hamilton issue.
Logan: You should have called me, I would have gone with you.
Frowning she sits up, puling the sheet around her as she separates from Logan.
Veronica: I don’t need you to babysit me Logan. It was fine. At least until the end.
Logan: (also sitting up now) What happened?
Veronica: Jake wanted to talk to me. Apparently my Mom called him from rehab. Told him he’s not the baby daddy. (hugging her legs, shaking her head bitterly)
Logan: Ok. (he squeezes her knee in understanding) And?
Veronica: (glossing over the real issues) And he wanted to make sure. I told him to go to hell.
Logan: (still annoyed) You should have called me.
Veronica: (sighs) Logan I asked you to come to the dinner with me cause I was going to be there making small talk with people who hate me. Today was I was asked to be there to answer any questions about how we knew it was Mr. Cho who was harassing Sabrina. In and out.
Logan: (hard) Didn’t turn out that way did it?
Veronica: That’s not the point.
Logan: Then what is the point?
Veronica: Look. I don’t want to fight with you. Sometimes I’m going to do stuff you don’t like. Sometimes I’m going to ask you to be there to back me up, and sometimes I’m not. You can’t be mad at me when I don’t Logan. You’re not my bodyguard or my boss.
Logan: Someone should be.
She stares at him until he rolls his eyes and nods, clearly unhappy but willing to concede the point. At least for now.
Not willing to spend their last hours together for a few days be spent fighting, Logan rubs his fingers sensuously along the delicate ridges of her spine pulling her to him. She smiles and moves closer, kissing him softly. The settle into the bed together, talking softly about everything and nothing, content to be together.
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