i really dont think i can handle a relationship...ever. Just recently i come to see why i dont do the whole relationship thing. I cant trust anyone, and its not even that im not capable of trusting people, its that no one gives me reason to trust people. I think that ya know, maybe..just maybe this time this one will be worth it. worth all the ( Read more... )

so the question is how much do i want happiness right now. I can easily ignore the future and what that holds and just enjoy the present, but then when June comes ill prob not be in the best of moods, and i dont feel like sleeping all day for the whole summer. I really hate how i start the fall for girls that i know for a fact wont be around for a ( Read more... )

Im sittin at home on a saturday night ( Read more... )

Im at this black church and theres hella people there. I come to find out that its like a religion cultural meeting. In each room there is a different ethnic group and religion. I decide to adventure through the building. I walk through the soul church area, and i end up right smack dab in the middle of a jewish dance and sing-a-long. I walk out in ( Read more... )

Ok so Im sittin in this house. Its a really huge brown house and has like 15 rooms in it, and Im there with jordan and nick and all of then are there. Then Joel shows up with Janelle and Portia for some reason and he brings some other hoes also. P and J are tryin to get with Nick and I but we are not having it, so we leave and drive this vintage ( Read more... )

sleep being the topic of my month ( Read more... )

Tara and I broke up today, and it was such a relief. It wasnt a relief because I didnt like her or anything like that, but it was just this big thing in the back of my mind for the last couple days, and it was really getting to me. I hate stress and worrying about things, so I really saw how much she meant to me, because most times i would just ( Read more... )

Ok, so things can never be alright. Its almost like right when things look like the might be on the up and ups, then something goes wrong. I cant say that it surprises me though cuz it happens everytime, and i should have known. I love my band to death, but I can only take so much from them. It always seems like the people I let get the closest to ( Read more... )

Well I hung out with Tara almost all day yesterday, and it was really fun. I kinda got scared though cuz before i went over there she seemed like she was in a bad mood. It was kinda scary thinking about knowingly going over there when she was in a bad mood cause it was almost as if I were asking for trouble. Things worked out though and I brought ( Read more... )