To my very dearest <3
Dearest Kim Jongwoon,
Sometimes, I wonder how you suddenly stepped into my life and turned it upside now.
Loving you was the very last thing that I had expected, and yet I still did.
I remember how I first started loving Super Junior: It was because of Super Junior M, and obviously Kyuhyun, SJ's dear beloved maknae, the childish-yet-mature-at-times, handsome, witty, man with a voice as pure as silk threads.
And then Ryeowook came along during Mr Simple period, where I began fangirling SJ for real. Ryeowook, the adorable, sweet, cute-yet-sexy eternal maknae with his angelic, crystal clear voice and a smile to die for.
And I began the kyuwook- maknaes on top spazzing, because I loved their brotherhood and closeness, and of course their lovely vocals.
Which brings us to KRY. Obviously, if you like K and R, you would naturally want to find out more about the awesomely talented ballad group of super junior, which has its finest vocals.
And that's how I met you.
You were never at the bottom of my bias list of SJ, but never were you my top few. in fact, I placed you at the seventh position or so, simply because you did nothing that I found annoying or insulting- those below you probably did or I simply had mishmashed those below.
I never even noticed you, not until I heard Sorry Sorry answer - and I had very, very grudgingly admitted that your vocals were better than K&R, even those I loved the two of them so much. I don't betray my ears because I'm biased, that would mean I would be a fail chorister with 10 years of experience?! xD but that's how I started acknowledging your existence in Super Junior.
And how you managed to weave your way into my heart so perfectly? I have no freaking idea, honestly. I have no idea at all, so much that it scares me like crazy.
I suppose it was probably somewhere near the end of last year? I had already changed my bias to Ryeowook (and promised myself not to change anymore) and then you, the way you sang on stage, every single time, with that intensity in your eyes, simply blew me away.
Of course, that came with the yewook constant fan service that got me practically HOOKED to the both of you. Seriously, I have never shipped a pairing so much in my life (not even kyuyoung nor soowon okay), and you two come and knock me off my feet?! hehehe (enough or this will make me start on how much i adore yewook, when this is supposed to be about you).
I wasn't supposed to love you, okay. I was supposed to stay faithful to my Ryeowook and Kyuhyun forever. And I remembered telling myself very firmly, and many times: don't start liking Yesung. Don't start liking Yesung.
Guess what? My heart failed to listen. It was way too enthralled by you. And obviously after awhile, the heart begins leading the mind.
And now, here I stand, a proud cloud declaring her love for you so explicitly, every single classmate and close friend (even my mom and brother) knows how much I adore you.
My friend asked me: why do you even like him?!
I thought for it for a very long time, before I replied with a smile on my face. "I don't know, everything, I guess. love is blind." :P and obviously here came the eye-rolling and diao-ing at how lame I obviously was, and all I could do was giggle at the thought of him.
You... it's very hard not to coo and gush over someone like you. You're so silly and awkwardly cute at times, making heaps of mistakes and being laughed at by the others (and ryeowook will look at you endearingly HEEHEE)
okay.... and wait, lemme catch my breath because I just changed line from green to purple while running for the train to tuition... LOL
You’re also one of the most filial and sweet boys that I've known. like opening both H&G and Whystyle for your parents, coming to H&G today just to visit your mom... like seriously awww^^ and also being so nice to your brother! Its great to see how idols can be so lovely and their families are just as lovely too!
The greatest thing that blew me away is definitely your charisma on stage. Like WHOA, the guy liner and your intense stare, along with your eargasmic voice... it's just... it just makes me speechless. I'm so glad your mom made you audition to be a singer, if not it would be a waste of pure, pure talent. It's like... you were born to sing. And I seriously worship your voice (and you and KRY)
Even though you may not be the best looking in the group, but fret not because in my eyes (and probably every single other cloud out there), you are definitely the most gorgeous looking. Turtle-appa or not, you never fail to take my breath away. <3
I know that you've said before that your stage persona is very different from your real person, and it does make me a little sad. But don't forget to always be comfortable with who you are, and to always be happy. That's the most important and that’s what will make me most happy too.
On this very special day, 24th August, Happy Birthday, Yesung Oppa <3 Always stay happy and lively and cheerful - the way you are. I'll always be cheering you by your side, whether I'll still be loving you as much after I've grown older. The journey down the road of life is getting dreary, especially when you’re heading off to the army next year. It simply hurts that I’ve only began starting to love you, and then you have to leave so soon. However, always keep the faith, and remember that ELF are always by your side in spirit. Everyone loves you just the way you are, so always be confident about yourself, and love everyone and be loved back.
I hope that you have a very happy 28th birthday, Kim Jongwoon <3 Saranghae! I love you^^ (So much you don’t even want to know)
With so much love its threatening to overwhelm my heart,
Belinda (Your cloud wifey <3)