it feels like things have gotten out of control. i feel out of control ( Read more... )

the direction i've been headed has been tiring.

i've thought about this space every other week for the past 6 months ( Read more... )

summer is gone. autumn has arrived on cape cod.
the hostel closes to the public tomorrow. our group arrives later next week for a month, then home for thanksgiving. i've been applying for jobs. hopes in columbus and chicago.
i've been sleeping too much. it's the weather (i tell myself).
don't want this life anymore.

i used to be able to pinpoint a day,
thinking back now, i feel like i'm just throwing a dart at a board.

i need to stop hiding under these headphones.

i'm tired and my back hurts from all this lifting.
i want to go home now.

you look at things and wonder where did that go? how did i end up here?
after all this time. five years later.
people come in and out. you feel like it was just yesterday.

busy week on the cape ( Read more... )

busy few weeks ( Read more... )