My last update was 23 weeks ago...

My life is the definition of wonderful. I spend my days with the man I fall more in love
with everyday. Within a week I will be a mother and cannot wait. I have a beautiful
family who loves and supports me and great friends who do the same. What more
could anyone ask for?

Carlos is gone
30 more days until I leave this place

needless to say, time is draging. 

Things are going well.
I have 61 more days until im out of this country.
Baby is doing good, got to hear the heartbeat.
Staying far from trouble.
Not fighting as much with the man.
Have some GREAT friends that I cannnot wait to come home to see.

I guess the only bad thing i could say is that Shane is going to Iraq for the 3rd time in January....-

I havent updated in while but I thought I would make this one worth while....
Im going to be a mommy. Life hasnt been better since........ever.

Long over due up date.
Things are going very well im surprised to say. Im spending my days with an amazing man that makes breathing worth while. As far as work and the military goes it still hangs in the balance. Tommarow I go to see the doctor, hopefully i will know more. hmmm not to much else to say i guess.
-L

Yay for life! This are going really good for me for a change. I have a new reason to be happy when that alarm clock goes off at 0: dark 30 and i have to go to PT. Some things still need to be worked out  but thats all in due time i guess.

Happiness feels goooood....
-L

I love finding that thing that makes your dark days that much brighter.......xo

-L

"What the eyes cant see,
the heart cant feel."
But how ture can this be,
when im left feeling this way?

Only miles between us,
but so vey much more!
If i only knew why,
mabey the torment
would be some what less.

How could some one
thay call a "father",
never call,
never wright,
not even Give you,
the time of day.

But i guess thats
whys they say
"what the eyes ( Read more... )

Today I came across a picture, a picture of my boyfriend that I really do love...kissing another women who was wearing his hat. A simple kiss on the cheak almost brought me to my knees. Never hearing from someone you hear from is hard enough and then you see something simple, a sign of affection comonly shared between good friends that makes your ( Read more... )

Im sitting here thinking to my self...why?   Is this going to work or am I setting myself up for failure. I dont doubt my love or commitment but silence it tearing my heart to shreads. All I can do now is pray....pray for some type of release from a torment that I know all to well, pray that it will work and I wont lose what I love and every thing ( Read more... )