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[volumeoffailure]

i cant fucking believe this, i just had possibly the longest entry EVER written about everything im thinking and feeling and i was still working on it, and my computer fucking froze for no reason and now i dont even know if i can fricken type that shit up again. hmm ok here goes

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[heyjennay]

I know it came to an unfortunate end, trust me its killing me 2, probbaly the hardest decision ive ever made in my life, but just to clarify one last time, i had a GREAT time with you and you did mean alot to me, you are seriosly the perfect guy, you do and say everything right. You mean the world to me and I want you to be happy, but I think you can be alot happier with someone who wants the same things as you, and she is out there somewhere. And you have every right to be mad at me, if i were you id be 10 times more mad, I know I fucked some stuff up and went at some things all wrong, and for that I am so sorry, but in all honesty i didnt know what the hell to do about it, It was hard to be honest to you when I couldnt figure the shit out myself. But your right, you are one step closer to finding that relationship thats meant to be. And I will always be here for you, I dont plan on walking out of your life forever, I could never do that. And I know you may think I faked the word "love" but I didnt, I meant it, but i think i

hakuna matata

[volumeoffailure]

you dont have to be sorry for anything, feelings are feelings and all of this is just my coping with it...its nothing of your doing. and as for the being mad thing, im just not that kind of person to get mad at you especially when even if you did hold back initially, you eventually told me the truth so it would just be spiteful of me to hold anything against you, and like i said i dont doubt that you care for me in anyway because obviously you care about us still having a friendship and i told you that i wouldnt pass you up as a friend so no worries and no regrets.

Alllllllright....

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Dude I never read long entries like that, but I figured that it just wasn't an entry about how your day was or how football was shitty or how your mom is pissing you off or how you and Eric(not my eric YOUR eric...haha) and Greg had SO much fun playing video games

Re: Alllllllright....

[heyjennay]

your words of wisdom hit right on the money, so dont worry i didnt think you were speaking for me or anything, you are completely right 100 percent, he is the greatest guy ever and good things happen to good people

Re: Alllllllright....

[seaofpianos]

amen theresa hambogeesa. if i would have read this before you i would have said the exact same thing.

and jd im very sorry about all of this but at least this didnt come as a big shock to you out of the blue. i dont know the whole story since i have yet to talk to you about it since last night (and it is unfortunate i am finding out through this shit) but i truely am sorry. and when you need to vent, you know im online 24-7. haha

but to jdizzle and miss jenny: please feel better becasue everything happens for a reason. keep your heads up kids.

im also glad to see my name mentioned in there with some good words attached to it. HA

Re: Alllllllright....

[volumeoffailure]

thank you kelly my friend, and its alright because you and austin will be good parents to me haha. but yeah thanks for listening to me bitch about all of this shit for the past couple weeks, and you know you can talk to me about things even though you never do...but yes thank you

[lindsaygal05]

Wow JD, I feel bad for anyone who is both of our friends, and has to read both of our rants that are the size of a small novel. I am dissapointed things didn't work out. I liked you two together. My words of wisdom for the future are as follows, ahem...."Don't mix rock and rye with absolute, and don't let Brad listen to any music by the who."

[ktbaby24]

LOL
"i AM the bad man...i AM the sad man!!!"

hahahahahaha
that was such a good night
im saddened that some people weren't able to be there though