As you all know, I have a therapist and I visited him today with my father as an attempt to improve our relationship. We talked for a while and I wasn't really paying attention untill my father started to talk about his childhood..from that moment on I was scared absolutely shitless about my past present and future. I listened to my father say ( Read more... )

I'm very very angry right now and I don't know why I'm really not doing much but playing some vice city trying to make my anger go away and I'm listening to some music as well I don't know what today holds in store for me and frankly I don't give a fuck..I'm just pissed and I thought that I might want to remember my random spurts of complete anger ( Read more... )

That's right bitches and bastards I got my two fucking hours of sleep but you know what? They were at the right time..I went to sleep I might be back on my normal sleeping patern. That's great..I'm writing this since I woke up. I can't think..bah..I'll writ again soon.

Things didn't happen as how I expected. I'm not sure yet if I'm glad that I ended up being wrong about what was happening but I'm going to keep this short I'm kind of upset about what did happen but I don't have time I feel tired and I am going to go to bed at a normal time because I don't like sleeping during the day. I'll be writing more on what ( Read more... )

Today is the day Roxan is supposedly comming back from the course she was taking..I know it'll be interesting when we actualy talk..I'm nervous and well I hope it doesn't go down the path I think it might..I'm quite perplexed as to why she couldn't communicate with me that I did not understand at all and it's quite upsetting. She knows, or atleast ( Read more... )

Why an entry so early? BECAUSE I COULDN'T SLEEP. Well anyway tonight was uneventful...so this is going to be really short, I got alot of music files and talked to a few people..not that great, though I did have a few evil ideas...bwahahahahaha. I need food, we're all out at my moms house and it's driving me insane so I'm going to ask my father to ( Read more... )

YES! I HAVE AN EXCUSE NOT TO GO TO TAYLORS! SCORE! Well, I can't get to her on the phone. Anyway..I just woke up..and I want to go back to bed, but my brother will be here soon so I have to take care of him. I gues I'll just listen to music...even though I have none on now...It's interesting that my brother is going to basketball camp, he's really ( Read more... )

Yay! My Journal looks great, thanks to Brad. That ment alot to me..not the fact that my profile looks awesome but the fact that he would share that with me and because he cared. That made me feel good. =) Thanks dude. Anyway I had an ok night. I talked to a bunch of people and played Vice City..that game is fun..Hannah wanted to be in an entry so ( Read more... )

Wow, how stupid, I stop writing and I am confronted with a chat room invite. Of course I go in, knowing that I'll have to see Riley in there..I don't really feel like I want do it..so well I minimize it..and when I decide to pay attention I hear Rick lying. He lies all the time..I'm beginning to believe it's a compulsion..He's talking about being ( Read more... )

Well well well, I finally got a damn journal. Today was boring I did not do much but sleep and update my computer. I'm angry with my parents because they're fucking stupid. I'm not depressed...not really..if you exclude the fact that I haven't talked to Roxan since saturday. Of course that sucks..but I'm going to have to learn to live without her.. ( Read more... )