Why does this have to be my life????`

[vonnegutfan]

Depression comes as a wave over me. It hits and I want to do nothing, feel nothing, be nothing. I wished my pills worked all the time.

A quick back story for those of you who I haven't seen in a while. I have depression. I don't know why, but it's apparently genetic. Oh well I can't escape it. Just like I can't escape the other genetic traits my

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[absolutsweetnes]

*HUGS*

Josh,
I love you and i miss you! Things will defiently turn up after your dark days. And i'm glad you've finally jumped on the bandwagon! It'll be great reading your posts and keeping in touch!
xoxo
ashley

[lovely_lisha]

After reading this, I hesitated at first to comment. There is no real great or personal way for me to respond to this on lj. I don't even think i could do it on the phone. I'm terrible with words. I'm sure you have figured this out by now.

All i can really say josh, is that i love more then you can imagine an it kills me to know that you feel like this.

You have my number, an my heart! Call me anytime! Sounds lame, an I'm sure everyone tells you this, but i mean it. Thats all i can think of to say that doesn't sound cliche or completly retarded. I'm starting to ramble...

lots of love
from your lisha

[jilliliz]

It helps some of the time, but sometimes(like now) I just lose it.

You might not be on the right medication, try talking to your doctor about it, let him know it doesn't work all the time.

Just don't let him put you on Effexor, it put me through horrible withdrawls (the laying in the fetal position in a cold dark room while sobbing, aching and vomiting kind). I wouldn't recomend that drug. Zoloft I hear is nice.

*shrug*