Rest day ( Read more... )

The general consensus of most people i've read doing similar protocols are that the day after the dose is when they see the most benefit. It's hard for me to say, so far. The first dose was pretty euphoric. The following two days felt pretty normal. The second dose was disorienting and a bit melancholy. Today was pretty good, aside from the ( Read more... )

9:25 ( Read more... )

One of the authors I read called the second day without a dose the rest day ( Read more... )

A few thoughts on yesterday ( Read more... )

4:07 ~0.1g 1/8 ts ( Read more... )

I remember being astounded when I heard as a young person that Beethoven was able to continue composing after he'd lost his hearing. That he was described to be acting as though he could "hear" the music. That doesn't astound me anymore ( Read more... )

Met two rattlesnakes in dreams ( Read more... )

I have received a 'nudge' from an old LiveJournal friend to make a post again, and I see that indeed it's been a long time since I have said anything in this format ( Read more... )

it's weird to be 46 now, well into what I've always considered the seasoned era of adulthood, and still be struggling with so much self-doubt and self-hatred and other neurotic anxieties.

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mental illness is getting old