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ITS 4 AM AND IM DOING WORK ISNT THAT COOL
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I break momentarily, since I have no drive to work presently but still must, in order to share a bit..
I'm out of shape. I haven't exercised in a month(months almost?). I had 4 snickers ice cream bars and a klondike bar.
We seem to be a little tight on money? Or maybe since I have to deal with the bills now it stresses me out when theres nothing solid liquidity (hah, oxymoron) with which to pay them. Have to pay my tuition tomorrow..but we don't have the cash for that at hand, at the moment, at least, so I need to try and get an extension. If not, don't know.
My father stormed into my room and shouted at me excessively loud and without reason a few moments ago. It made me want to punch myself in the face just so I wouldn't actually scream back at him. Which I felt like doing. Which I never have. That annoyed me a little.
But I'm happy.
Ron came back from Israel, and stayed at my house for a bit. Got to hang out with him, Anthony, Sam, Blake, and Nick at various points in the last week, though he left Saturday sadly. Seeing a little more (and continuingly increasing amount) of my friends, which I had neglected to do recently. Its difficult when I have to drive to school 5 days a week without my own car, am and forced to surrender it to my parents immediately upon returning home. If I could stay in school and do my work, then drive home, I would have more time. Driving back in traffic + trying to do work at home with family/distractions= not the most efficient method of managing my time. Hopefully a remedy to that(Car which my Dad was supposed to get and had the money set aside for?) will arise. In any event, I am seeing more of my friends. I realize they got a bit frustrated when I didn't see them as often (namely Nick, who was too accustomed to the past habits of summer vacation ;p),but that is in the process of ending and will conclude soon enough.
School isn't really overwhelming, I just need to organized myself and get on top of everything. It's difficult to do with how things are in my house sometimes, but whatever.
Valentine's day was this past weekend. I didn't get to do nearly what I had planned, but I still enjoyed it thoroughly ^.^. A little sad that I didn't get to do just as I had planned however..
Originally, I wanted to go to Sheena's dorm, be let in by her roommate, and wake her up by feeding her strawberries, then giving her breakfast in bed. After she was done eatting and she went off to get ready to leave (shower, et al.), I was going to spread rose pedals on her bed and put a bouquet of roses (11 yellow, 1 white) on her desk, so when she came out she would see it. Was going to follow that with a massage..then let her get dressed (heh). Then I wanted to take her to get a manicure, then back to my house to relax for a bit..at night I wanted to take her out to eat someplace nice, then bring her back to her dorm and give her another massage and just lay down with her until I had to leave. Didn't quite go like that though ;\..
Ellen, Sheena's roommate, was heading home that weekend. I thought perhaps I could ask another one of her suite mates to let me in, but then arose the problem of getting into her room (maybe pick the lock? ;p). But, Ron was also leaving Saturday morning. I wouldn't leave him like that, it would be wrong and I didn't want to, so I woke up early and waited to wake him. Sadly, Ron's father came earlier than he had stated originally, and 5 minutes after I woke Ron up, his father arrived and I had to bid him farewell. Won't see him for 3-4 years now, as he is required to join the military now in Israel ;\. Didn't even get to give him breakfast that morning. It was saddening..in any event, after he left, I got ready and headed over to Sheena's. On the way I picked up a bouquet of flowers. Unfortunately they didn't have any white roses (which signify the beginning of a new relationship), :(, so I got 11 yellow roses and 1 beautiful big pink rose, whose bud was noticeably bigger than any of the yellow roses. I also picked up some rose pedals, and some strawberries, and then finally got to her dorm. It took longer than I had expected, but it wasn't too bad. I gave them to her, she went 'aww', then brought them inside and put them on her desk. Mmm, forgot to mention the card I got her. I got her a Happy Bunny card that said "Hi, loser." (she says 'loser' alot, heh), and wrote something long and mushy on the back. I wish I had written a poem or something of the sort, because what I wrote came out far less elegant and moving that I had wanted it to, and I did it in pen at first without making a draft of any sort like an idiot, so I was stuck with it ;p, haha. I suppose it was from the heart though, so thats all well. Also got a small, incredibly soft dog plush, that looked like Hershey (kinda), and gave it to her, hehe.
From her dorm, we went to my house, because my parents needed the car, so I couldn't get her a manicure :\. When we got to my house, I ran downstairs and made her breakfast, which consisted of 2 eggs, one cut and placed on two mini bagels with cheese, and one scrambled, orange juice, water, mocha frappucino, and a cherry italian ice (I had limited materials to work with ;\, haha). I brought it to her on my bed with a mini-table thing so she could eat it on my bed comfortably (ergo breakfast in bed). After that we laid down for a while and just relaxed, which was really nice. Almost was able to take her to get a manicure a bit after that, but we'd have to go with my mother, and that'd be weird, heh, so I declined. While we were in my room, I decided to make use of the rose pedals, so I told her to close her eyes, and I spread them all around my bed. Then I pulled out the strawberries I had (I ran down to get them moments before I did this), with sugar on them (wanted chocolate too but didn't have ;\), and fed it to her. Then she opened her eyes and saw the rose pedals and such. We stayed in my room and did some stuff..we were in there for alot of the day. Then that night, around 11ish perhaps, we fixed ourselves up and went out to eat. Printed out directions to Dave and Busters, which is a very nice place which supposedly has Friday's style food but better, and games (basically a beefed up Jillians), but it was exclusively for 21+ at all hours, which I didn't know ;\, and we couldn't even get food there. We turned around and went instead to Friday's, which was nice, but I wanted to take her someplace new/very good/fancy. In any event..we ate, food was good, had desert (brownie+icecream thing, forget the name at the moment, mMmm), and went back to my house.
When we got to my house, I snuck her upstairs then went downstairs upon being beckoned by my parents. They scolded me for a moment and said something along the lines of "It's late, when were you planning on taking her home?" After a brief dialogue in which I iterated over and over I had planned to take her "soon", my parents said they don't want me driving too late and said I should take her immediately. At some point in the conversation, perhaps jocularly, my Mom proposed, "I'd prefer she sleep here and you take her in the morning than you driving late." It was followed by a silent moment, which I broke by inquiring, "Could she?" My mom said, "I guess..but you'll be in different rooms. You be downstairs here, and she can be in your room." Haha, so I agreed and went up to tell Sheena.
I was extremely, EXTREMELY, surprised that my parents let her stay. We changed into some pj's (I lent her one of mine), brushed our teeth, and slipped under the covers of my bed. I layed down with her in my bed, waiting till she fell asleep so I could judge whether staying by her side in my bed was feasible, but instead fell asleep with her, maybe even before she did, haha. I can't describe how wonderful it was to sleep with her in my arms, or how happy I was to slowly open my eyes and see and feel her face right in front of mine. I slept very little, because I couldn't believe she was in my arms, so I constantly would hug her tightly and smile. But the little sleep I did get was fulfilling, and it was actually a joy to open my eyes and wake from my slumber, because I was living a dream. I know to some maybe it doesn't sound like such a big deal, and maybe it wasn't, but I can honestly say I don't think I've ever been more happy in my life.
The next morning, after waking up nice and late in the morning, I took her to get breakfast at the deli by my house, and brought her back to her dorm. I didn't want to leave her..I never do. I've never felt like this before..I know perhaps I am still a bit infatuated with her, or rather still in the stage of infatuation, but I can look at situations objectively, and I know that these feelings aren't fleeting. I hope the same goes for her, heh.
Bleh, been writing for almost an hour now..I could have been done with my work, and then slept for 2 hours before school. Looks like I'll only get a tiny nap before I have to head out ;\. Damnit.
!!!!
I break momentarily, since I have no drive to work presently but still must, in order to share a bit..
I'm out of shape. I haven't exercised in a month(months almost?). I had 4 snickers ice cream bars and a klondike bar.
We seem to be a little tight on money? Or maybe since I have to deal with the bills now it stresses me out when theres nothing solid liquidity (hah, oxymoron) with which to pay them. Have to pay my tuition tomorrow..but we don't have the cash for that at hand, at the moment, at least, so I need to try and get an extension. If not, don't know.
My father stormed into my room and shouted at me excessively loud and without reason a few moments ago. It made me want to punch myself in the face just so I wouldn't actually scream back at him. Which I felt like doing. Which I never have. That annoyed me a little.
But I'm happy.
Ron came back from Israel, and stayed at my house for a bit. Got to hang out with him, Anthony, Sam, Blake, and Nick at various points in the last week, though he left Saturday sadly. Seeing a little more (and continuingly increasing amount) of my friends, which I had neglected to do recently. Its difficult when I have to drive to school 5 days a week without my own car, am and forced to surrender it to my parents immediately upon returning home. If I could stay in school and do my work, then drive home, I would have more time. Driving back in traffic + trying to do work at home with family/distractions= not the most efficient method of managing my time. Hopefully a remedy to that(Car which my Dad was supposed to get and had the money set aside for?) will arise. In any event, I am seeing more of my friends. I realize they got a bit frustrated when I didn't see them as often (namely Nick, who was too accustomed to the past habits of summer vacation ;p),but that is in the process of ending and will conclude soon enough.
School isn't really overwhelming, I just need to organized myself and get on top of everything. It's difficult to do with how things are in my house sometimes, but whatever.
Valentine's day was this past weekend. I didn't get to do nearly what I had planned, but I still enjoyed it thoroughly ^.^. A little sad that I didn't get to do just as I had planned however..
Originally, I wanted to go to Sheena's dorm, be let in by her roommate, and wake her up by feeding her strawberries, then giving her breakfast in bed. After she was done eatting and she went off to get ready to leave (shower, et al.), I was going to spread rose pedals on her bed and put a bouquet of roses (11 yellow, 1 white) on her desk, so when she came out she would see it. Was going to follow that with a massage..then let her get dressed (heh). Then I wanted to take her to get a manicure, then back to my house to relax for a bit..at night I wanted to take her out to eat someplace nice, then bring her back to her dorm and give her another massage and just lay down with her until I had to leave. Didn't quite go like that though ;\..
Ellen, Sheena's roommate, was heading home that weekend. I thought perhaps I could ask another one of her suite mates to let me in, but then arose the problem of getting into her room (maybe pick the lock? ;p). But, Ron was also leaving Saturday morning. I wouldn't leave him like that, it would be wrong and I didn't want to, so I woke up early and waited to wake him. Sadly, Ron's father came earlier than he had stated originally, and 5 minutes after I woke Ron up, his father arrived and I had to bid him farewell. Won't see him for 3-4 years now, as he is required to join the military now in Israel ;\. Didn't even get to give him breakfast that morning. It was saddening..in any event, after he left, I got ready and headed over to Sheena's. On the way I picked up a bouquet of flowers. Unfortunately they didn't have any white roses (which signify the beginning of a new relationship), :(, so I got 11 yellow roses and 1 beautiful big pink rose, whose bud was noticeably bigger than any of the yellow roses. I also picked up some rose pedals, and some strawberries, and then finally got to her dorm. It took longer than I had expected, but it wasn't too bad. I gave them to her, she went 'aww', then brought them inside and put them on her desk. Mmm, forgot to mention the card I got her. I got her a Happy Bunny card that said "Hi, loser." (she says 'loser' alot, heh), and wrote something long and mushy on the back. I wish I had written a poem or something of the sort, because what I wrote came out far less elegant and moving that I had wanted it to, and I did it in pen at first without making a draft of any sort like an idiot, so I was stuck with it ;p, haha. I suppose it was from the heart though, so thats all well. Also got a small, incredibly soft dog plush, that looked like Hershey (kinda), and gave it to her, hehe.
From her dorm, we went to my house, because my parents needed the car, so I couldn't get her a manicure :\. When we got to my house, I ran downstairs and made her breakfast, which consisted of 2 eggs, one cut and placed on two mini bagels with cheese, and one scrambled, orange juice, water, mocha frappucino, and a cherry italian ice (I had limited materials to work with ;\, haha). I brought it to her on my bed with a mini-table thing so she could eat it on my bed comfortably (ergo breakfast in bed). After that we laid down for a while and just relaxed, which was really nice. Almost was able to take her to get a manicure a bit after that, but we'd have to go with my mother, and that'd be weird, heh, so I declined. While we were in my room, I decided to make use of the rose pedals, so I told her to close her eyes, and I spread them all around my bed. Then I pulled out the strawberries I had (I ran down to get them moments before I did this), with sugar on them (wanted chocolate too but didn't have ;\), and fed it to her. Then she opened her eyes and saw the rose pedals and such. We stayed in my room and did some stuff..we were in there for alot of the day. Then that night, around 11ish perhaps, we fixed ourselves up and went out to eat. Printed out directions to Dave and Busters, which is a very nice place which supposedly has Friday's style food but better, and games (basically a beefed up Jillians), but it was exclusively for 21+ at all hours, which I didn't know ;\, and we couldn't even get food there. We turned around and went instead to Friday's, which was nice, but I wanted to take her someplace new/very good/fancy. In any event..we ate, food was good, had desert (brownie+icecream thing, forget the name at the moment, mMmm), and went back to my house.
When we got to my house, I snuck her upstairs then went downstairs upon being beckoned by my parents. They scolded me for a moment and said something along the lines of "It's late, when were you planning on taking her home?" After a brief dialogue in which I iterated over and over I had planned to take her "soon", my parents said they don't want me driving too late and said I should take her immediately. At some point in the conversation, perhaps jocularly, my Mom proposed, "I'd prefer she sleep here and you take her in the morning than you driving late." It was followed by a silent moment, which I broke by inquiring, "Could she?" My mom said, "I guess..but you'll be in different rooms. You be downstairs here, and she can be in your room." Haha, so I agreed and went up to tell Sheena.
I was extremely, EXTREMELY, surprised that my parents let her stay. We changed into some pj's (I lent her one of mine), brushed our teeth, and slipped under the covers of my bed. I layed down with her in my bed, waiting till she fell asleep so I could judge whether staying by her side in my bed was feasible, but instead fell asleep with her, maybe even before she did, haha. I can't describe how wonderful it was to sleep with her in my arms, or how happy I was to slowly open my eyes and see and feel her face right in front of mine. I slept very little, because I couldn't believe she was in my arms, so I constantly would hug her tightly and smile. But the little sleep I did get was fulfilling, and it was actually a joy to open my eyes and wake from my slumber, because I was living a dream. I know to some maybe it doesn't sound like such a big deal, and maybe it wasn't, but I can honestly say I don't think I've ever been more happy in my life.
The next morning, after waking up nice and late in the morning, I took her to get breakfast at the deli by my house, and brought her back to her dorm. I didn't want to leave her..I never do. I've never felt like this before..I know perhaps I am still a bit infatuated with her, or rather still in the stage of infatuation, but I can look at situations objectively, and I know that these feelings aren't fleeting. I hope the same goes for her, heh.
Bleh, been writing for almost an hour now..I could have been done with my work, and then slept for 2 hours before school. Looks like I'll only get a tiny nap before I have to head out ;\. Damnit.