late night ramblings
Funny how one little question will bring out such a conversation. I just couldn't resist, I had to immortalize this because there were things I had forgotten from so long ago, and it was actually a pleasure to recount this so I felt honored and wanted to share this with everyone else...
X Mer De Nom X: I can't sleep
W0lfM00n18: awwww
W0lfM00n18: I figured something was up
W0lfM00n18: heheh
W0lfM00n18: that or you took one hell of a power nap
W0lfM00n18: ;)
W0lfM00n18: and I was gonna make you tell me the secrets of your power naps
X Mer De Nom X: well I layed down and then it just hit me like.. I can't sleep
X Mer De Nom X: and I really need to
W0lfM00n18: that sucks, I have the problem ALL the time
X Mer De Nom X: I mean, I'm tired
W0lfM00n18: I always read alot and rub my eyes really hard
W0lfM00n18: whenever I rub my eyes, count me down for the taking
W0lfM00n18: heheh
X Mer De Nom X: lol.
W0lfM00n18: are you overtired mah dear? How much sleep have you had lately?
X Mer De Nom X: I think I'll just look at some naked pics of Peter Steele
W0lfM00n18: HAHAHAH
X Mer De Nom X: that'll get me to sleep
W0lfM00n18: my god are you wanting to go insane or get sleep
W0lfM00n18: did you drink alot of caffeine today?
X Mer De Nom X: actually, I had plenty of sleep today seeing as how I didn't have to work
W0lfM00n18: sometimes that fucks with ppl, of course not me because I drinks o much of it it doesn't effect me
X Mer De Nom X: yeah, I drink so much of it it doesn't have much effect
W0lfM00n18: well sometimes your body is not so shy about showing you what you need and don't need
X Mer De Nom X: I need Peter Steel
X Mer De Nom X: e
W0lfM00n18: and I always say if I can't sleep, get the hell up before bed becomes a hated place and do something
X Mer De Nom X: lol a hated place
W0lfM00n18: well sometimes it is anyway like when I used to haveta get up at 3am for starbucks
W0lfM00n18: that was not fun so I hated going to bed
W0lfM00n18: ...i guess it all depends on situational things
X Mer De Nom X: rawr
W0lfM00n18: well you could always try a Nightcap hehehe in the olden days just heat up some milk and put a good ol shot of whiskey in it
W0lfM00n18: heheh
W0lfM00n18: or rum
X Mer De Nom X: I have no rum, RUMMY
W0lfM00n18: hmm actually that sounds so gross
W0lfM00n18: lol
W0lfM00n18: RRRRRRRRum (rolling r's)
W0lfM00n18: =
W0lfM00n18: YYYYYYYYum
X Mer De Nom X: haw
W0lfM00n18: heheh
W0lfM00n18: I keep myself busy watching aaron play devil may cry 3
W0lfM00n18: which is the hardest fucking game conceivable
X Mer De Nom X: lol
W0lfM00n18: I'm still reading my old entries
W0lfM00n18: I'm pathetic
W0lfM00n18: lol
X Mer De Nom X: may I ask you something
W0lfM00n18: you know you are getting old when you sit there reading about shit from two years ago ahha
W0lfM00n18: why, yes, good sir, you may ask me anything
X Mer De Nom X: lol
X Mer De Nom X: I mean, really I should be able to just go on 3 hours of sleep no problem.. it's weird
X Mer De Nom X: how did you know Aaron was the one
X Mer De Nom X: ?
W0lfM00n18: LOL
W0lfM00n18: er lol!! my goodnes
W0lfM00n18: what a question
X Mer De Nom X: You is teh laughing at me
W0lfM00n18: you are wanting to stay up aren't you!
W0lfM00n18: no I am just surprised
X Mer De Nom X: I've already had 4 beers
X Mer De Nom X: earlier
W0lfM00n18: I didn't expect that question
X Mer De Nom X: I could keep drinking
X Mer De Nom X: that might help
W0lfM00n18: now, now....lush!
W0lfM00n18: :)
X Mer De Nom X: well see, I keep looking at these pictures of Peter
W0lfM00n18: beer is not the answer
W0lfM00n18: uh huh
W0lfM00n18: And peter steele...
W0lfM00n18: ?
X Mer De Nom X: lol... well, we had this big dinner thing tonight
X Mer De Nom X: and I drank some
W0lfM00n18: oh I see
X Mer De Nom X: not to be a lush
X Mer De Nom X: lol
X Mer De Nom X: anyway
X Mer De Nom X: I'm kidding about the Peter Steel
X Mer De Nom X: so yeah...
W0lfM00n18: well
W0lfM00n18: let's see...
W0lfM00n18: I guess when...ahhaha I'm sorry pardon me i feel like some ol granny retale-ing some story about my olden days
W0lfM00n18: forgive me I"ve been a real snickering mess today
X Mer De Nom X: lol1
W0lfM00n18: I can't stop giggling on and off I have no clue why
W0lfM00n18: okay I'll be serious here
W0lfM00n18: or atelast try ;)
X Mer De Nom X: okay lol
W0lfM00n18: I guess when I first met aaron, I was in a quite tumultous period in my life when I was still living with Joe (the abusive asshole drunk psycho with mental problems swimming out his arse, but another story) I digress...I was living with Joe but I snuck out to hang out with Lauren and to meet aaron (just like as a new friend)...she had been wanting me to get out and meet some new people since joe kept me locked up...she was my first real friend since I had been with Joe and since I had been working at the warehouse and honestly, she was the reason I ever met Aaron *takes big breath*
W0lfM00n18: my relationship with Joe was completely over with, as I think I have stated beforehand that I didn't touch him for a year....and I was already planning to leave the apartment I was in since the lease ended soon...and we went to the mall and I met aaron and I just remembing thinking how calm he was and SO unlike joe
W0lfM00n18: Lauren had todl me some things about him before I met him, because she rahter had a few men she knew that she wanted to later "hook me up with" (hell you know how lareun is heheheh silly and always thinking of pairing people together) and so she started listing off names and aaron ahppened to be the first one she mentioned after listing off a few names and I said damn you know let's just stop there I don't want to get to know all these guys and feel bad choosing one so just tell me about aaron
W0lfM00n18: lauren and I talked and talked every single night while at work, and she'd tell me little tidbits about his likes/dislikes and some of his previous relationships so I knew what i was getting myself into, and I found that aaron and I had some good things in common, and once we met, I think there was good mental and physical attraction...but I wasn't ready to jump into any relationships so I waited and then I left joe and I choose to stay alone for a few weeks to almost "detoxify" myself from Joe's bad habits and recover from everything...and then I was ready to maybe begin at the very least a good friendship with aaron...so every free time lauren would always pick me up and bring me to pick up aaron and we'd all hang out..and ihave very fond memories of those days...I learned about invader zim and adult swim, we all shared poetry and artwork, I distinctly remember sitting around in a circle and getting to know each other...it was really neat to look back upon now...and we took VTO or basically vacation days from work since workloads were low anyway ....just to have as much time together as possible (all three of us, and sometimes four since lauren was still with andy)
W0lfM00n18: am I puttin gyou to sleep yet?
W0lfM00n18: hehehe
X Mer De Nom X: no
X Mer De Nom X: I'm listening
W0lfM00n18: lauren would always tease me about aaron oogling me or something cute that i said, and after a little while I realized I really cared about aaron and wanted to be closer to him...he seemed very caring and wanted to see me happy and I felt like that was all I ever needed..every night that lauren dropped me off from work (because at that time we would go to work together and ride in the same car, god love her, she would come from brownsburg to indy just to get me ahha)..and we'd sit in that car for hours and blab abotu ya know girlie things and aaron and what the future would hold...and so around feb. 26th or so we really formed a relationship and I slowly let out alot of my demons from the past and never once did he look at me different...and so I realized I could trust him, he wanted me to be happy, and he cared about me...I thin it was those qualities that really won me over..because they were very genuine...
W0lfM00n18: so one night, after we went to the warehouse to see the band practice and ppl had teased us and asked if we were together yet..lauren and i went to drop him off and as he was walking away I just dunno what hapepened I jumped outta the car and I said Hey where do you think you are going? you can't leave without giving me a hug" (or basically to that extent haha I am bad at exact words) and that's what really started it I do think...
X Mer De Nom X: :)
W0lfM00n18: I think he was somewhat shy and we both liked each other it was apparent so I made the first ahhah move if you will call it that....and while he finished high school and I worked, we woudl write notes back and forth he woudl write tham at school and I would write them at work and I'd drive to his house late at night and leave one taped to the door..and aaron would put one in the same spot that I left it so the next night when I left to leave a note there would be one for me
W0lfM00n18: those were very fond memories as well...see, when someone takes the time to write you a letter with little drwaings and poems and just thoughtful things, that is a great quality it shows they care...
W0lfM00n18: so after a few weeks of that, I decided I needed to see him more...I was always working late and he had to get up early...so I demanded that I take him to school, and screw the bus someone I cared about was NOT going to ride on those yellow hellrides so I offered to take him to school...and I woke up every mornigns for atleast three months and I'd bring him doritos and coffee so he could eat on the way to school and I'd always be so excited to pick him up I'd just spring awake at 5am even tho I barely got to sleep at 4am hahah and that is definitely love right there ya know?
X Mer De Nom X: Yeah:)
W0lfM00n18: and eventually it was so silly that i'd spend the night at his house straight after work (so it would be like 1am when I got there) and still wake up to take him to school and then I'd go home...and eventually his mom and aaron decided I should come stay with aaron because it just seemed right so I packed up and came here...and I been here ever since heheheh the end
W0lfM00n18: lol
W0lfM00n18: so are you tired yet heheh :) if not I am smoking real fast that was quite a mental workout in fact I think I will copy this somewhere and save it lol! thanks for asking...did I explain everything okay?
W0lfM00n18: phew okay
W0lfM00n18: smoked lol
W0lfM00n18: did you fall asleep heheh
W0lfM00n18: lol
X Mer De Nom X: lol
X Mer De Nom X: I'm here
X Mer De Nom X: I need a cigarette now as well
X Mer De Nom X: luckily, I can smoke in here
W0lfM00n18: awww
W0lfM00n18: hahah
X Mer De Nom X: :)
W0lfM00n18: I know I am quite a story weaver
W0lfM00n18: I can never just come out and say something I haveta include details times events etc
W0lfM00n18: so anyway, I guess in the beginning you never really know if that person would consider you someone they never want to leave, but as time continues relationships mold to the events happening in your life, and sometimes surprises arise and it is never ever permanent it is better to live in the moment and think merrily of the future but you never know, and I have had too many badfallings to truly believe in my future but I can hope and also I trust that if we've been togheter this long, I can expect good things but nothing is solid relationships are liquid and sometimes they evaporate, sometimes they dry up and sometimes the "rain" falls and replenishes them for good
X Mer De Nom X: Well put!
W0lfM00n18: I'm going to have to put this in my livejournal...our convo hahah hope you don't mind
W0lfM00n18: ;)
W0lfM00n18: thank you
W0lfM00n18: and it's hard when relationships are constrained, such as times when we had no privacy and acted more like freinds than lovers, and you conform to your constraints because you love someone....and hopefully for no other reason because that is what kills relationships that is what sucks the energy out of them...and so we've had our evaporated times during then...we've had great times as well..and that is what the "rain" is...it could be one secondo f a moment that is all it takes ya know? it may take a second to dry up and it may take a lifetime to rain again but if it was meant to happen, it will
X Mer De Nom X: :)
X Mer De Nom X: I'm going to save this too
W0lfM00n18: anyway I would only hope the best for you, because I think if anyone could experience that one great moment, they would believe again that not all people suck, not all people are wretched excuses for flesh, and I definitely need to see that people are worthy of trust because I had lost so much faith in that
W0lfM00n18: hahah so I guess you found out if you ask me somehting, I will definitely TELL them haha
X Mer De Nom X: ;)
X Mer De Nom X: Welp..
X Mer De Nom X: I believe I'm going to try and sleep again
X Mer De Nom X: thanks for your words
W0lfM00n18: I suaully have the best reamblings when I am loopy or exhausted
X Mer De Nom X: I enjoy our discussions
X Mer De Nom X: haha
W0lfM00n18: so...I will send my bill out in the mail tomorrow? hahaha i mean take two of my ramblings and call me in the mornings
W0lfM00n18: well I'm glad
X Mer De Nom X: haha
W0lfM00n18: go to bed then wee one heheh
X Mer De Nom X: lol alrighty.
X Mer De Nom X: goodnight
W0lfM00n18: nighty night insomniacally challenged punk
W0lfM00n18: hee hee
I guess what some ramblings can do is show you how special some people really are, and what one decision will do to change your life for good, and that life isn't always bad, no matter how down I am, I know I will come back to this entry and smile and probably cry a little because that was probably one of the best times in my life...and no I am not drunk hahah though I am sure I sound it being so ....reminiscent and goopy and soppy sounding.
X Mer De Nom X: I can't sleep
W0lfM00n18: awwww
W0lfM00n18: I figured something was up
W0lfM00n18: heheh
W0lfM00n18: that or you took one hell of a power nap
W0lfM00n18: ;)
W0lfM00n18: and I was gonna make you tell me the secrets of your power naps
X Mer De Nom X: well I layed down and then it just hit me like.. I can't sleep
X Mer De Nom X: and I really need to
W0lfM00n18: that sucks, I have the problem ALL the time
X Mer De Nom X: I mean, I'm tired
W0lfM00n18: I always read alot and rub my eyes really hard
W0lfM00n18: whenever I rub my eyes, count me down for the taking
W0lfM00n18: heheh
X Mer De Nom X: lol.
W0lfM00n18: are you overtired mah dear? How much sleep have you had lately?
X Mer De Nom X: I think I'll just look at some naked pics of Peter Steele
W0lfM00n18: HAHAHAH
X Mer De Nom X: that'll get me to sleep
W0lfM00n18: my god are you wanting to go insane or get sleep
W0lfM00n18: did you drink alot of caffeine today?
X Mer De Nom X: actually, I had plenty of sleep today seeing as how I didn't have to work
W0lfM00n18: sometimes that fucks with ppl, of course not me because I drinks o much of it it doesn't effect me
X Mer De Nom X: yeah, I drink so much of it it doesn't have much effect
W0lfM00n18: well sometimes your body is not so shy about showing you what you need and don't need
X Mer De Nom X: I need Peter Steel
X Mer De Nom X: e
W0lfM00n18: and I always say if I can't sleep, get the hell up before bed becomes a hated place and do something
X Mer De Nom X: lol a hated place
W0lfM00n18: well sometimes it is anyway like when I used to haveta get up at 3am for starbucks
W0lfM00n18: that was not fun so I hated going to bed
W0lfM00n18: ...i guess it all depends on situational things
X Mer De Nom X: rawr
W0lfM00n18: well you could always try a Nightcap hehehe in the olden days just heat up some milk and put a good ol shot of whiskey in it
W0lfM00n18: heheh
W0lfM00n18: or rum
X Mer De Nom X: I have no rum, RUMMY
W0lfM00n18: hmm actually that sounds so gross
W0lfM00n18: lol
W0lfM00n18: RRRRRRRRum (rolling r's)
W0lfM00n18: =
W0lfM00n18: YYYYYYYYum
X Mer De Nom X: haw
W0lfM00n18: heheh
W0lfM00n18: I keep myself busy watching aaron play devil may cry 3
W0lfM00n18: which is the hardest fucking game conceivable
X Mer De Nom X: lol
W0lfM00n18: I'm still reading my old entries
W0lfM00n18: I'm pathetic
W0lfM00n18: lol
X Mer De Nom X: may I ask you something
W0lfM00n18: you know you are getting old when you sit there reading about shit from two years ago ahha
W0lfM00n18: why, yes, good sir, you may ask me anything
X Mer De Nom X: lol
X Mer De Nom X: I mean, really I should be able to just go on 3 hours of sleep no problem.. it's weird
X Mer De Nom X: how did you know Aaron was the one
X Mer De Nom X: ?
W0lfM00n18: LOL
W0lfM00n18: er lol!! my goodnes
W0lfM00n18: what a question
X Mer De Nom X: You is teh laughing at me
W0lfM00n18: you are wanting to stay up aren't you!
W0lfM00n18: no I am just surprised
X Mer De Nom X: I've already had 4 beers
X Mer De Nom X: earlier
W0lfM00n18: I didn't expect that question
X Mer De Nom X: I could keep drinking
X Mer De Nom X: that might help
W0lfM00n18: now, now....lush!
W0lfM00n18: :)
X Mer De Nom X: well see, I keep looking at these pictures of Peter
W0lfM00n18: beer is not the answer
W0lfM00n18: uh huh
W0lfM00n18: And peter steele...
W0lfM00n18: ?
X Mer De Nom X: lol... well, we had this big dinner thing tonight
X Mer De Nom X: and I drank some
W0lfM00n18: oh I see
X Mer De Nom X: not to be a lush
X Mer De Nom X: lol
X Mer De Nom X: anyway
X Mer De Nom X: I'm kidding about the Peter Steel
X Mer De Nom X: so yeah...
W0lfM00n18: well
W0lfM00n18: let's see...
W0lfM00n18: I guess when...ahhaha I'm sorry pardon me i feel like some ol granny retale-ing some story about my olden days
W0lfM00n18: forgive me I"ve been a real snickering mess today
X Mer De Nom X: lol1
W0lfM00n18: I can't stop giggling on and off I have no clue why
W0lfM00n18: okay I'll be serious here
W0lfM00n18: or atelast try ;)
X Mer De Nom X: okay lol
W0lfM00n18: I guess when I first met aaron, I was in a quite tumultous period in my life when I was still living with Joe (the abusive asshole drunk psycho with mental problems swimming out his arse, but another story) I digress...I was living with Joe but I snuck out to hang out with Lauren and to meet aaron (just like as a new friend)...she had been wanting me to get out and meet some new people since joe kept me locked up...she was my first real friend since I had been with Joe and since I had been working at the warehouse and honestly, she was the reason I ever met Aaron *takes big breath*
W0lfM00n18: my relationship with Joe was completely over with, as I think I have stated beforehand that I didn't touch him for a year....and I was already planning to leave the apartment I was in since the lease ended soon...and we went to the mall and I met aaron and I just remembing thinking how calm he was and SO unlike joe
W0lfM00n18: Lauren had todl me some things about him before I met him, because she rahter had a few men she knew that she wanted to later "hook me up with" (hell you know how lareun is heheheh silly and always thinking of pairing people together) and so she started listing off names and aaron ahppened to be the first one she mentioned after listing off a few names and I said damn you know let's just stop there I don't want to get to know all these guys and feel bad choosing one so just tell me about aaron
W0lfM00n18: lauren and I talked and talked every single night while at work, and she'd tell me little tidbits about his likes/dislikes and some of his previous relationships so I knew what i was getting myself into, and I found that aaron and I had some good things in common, and once we met, I think there was good mental and physical attraction...but I wasn't ready to jump into any relationships so I waited and then I left joe and I choose to stay alone for a few weeks to almost "detoxify" myself from Joe's bad habits and recover from everything...and then I was ready to maybe begin at the very least a good friendship with aaron...so every free time lauren would always pick me up and bring me to pick up aaron and we'd all hang out..and ihave very fond memories of those days...I learned about invader zim and adult swim, we all shared poetry and artwork, I distinctly remember sitting around in a circle and getting to know each other...it was really neat to look back upon now...and we took VTO or basically vacation days from work since workloads were low anyway ....just to have as much time together as possible (all three of us, and sometimes four since lauren was still with andy)
W0lfM00n18: am I puttin gyou to sleep yet?
W0lfM00n18: hehehe
X Mer De Nom X: no
X Mer De Nom X: I'm listening
W0lfM00n18: lauren would always tease me about aaron oogling me or something cute that i said, and after a little while I realized I really cared about aaron and wanted to be closer to him...he seemed very caring and wanted to see me happy and I felt like that was all I ever needed..every night that lauren dropped me off from work (because at that time we would go to work together and ride in the same car, god love her, she would come from brownsburg to indy just to get me ahha)..and we'd sit in that car for hours and blab abotu ya know girlie things and aaron and what the future would hold...and so around feb. 26th or so we really formed a relationship and I slowly let out alot of my demons from the past and never once did he look at me different...and so I realized I could trust him, he wanted me to be happy, and he cared about me...I thin it was those qualities that really won me over..because they were very genuine...
W0lfM00n18: so one night, after we went to the warehouse to see the band practice and ppl had teased us and asked if we were together yet..lauren and i went to drop him off and as he was walking away I just dunno what hapepened I jumped outta the car and I said Hey where do you think you are going? you can't leave without giving me a hug" (or basically to that extent haha I am bad at exact words) and that's what really started it I do think...
X Mer De Nom X: :)
W0lfM00n18: I think he was somewhat shy and we both liked each other it was apparent so I made the first ahhah move if you will call it that....and while he finished high school and I worked, we woudl write notes back and forth he woudl write tham at school and I would write them at work and I'd drive to his house late at night and leave one taped to the door..and aaron would put one in the same spot that I left it so the next night when I left to leave a note there would be one for me
W0lfM00n18: those were very fond memories as well...see, when someone takes the time to write you a letter with little drwaings and poems and just thoughtful things, that is a great quality it shows they care...
W0lfM00n18: so after a few weeks of that, I decided I needed to see him more...I was always working late and he had to get up early...so I demanded that I take him to school, and screw the bus someone I cared about was NOT going to ride on those yellow hellrides so I offered to take him to school...and I woke up every mornigns for atleast three months and I'd bring him doritos and coffee so he could eat on the way to school and I'd always be so excited to pick him up I'd just spring awake at 5am even tho I barely got to sleep at 4am hahah and that is definitely love right there ya know?
X Mer De Nom X: Yeah:)
W0lfM00n18: and eventually it was so silly that i'd spend the night at his house straight after work (so it would be like 1am when I got there) and still wake up to take him to school and then I'd go home...and eventually his mom and aaron decided I should come stay with aaron because it just seemed right so I packed up and came here...and I been here ever since heheheh the end
W0lfM00n18: lol
W0lfM00n18: so are you tired yet heheh :) if not I am smoking real fast that was quite a mental workout in fact I think I will copy this somewhere and save it lol! thanks for asking...did I explain everything okay?
W0lfM00n18: phew okay
W0lfM00n18: smoked lol
W0lfM00n18: did you fall asleep heheh
W0lfM00n18: lol
X Mer De Nom X: lol
X Mer De Nom X: I'm here
X Mer De Nom X: I need a cigarette now as well
X Mer De Nom X: luckily, I can smoke in here
W0lfM00n18: awww
W0lfM00n18: hahah
X Mer De Nom X: :)
W0lfM00n18: I know I am quite a story weaver
W0lfM00n18: I can never just come out and say something I haveta include details times events etc
W0lfM00n18: so anyway, I guess in the beginning you never really know if that person would consider you someone they never want to leave, but as time continues relationships mold to the events happening in your life, and sometimes surprises arise and it is never ever permanent it is better to live in the moment and think merrily of the future but you never know, and I have had too many badfallings to truly believe in my future but I can hope and also I trust that if we've been togheter this long, I can expect good things but nothing is solid relationships are liquid and sometimes they evaporate, sometimes they dry up and sometimes the "rain" falls and replenishes them for good
X Mer De Nom X: Well put!
W0lfM00n18: I'm going to have to put this in my livejournal...our convo hahah hope you don't mind
W0lfM00n18: ;)
W0lfM00n18: thank you
W0lfM00n18: and it's hard when relationships are constrained, such as times when we had no privacy and acted more like freinds than lovers, and you conform to your constraints because you love someone....and hopefully for no other reason because that is what kills relationships that is what sucks the energy out of them...and so we've had our evaporated times during then...we've had great times as well..and that is what the "rain" is...it could be one secondo f a moment that is all it takes ya know? it may take a second to dry up and it may take a lifetime to rain again but if it was meant to happen, it will
X Mer De Nom X: :)
X Mer De Nom X: I'm going to save this too
W0lfM00n18: anyway I would only hope the best for you, because I think if anyone could experience that one great moment, they would believe again that not all people suck, not all people are wretched excuses for flesh, and I definitely need to see that people are worthy of trust because I had lost so much faith in that
W0lfM00n18: hahah so I guess you found out if you ask me somehting, I will definitely TELL them haha
X Mer De Nom X: ;)
X Mer De Nom X: Welp..
X Mer De Nom X: I believe I'm going to try and sleep again
X Mer De Nom X: thanks for your words
W0lfM00n18: I suaully have the best reamblings when I am loopy or exhausted
X Mer De Nom X: I enjoy our discussions
X Mer De Nom X: haha
W0lfM00n18: so...I will send my bill out in the mail tomorrow? hahaha i mean take two of my ramblings and call me in the mornings
W0lfM00n18: well I'm glad
X Mer De Nom X: haha
W0lfM00n18: go to bed then wee one heheh
X Mer De Nom X: lol alrighty.
X Mer De Nom X: goodnight
W0lfM00n18: nighty night insomniacally challenged punk
W0lfM00n18: hee hee
I guess what some ramblings can do is show you how special some people really are, and what one decision will do to change your life for good, and that life isn't always bad, no matter how down I am, I know I will come back to this entry and smile and probably cry a little because that was probably one of the best times in my life...and no I am not drunk hahah though I am sure I sound it being so ....reminiscent and goopy and soppy sounding.