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I'm going crazy. I honestly am. I can't believe it's only 11am, and I've got 4 more hours to go before he goes home.
I came in early, had the whole thing planned like I wrote it out earlier (in a friends only entry - sorry). I've been days figuring out what to say, because I didn't want to make it sound like I was quitting.
This is how it went:
m=me h=him
m- I really don't know how to say this except-
h- I already know what's going on. When are you gone?
m- I'm on stress leave effective immediately. But I'll stay today if you
h- well that would be appreciated.
m- I really like it here, I just can't take the arguments anym-
h- Enough. It's good.
m- *mumbles* fine then.
Since then, he's not even looked at me. And he's made every effort to make sure that I know that I am completely replaceable. And by that I mean, he's calling head office/my coworker/new employees in front of me saying "I need to hire someone.. immediately."
Since I'm only on Stress Leave, if I ever decided to come back, I totally could! But I wouldn't because you know, he hates me now.
I've debated calling my mom and asking her to come get me, and say that my aunt is in bad shape and that they don't expect her to make it. It's true. And it would get me out of here. But it would leave Jon and Matt here alone plus make manager pissed.
I really want to cry, and I'm stuck by myself over here in the corner, made to feel like a naughty child. I can't go to my aunt, because then she'll get manager's wrath. And my friend in mattress doesn't know yet, plus she's got a rep this morning. I don't know what I'm going to do. It looks too obvious to be cleaning out my drawer and such..
I'm in a mess. And I wish I had never said that I would stay today. Kelley wanted to go shopping, and I really want to get out of here and go with her.