Adam screams all over my body. I miss the wieght of his body on top of mine. I want the pressure of his body next to me. I stared at him so hard the day I left to try and make his face imprint into my brain. I remember every inch of his face. I'm tired so I need to sleep before I make myself crazy. The promise of seeing him again is so ( Read more... )

I know that I will never let you go. You asshole, my love. I know now that you will never leave my heart. The impression left is permanent and fighting is futile. And why would I want to? I love you with all of my heart, and it belongs to you. I'll sleep with others, I know that. I'll marry another, I know that now. But my heart will always be

i am so lifeless. hearing, "we had a good run" makes me want to die. everything hurts so bad...i honestly don't want to do this..to feel this. And to know that I am the sole reason why I feel like this makes me so sick. I lost the most amazing man and I will never have him again. Ever. That's it; out and over. I don't want to settle for that ( Read more... )

I have zero energy to go through my MySpace account and delete all of the Adam from my page. I'd rather just delete the whole damn thing. I'm so sick. I'm on a shitload of meds and right now I feel like I'm walking on a cloud. I'm miserable ( Read more... )

I have a found a new musical joy and it is called The Extraordinary Machine. All must listen.

"Yes, everyone!"

I think I'm going to go on a dry spell for awhile. I now know what it is like to be on the other end of the drunk. And it's eye-opening. Listening to someone puke, especially someone who caused an arguement between myself and someone I love, makes me realize that drinking in excess blows. Especially at people's birthday parties. Fuck this. I' ( Read more... )

I, like the man, also love parties. I believe that we're quite booked-up for this fourth of July weekend (aka INDEPENDENCE DAY) and that's thrilling. Now, I need to talk Adam into going to do our laundry. At the moment he's "napping" and it's adorable. He'll lie in bed with his boxers and his dog and soon you'll hear his little snores...which ( Read more... )