well at least you wont to me...and if you feel like you are fading within yourself just know i will always be here to remind you what a beautiful, wonderfully perfect person you are. it doesnt matter if you dont see it yet...you will and it is my personal job to make you realize this. i love you so very much. i really wish i was down there right now and not up here where i feel like dying...but i know you are there and if i died it would make you upset and that would be unfair to you...so i just hope that you realize i would die without out you and if one person relies on you so much then you cant be fading into nothing....right? right. i hope you feel better...i feel like shit too not that many people notice nor give a fuck but i know you do and always will. i thought you were gonna call me? grrrrrrr anyway i love you very much you are my number one defender as i am yours even if that means i have to defend you against yourself.
I think that sometimes you're the only reason why I don't fade away. You're so sure of me all the time, when I'm around it's really hard to resist that...I wish you were here too, because I have so much more confidence in my self when I know that someone else does too.
You're my light in an otherwise dark room, and I hope that I am yours.
you'll only fade if you allow it. but in order for someone to really know you, you have to know yourself. if you can't respect yourself, then who will? same goes with trust, love, &everything else
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I just want to let you know, I know myself pretty well, and while I really appreciate your comments, I feel the way I feel. There's no changing it.
Sometimes I get really depressed, not all the time, but sometimes. I don't think it matters if I know what hitting rock bottom feels like or not. I am just expressing the way I feel. It doesn't matter if I am justified in feeling that way or not. It doesn't make it any different to think that feeling something isn't justified. You're going to feel that way regardless.
I am not trying to relate my experience to anyone else's. I am not trying to claim that I know what anyone else feels like. It's my experience and my observations about myself that help me to know myself.
When I feel a certain way, I'm gonna write that down in my journal. I'm sorry if it pisses you off, but my journal is my way of being honest with myself.
I love ya, and really appreciate that you care about me. I hope you don't take my posts the wrong way. They are for me and not really for anyone else.
i adore you, trisha, i do, &i apologize if my comment came across as if you're not allowed to write how you feel or your feelings have to be justified in order to express them. that wasn't my intention at all &i didn't lay down my opinions for it to be that way. you have every right to say what you want.
i suppose you'll never know where i come from &vice versa because like i said, we don't hang out, let alone talk as much to know. there's just so~ many things that i find as a personal offense because there's so~ much that people over-look or exaggerate on when they won't even take a few steps back to see what's really there &think of how light things really are for them compared to how they make them seem to be. i will never tell you to not feel a certain way because someone has it worse; i won't say that because that doesn't change the way you feel, &the fact that you're feeling a certain way isn't what bothers me, it bothers me when people exaggerate things, when they really, really don't know how it feels to have death as
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I think that sometimes you're the only reason why I don't fade away. You're so sure of me all the time, when I'm around it's really hard to resist that...I wish you were here too, because I have so much more confidence in my self when I know that someone else does too.
You're my light in an otherwise dark room, and I hope that I am yours.
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Sometimes I get really depressed, not all the time, but sometimes. I don't think it matters if I know what hitting rock bottom feels like or not. I am just expressing the way I feel. It doesn't matter if I am justified in feeling that way or not. It doesn't make it any different to think that feeling something isn't justified. You're going to feel that way regardless.
I am not trying to relate my experience to anyone else's. I am not trying to claim that I know what anyone else feels like. It's my experience and my observations about myself that help me to know myself.
When I feel a certain way, I'm gonna write that down in my journal. I'm sorry if it pisses you off, but my journal is my way of being honest with myself.
I love ya, and really appreciate that you care about me. I hope you don't take my posts the wrong way. They are for me and not really for anyone else.
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i suppose you'll never know where i come from &vice versa because like i said, we don't hang out, let alone talk as much to know. there's just so~ many things that i find as a personal offense because there's so~ much that people over-look or exaggerate on when they won't even take a few steps back to see what's really there &think of how light things really are for them compared to how they make them seem to be. i will never tell you to not feel a certain way because someone has it worse; i won't say that because that doesn't change the way you feel, &the fact that you're feeling a certain way isn't what bothers me, it bothers me when people exaggerate things, when they really, really don't know how it feels to have death as ( ... )
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