the few people i called friends and loved,
my "best friend" in the world,
have morphed
and i feel distant
i dont know why i am in a relationship
this is a joke
i went on myspace today
and his profile said swinger
and its a joke
just like this relationship
i made a rash decision in hope
and im let down
and now i dont have friends

i want the simplicity and meaninglessness,
of my old shitty but better and amazing life.

i am just as alone with people
as i am when im alone

except as of late
i cant help but feel more alone with people
than i do alone

remember when we decided we were to cool for this planet ( Read more... )

he invokes a certain
misery inside me...
and it makes me feel miserable.

i am told that i have it
i can see it
i can hear it
i can even smell it

but have it i do not...
its driving me fucking crazy

why are things so strange ( Read more... )

yesterday, my brother blayd and i decided it would be a good day to try shrooms. of course, i had no idea what i was about to do, and what would happen to me. what i expected was an amazing spiritual journey. what i got was a terror i could never have imagined. first of all, they tasted like "death" as luke says. trying to chew, and choke them down ( Read more... )

every day come is another day gone
and im one day closer
and one moment closer
and one second closer
and its not enough...
this time is ripping at my skin like gravity
and i cant stand it another minute longer

last night was way boss.
today was way drag.
Christy you are a fucker you forgot to get your haircut.

.i miss consistancy.