so i had a bit of a breakdown yesterday. and was really upset about having no friends and feeling really alone. but i feel REALLY happy now. why do u ask? i got a letter from ryan. i am so in love with him ( Read more... )

i was thinking... about what it means to stop and write about my life. like ( Read more... )

AUGHHH! my mother drives me crazy. time to go back to swat. NOW. my brother is having a friend over, so my mom is cleaning the basement and wants me to partake in this activity. she wants the basement to look all nice so we can pull off the performance of the happy suburban family with either a housecleaner that probably doesn't get paid enough and ( Read more... )

oh god ( Read more... )

would anyone be up for going to some of the events of the THE
HIP-HOP THEATER FESTIVAL
JULY 11-16

when i checked out books whenever ago i got a little ove ambitious. now i have like 3 days to read 3 books. i feel like re-newing 3 of them and only reading 2 of them is a cop out, so i am going to read my ass off until july 1 when my books are due ( Read more... )

last night i got SO DRUNK. i don't know what i was thinking. i started drinking at like 8 pm and it just did not occur to me to stop. i just kept drinking screw driver- and for you swatties, you know what my screw drivers are like. by 2 AM i was puking in the bathroom and hoping that i didn't die. it was really traumatzing. and then somehow, ( Read more... )

oh god. it gets worse.
apparently i'm not going to the gynecologist. i'm going to a doctor. as in... needles doctor.
so its like gynecologist+ doctor.
in one.
i want to shoot myself.
and i hate needles. more than anything. ever. i'm going to pass out if they give me a shot. its happened before. i'm PETRIFIED of needles.

oh man. i get ridiculous while i'm home. i'm thinking- the lord give-ith and the lord take away-ith" or whatever that expression is ( Read more... )

i am taking my cue from Jane and going to write out all i have to look forward to, because i think its a lot and thats cool ( Read more... )