It's not the same. It never will be. No more than one-hundred words we exchanged. I've become someone else you've become someone else and we're still the same people, but it's like we've built a wall. You're not happy. I know it. You feel stuck. I sense it. Deep down, as bad as you don't want to admit it, things aren't as you'd wish. Or ( Read more... )

Last night I felt smaller than I've ever felt before. I also felt infinite. Life is perfect. Life is the best. I'm still here and I know now what no angel knows. I'm leaving for Idaho probably within the hour. Yey!

This is not the way to
burn a field
Shallow graves await
my past
My sunken chest
Alerts me to the end
she is further from me
now than she's ever been
I swore that I'd be
there for her, but
dreams burnt fast
This is not the way
to burn a field
this is not me
This is not the way to
burn it all to the fucking ground

Well, she left and I feel empty and contemplative and nostalgic and I am all ready jealous of whoever she'll be spending her time with there. I mean, new people, new friends, and only they will get to see her in the physical form and they'll get to watch the way she walks and the way she smokes a cigarillo. Or the way her eyes light up at a great ( Read more... )

Is it stupid to wonder why she cared more about not being with the person she's moving to another state with for a month than the fact that that one month was our last one? It was so short for me, so long for her. It didn't matter that soon we wouldn't be able to hang out, but that she hadn't seen him in a few weeks. Is it silly to wonder why he ( Read more... )

I want you, whether I get one percent or one-hundred percent. I hope that someday there will be more for us, hopefully we could make that happen, if you want. Until then I'll enjoy you as you come because I love you and I enjoy your presence very very muchly.

This cute boy picked up nice big headphones and plugged them into his stereo while Radiohead was playing. Obviously he loves music like I dOiTHOUGHT. THEN!!!!! he became godGODGODGODgod. It clearly took him away, he was clearly moved, he FELTnoREALLLLLyFELT it. I wanted to touch him while he was being touched, but my hands might have gone right ( Read more... )

TELL me how'D we get so h i G H? I don't mind at alL, I just want to know how you did it. amAzing oh you're so amaziNg and ah BEAUTiful. I knew it: the ground was WET. I slippeD. i'm SLIPping..... it's O.K. I'm in YOUR ARMS. IN your, IN YOUR you. We'll get upRISE, we'll keEp goingFLOW, we're heRe togetherONE. Here TAKe mY handHAND CLose ( Read more... )

NOW i'm countingCOUNTing down ( Read more... )