Raindrops (1/2)
Title: Raindrops (1/2)
Pairing: half broken! Sihan
Rating: G i guess?
Summary: Siwon and Hangeng is in a very awkward relationship. They are still in relationship but they no more love each other but have other lover each. One ordinary of them at home until Hangeng calls. (first is Siwon's POV and second is Hangeng's POV)
Warning: half broken relation of Sihan, Siwon's POV, it's siwon's pov so some religion in? (at least there's refering to God)
A/N: This fic is inspired by Ellegarden's Raindrops but not really relevent to that song...
The phone rings. When I look at the glistening screen to figure out who the caller is and him. The one who is not as feminine as a girl but who I had loved. The one who is used to sufferings and pains which will never be familiar to me even if I suffer as much as him. The one who loves me no more and who I love... no more. The phone rings one more time. I think whether I should get the call or not. Even few months ago, I didn't care to behave like this and just picked up the phone straight away... Too much has changed. When did this change began... Is this because this relationship is something that the God does not approve... Ah, it stopped.
While I think whether I had to pick up, the phone rings again. The caller number is him. Ring, ring the dull ringtone sounds like a plead to me to get the call so I got the call. Then on the phone, all I could listen was silence. It's awkward.
"Hello?"
I can not bear the awkwardness and talked first. Then there is his voice just after as if he was waiting.
[Siwon, what are you doing?]
"Oh.. I'm at home. I have just came back from work and what about you, hyung"
[Ah, me? At home too. Playing with DuoDuo. If you have just came back from work then take a shower and rest. If you do not care about your health because you think it's fine right now, you would regret.]
"Ah.. Yeah."
[Then I'm going to hang up?]
"Yeah. Hyung has to rest as well."
[Yes, bye.]
He hangs up first. We used to fight each other to hang up first in the past and I have found another difference. The background shows up after the call. Even few weeks ago, it was him and me but now, it's me with a woman hugging each other. My new love.. She is more feminine, petite, pretty than him and the love which the God approves. The only thing that is similar to him is the eye which looks like a kind and pure due to it's lowering end.
After putting the phone down, I go to bathroom to take shower as he said. Two toothbrushes in the cup. One of them is his. It has not been used for couple of weeks already. He has not been at my house for couple of weeks as well. I even don't thought of throwing it away but stare at it blankly until I snap out of blankness due to the chill and I take a shower. After the confusing relationship between him started, I spent more time not focusing on anything.
I come out from the bathroom and get changed then lay on the bed. As I look at the side, there are two photo frames on the bedside table. One which is facing down is the photo of him and me. The one which is standing is the photo of her and me. It's just like now. The old love that I have not cut away yet and the present-tense new love. I just wonder. Whether his house will be just like mine. When I think that it will be the same, I feel relieved due to the idea that I'm not the only one and some sadness that I do not understand why.
My friends ask me. Why I don't stop my relationship with him. Well, why is that? When I always practice it in front of the mirror, when I relize that I'm not loving him anymore. Maybe I know the reason. I may know that I'm afraid. I maybe know that when I finally break up with him, the happy moments that I shared with him will be broken and shattered into pieces and fly away with the wind that blows as nothing was there from the start.
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Wha---------- it's really awkward!!!
How could I translate the old fanfic which I have written in my mother tougue into English! It's weird!!
It's kind of depressing.. I'm not like that? But why do my hands just end up making it like this!!
It's sihan but I even didn't write either of them's name!!
comments are welcomed and also critics..
Pairing: half broken! Sihan
Rating: G i guess?
Summary: Siwon and Hangeng is in a very awkward relationship. They are still in relationship but they no more love each other but have other lover each. One ordinary of them at home until Hangeng calls. (first is Siwon's POV and second is Hangeng's POV)
Warning: half broken relation of Sihan, Siwon's POV, it's siwon's pov so some religion in? (at least there's refering to God)
A/N: This fic is inspired by Ellegarden's Raindrops but not really relevent to that song...
The phone rings. When I look at the glistening screen to figure out who the caller is and him. The one who is not as feminine as a girl but who I had loved. The one who is used to sufferings and pains which will never be familiar to me even if I suffer as much as him. The one who loves me no more and who I love... no more. The phone rings one more time. I think whether I should get the call or not. Even few months ago, I didn't care to behave like this and just picked up the phone straight away... Too much has changed. When did this change began... Is this because this relationship is something that the God does not approve... Ah, it stopped.
While I think whether I had to pick up, the phone rings again. The caller number is him. Ring, ring the dull ringtone sounds like a plead to me to get the call so I got the call. Then on the phone, all I could listen was silence. It's awkward.
"Hello?"
I can not bear the awkwardness and talked first. Then there is his voice just after as if he was waiting.
[Siwon, what are you doing?]
"Oh.. I'm at home. I have just came back from work and what about you, hyung"
[Ah, me? At home too. Playing with DuoDuo. If you have just came back from work then take a shower and rest. If you do not care about your health because you think it's fine right now, you would regret.]
"Ah.. Yeah."
[Then I'm going to hang up?]
"Yeah. Hyung has to rest as well."
[Yes, bye.]
He hangs up first. We used to fight each other to hang up first in the past and I have found another difference. The background shows up after the call. Even few weeks ago, it was him and me but now, it's me with a woman hugging each other. My new love.. She is more feminine, petite, pretty than him and the love which the God approves. The only thing that is similar to him is the eye which looks like a kind and pure due to it's lowering end.
After putting the phone down, I go to bathroom to take shower as he said. Two toothbrushes in the cup. One of them is his. It has not been used for couple of weeks already. He has not been at my house for couple of weeks as well. I even don't thought of throwing it away but stare at it blankly until I snap out of blankness due to the chill and I take a shower. After the confusing relationship between him started, I spent more time not focusing on anything.
I come out from the bathroom and get changed then lay on the bed. As I look at the side, there are two photo frames on the bedside table. One which is facing down is the photo of him and me. The one which is standing is the photo of her and me. It's just like now. The old love that I have not cut away yet and the present-tense new love. I just wonder. Whether his house will be just like mine. When I think that it will be the same, I feel relieved due to the idea that I'm not the only one and some sadness that I do not understand why.
My friends ask me. Why I don't stop my relationship with him. Well, why is that? When I always practice it in front of the mirror, when I relize that I'm not loving him anymore. Maybe I know the reason. I may know that I'm afraid. I maybe know that when I finally break up with him, the happy moments that I shared with him will be broken and shattered into pieces and fly away with the wind that blows as nothing was there from the start.
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Wha---------- it's really awkward!!!
How could I translate the old fanfic which I have written in my mother tougue into English! It's weird!!
It's kind of depressing.. I'm not like that? But why do my hands just end up making it like this!!
It's sihan but I even didn't write either of them's name!!
comments are welcomed and also critics..