it has come to my attention that I've kinda lost touch with a lot of people. there are very few friends that i could tell you whats going on in there lives which all of a sudden feels really strange ( Read more... )

i hate you vista

let me count the ways

ya aparently "my documents" was to long so vista's new update changed the "my documents" to documents. problem is everything in my documents is gone and now i have to re-install all my programs and reset all my settings.

thank you vista you finally gave me the reason i needed to go back to windows

after watching yet another musical tonight i realized how much i missed the art center at COD. It was the only place where you could ( Read more... )

i drempt i was in the back room of my house again my white candle was the only form of light in the room. andy was there with me. we were talking. my dad was on the edge of the room. his preasence was very dark. it faded into one of the back rooms. i went back to talking with andy and his eyes swiched. almost like a dogs eye. white and ( Read more... )

so i have a delema ( Read more... )

things aren't going quite as well as i had hoped. at this point i thought i would have a plan as far as what i needed to do, things im in the possess of doing, and things i got done. I was hoping i would have more done by this point. it looks like its going to take another month and a half before i can even re evaluate what needs to be done ( Read more... )

things are going ok i guess. Im surviving and so are the ones closest to me. I've been worrying over the over all health of a person very close to me. I've been having many dreams about it ( Read more... )

another Friday night...im glad i am not at work but the weekends are getting uncomfortably long. I sit and think..and wait. i wait for the most important men in my life are no where to be found. I'd drink...but if i drink i'm afraid i'll start crying and won't be able to stop ( Read more... )

been sick so its given me a lot of time to think. maybe a little to much time but thats not the point. the last month and a half has been tough, full of what ifs and i have a better idea who my real friends are. the future still scares me but i guess that will be something i'm going to have to muscle threw as well ( Read more... )