Now, first and foremost, I've always been a sub and masochist. Deep in my heart those roles will always be the ones that get me going the most, touching the deepest, most primal eroticism in me. However, in the past few months I've developed a bit of the dominant role, and the dominant essence within myself, and it's incredible ( Read more... )

I am a wimp. Well, a wimp about my eyes ( Read more... )

Before I left for Chicago for the holidays, I went through a hardcore, buckle-down, session and recorded 4 songs on my studio mixer. They all remain very rough drafts, but I wanted to pop something out just to show my parents and some friends how it's progressing. This next upcoming winter I plan to solidify all the songs, mix them, etc. I have ( Read more... )

I know no one else cares about the weather, I know everyone deals with it, and I'm a freak for hating this horrible Wisconsin winter weather, but I just have to bitch for a minute, so give me that. I'm currently sick - sore throat, congestion, so I have less patience for things right now ( Read more... )

I think there's a reason I have been primarily targeting girls for the past 6 months as the focus of my sexual pursuits. Beginning with my first sexual experience with a girl, I felt this crazy energy in my body. It's specifically in my core, like beginning with the solar plexus and flashing through the center of my chest, underneath my sternum. ( Read more... )

In the spirit of compulsion, here is a list of 8 albums that have inspired or healed me the most. I've included the reasons for each. They are in order from most influential to least. 8 is my favorite number, that's why there are 8 ( Read more... )

I wish I could meditate while horny. It seems like I could use my sexual energy to probe deeper into various states of consciousness, but I just can't do it. I just want to get off. So then I have to go get off, but then when I come back to meditate, I find my energy depleted, so then I have to wait like an hour. I just can't focus when I'm horny. ( Read more... )

I would just like to thank L S D. While the last time I did it, in August, was so intense, that I decided to take a year long hiatus (or at least until this next summer to do it again, and once I do, from then on it will be possibly once, maybe twice a year or less), the chemical changed my life. It put me in touch with my underlying self, the ( Read more... )

Let's see ( Read more... )

Joanne: so, you're home this morning ( Read more... )