Well.. it appears as though I didn't get into Amherst. I got the letter today offically telling me that I'm a failure. I wasn't sure at first, I just needed some offical recognition to tell me that I suck at life. I don't know what I'm going to do now. I guess just wait to hear back from Bridgewater ( Read more... )

"And so I leave this world,

Where the heart must either break or

Turn to lead"

~~Suicide note of French author Nicolas-Sebastien Chamfort

The only truth I have ever read.

I feel confused. It feels as though I'm missing something. It's as if an entire piece of myself has extracted itself and ran away. I can't put my finger on what it is that I'm missing, and I wish I could. Maybe then I wouldn't feel like a piece of worthless shit. I need to get out of this fucking house. My family is slowly killing me.. I swear. ( Read more... )

I'm bored and sorta lonely so.. call me if you want to do something.

^_^

>>>me<<<

This is me not doing my research paper...

I would rather be anywhere but here.

Dad is drinking again. I know he is. It's only a matter of time before everything falls apart.

I wanted, for so long, to reach the epitome of apathy. I think I have. I don't feel anything. Emotions just sweep over me. Everything is fleeting. I'm not angry, I'm not ( Read more... )

Per request, *cough* ryssa *cough* I'm updating ( Read more... )

Hmph.

No real reason to update. I just wanted to waste some time.

uhh.... I love you??

ummm.... .. can you say, a-m-a-z-i-n-g ?!?!?!

<3

The weekend was rather dull.. but, hey.. it's the weekend. I've been playing lots of Ragnarok. LOTS. I've leveled up to nearly 80. woot. And in the process become a complete and utter dork.

I bought Requiem for a Dream the book ... so far so good. And No Fear Shakespeare -- Macbeth.

I feel like a bastard for buying it though.

CHEATER!!!

But.. I ( Read more... )

I was very naive to think that anything could have come from it ( Read more... )