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[wannabe_her]

My worst nightmare came true yesterday. I got kicked out of inpatient.
I am apparantly not motivated enough.
So I give up. I can't fucking try anything else. That's that.

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[teenie_tiny]

I'm sorry *hugs*. Can I ask what happened/ what the reason was that they thought that?

Don't give up. Maybe you can take it as a "I'm gonna show you how motivated I am!"

Did you have to have the magnesium drip you were talking about? How was the time you had there? Did anything good come out of it?

[wannabe_her]

I really don't understand why they did it. I had no warning, they just called me into rounds and broadsided me. There was no "you do this or you leave," nothing. Even one of the nurses came and talked to me after and said she didn't know what was going on. She told me to write letters to the newspaper or something. I was so glad she talked to me because she let me know I wasn't insane.
I was in the middle of a vitamin B12 injection thing, but I didn't get the Mag drip because they switched doctors and this one doens't believe in it or something.
I thought the time I had there was going well, but to be quite honest I am just so angry and discouraged about it now that I can't see much good out of it.

[five_feet_small]

im so sorry :( please dont give up..

[lakemi]

That sucks, I'm sorry. Please don't give up.

[lirastarael]

Is this at St. Paul's? (What program, if so?) I'm so sorry... I've been feeling increasingly frustrated with trying to get into the program/convince them I am motivated enough and damn well need help desperately.

Really... don't give up. You can get through this.

[wannabe_her]

It is through St Paul's. It was my fourth time in Extra Care, I have never done Quest or Discovery.

[lirastarael]

Ah, I did Extra Care in November/December for the first time.

I've been waitlisted for Discovery since last March but they keep telling me I'm not ready, so now they're thinking maybe Quest.

I'm sorry this is all happening... any chance you could look into doing Discovery or Quest?

[wannabe_her]

Ah the Discovery waitlist, I know it well, I've been on it for a few years.
I was kind of tentatively planning on Quest, but I am so frustrated with them now that I don't want to deal with them anymore. I used to have a lot of confidence in Dr B but I just don't anymore. I am planning to go to Toronto in September 08 so I might look into what they have there. I just don't know at this point, I don't know what else to do. I am not ruling anything out because I know that I am so angry and frustrated right now that I might make the wrong decision, but the truth is that I am just so angry and frustrated that I don't know what to do.