Why I hate moving and other crap that's on my mind

[wannabeelf2]

I've been doing a lot of thinking recently about the past and the way I feel now. I've lost count of all the friends I lost in my life because one of us moved away. Oh, you always say you'll keep in touch and you mean it at the time, but it rarely works out. You write letters and call each other for a while, then you stop calling because you've

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[natural_flavors]

When you choose to express yourself in a public manner, it opens up the option for people to respond to it. If the email situation you are referring to was mine, I apologize for making you feel like you were being attacked- however- I don't think you should think an email about Star Wars was some emotional divulgence that shouldn't be countered. I viewed that email as a debate issue. i don't want the "however" to make my apology seem ingenuine, but I think perhaps you are a little sensitive. Most of your emails are about web stories or things along those lines. The others that do discuss your personal feelings or issues, are borderline TMI, and I believe I have only responded to one of them ever. Mostly because of the comfort issue

[wannabeelf2]

Who said I was unhappy? I am, but no more than I think is appropriate for someone in a long distance relationship, with no friends in her current location, and no money to go back to visit the friends in her old location. But I wasn't upset by any of this when I was writing it; if I had been my current mood would have been some variation of "sad" instead of "introspective

[natural_flavors]

I never said you were unhappy, I was just giving an example of how I believe people are in control of how much they let their emotions affect them

[wannabeelf2]

Any physiologist worth his or her salt will tell you that abuse is something that the victim can never move 100% past; it has a permanent effect on his or her personality. Fortunately, it made me stronger; unfortunately, it left a whole slew of problems with empathizing too much with what I hear on the news, feeling emotions that are incongruous with the situation that caused them, and more. I tried doing as you advise before; for a long time, I firmly believed that because I liked myself, none of what had happened to me mattered because it made me who I was, but that wasn't true. I was constantly depressed, occasionally suicidal, and I drove people away because of my problems--I even tried to kill my brother once. Then I entered therapy and learned I had to deal with my problems in order to move on and ignoring them only made them worse. That's what I'm doing and it takes a long time; but, slowly but surely, I am getting better