Black Box (Agron/Nasir) 19-21

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I have been writing on Black Box and I wanted to post every chapter here too. So here goes...


Agron didn’t know how to respond to that and he didn’t want to make a joke about it either. It was so comfortable being with Nasir, he felt so at ease and he had the feeling he could tell Nasir everything, but he wouldn’t just now. Instead he took a large gulp from his beer and laid an arm around Nasir, pulling him in closer.

“I want to ask you something,” he began, “and I want you to be honest to me. I hope by now you know that you can tell me everything. I might be torturing myself with this, but…” Agron sighed and closed his eyes, making Nasir worry.

“Agron, it’s okay. Whatever you’re going to ask, I’ll be honest about it.” Nasir hurried to say and he laid a hand on Agron’s leg, bringing him back to reality.

“Do you really have feelings for me? I know that with me coming to the hospital and helping you, you might be… you know, just grateful and all. I know that you asked to date or sort of after the trial but I still can’t believe that…”

Nasir had enough. He quickly moved so that he was straddling a surprised Agron and cupped his cheeks with both hands so that he had to look straight at Nasir.

“Yes, you were my knight in not so shining armour. I’m grateful to you about helping me and I might have had a crush on you because you look so good, but… I do have feelings for you, Agron. I thought that I could never be with a man again without thinking of…” Nasir trailed off and shook his head, none of that now. “You understand and that will help. Along with the fact that you’re gentle, sweet and absolutely gorgeous. So if you ask me this one more time, I’m going to slap you upside the head, alright?”

Agron had gone quiet through Nasir’s speech, but was now smiling broadly. He lifted his head somewhat, as far as Nasir would allow, and brought their lips together in a small kiss. Nasir looked at Agron for a moment, smiled too, lowered his hands from Agron’s cheeks to his shoulders and pulled him in closer.

When Agron could wrap his arms around Nasir he held him and sought out his lips again. Agron tried to think of being careful and going slow, so that Nasir would not be frightened of him. He still did not know much of what Nasir had gone through and although he was sure that one day he would find out, he rather would not have a Nasir in full panic mode on his lap.

He nipped on Nasir’s bottom lip, kissed his cheek and only when Nasir nudged him did he return to his lips. Nasir seemed to be an eager kisser and Agron lost himself in the kiss, but his hands lay loosely on Nasir’s hips so that he could escape at any time.

When they needed to breathe, Nasir looked at Agron and then cuddled to his chest.

“You’re being so careful with me, I’m not going to break.” Nasir said in a soft tone, but Agron did not respond, he only caressed Nasir’s back.

“Agron…”

“I heard you. I know you’re not going to break, Nasir.” He answered, but he was not so sure about that. However, he kept those thoughts to himself. After a few moments he heard a soft snoring and found that Nasir, in that awkward position, had fallen asleep.

“So much for excitement.” Agron snickered and he nursed his beer for the next half an hour until Nasir blinked a few times and opened his eyes.

“Oh gods, did I… I just fell asleep, didn’t I?” Nasir groaned and slid off Agron, sitting down next to him and burying his face in his hands.

“I’m such an idiot. I finally get you so far that you want to be alone with me and then I fall asleep… Why do I keep doing that?”

Agron stood up and went for another beer, giving one to Nasir in the process, who gladly accepted and downed half the bottle in one go.

“Maybe you’re relaxed enough with me, that is why you fall asleep. I take it as a compliment.” Agron smiled and ticked his bottle to Nasir’s before downing his own. “You said something about getting drunk earlier, right?”

Nasir’s eyes went wide for a moment and he glanced at the clock on the wall, it was getting late and if they still wanted to get some work done. Looking at Agron he laughed softly, who was he kidding? Like they were going to get anything done in this condition.

“Not too drunk, I still have to get home, and you do too.” Nasir stated, but he drank his beer nonetheless.

They kept it civilized, also for Chadara’s sake so that she didn’t have to restock all of her beer, and were just a little on the tipsy side when they decided it was time to leave. Agron thought of calling a cab which could take them home, but they thought it better to walk as no one would spot them drunk together in this manner.

“Where is your new apartment anyway? You’ve never told me about it.” Agron asked as they started walking, side by side.

“You never asked.” Nasir answered as a matter of factly, but when he saw Agron was getting annoyed he laughed softly and shook his head, stuffing his hands in the pockets of his jeans.

“Mira arranged it for me, actually. It’s a bit bigger than my old one and she arranged for a victim fund to get the necessary money for me that for now I can live there for free. It’s only for six months, but that’ll be enough to get back on my feet. It’s only two blocks from here.” Nasir pointed in the general direction.

“And what happens if…” Agron almost slapped himself, they were not going to talk about the trial and now he was going to bring it up again.

“If what?” Nasir asked.

“If they’re not guilty at the trial.” Agron finished and Nasir shrugged. He had thought of that possibility.

“Then I have to pay everything back, but I wouldn’t know how to start on that. I’ll see when I get that far.”
They walked in silence for a few minutes and then Nasir stopped at a small apartment building which housed four apartments, one of the upper ones was his. It seemed nice from the outside.

“It’s a nice neighbourhood, better than mine.” Agron commented and Nasir didn’t seem to know what to do. He walked up the first step to the door and then he turned around again, wanting to say goodbye to Agron.

“I guess I’ll see you tomorrow then?” He asked and Agron nodded. He had to orientate himself so that he could walk in the general direction of his apartment. Through his police work he had been around town and knew which neighbourhoods he could better avoid on foot.

He took two steps away from the stairs and then noticed that Nasir was still standing there. If he expected a kiss, Agron would not give him one in public, not yet. They still had a few more days to go before the trial and he was not going to fuck up now.

“Nasir, you should really go inside before you catch a cold.” Agron commented, not knowing what else to say.

“I… ehm…” Nasir began and Agron could swear that he was blushing. Agron took a few steps closer and now saw that Nasir definitely was blushing and he waited for what was to come.

“Would you like to come in?” Nasir finally got out and Agron was a bit taken aback. He did not expect this.

“I don’t think that’s a good idea, Nasir. If someone sees me coming out of your apartment tonight then…”

Nasir took a step closer and used those words that got him every time.

“Please, Agron?”

Agron looked up at him with those dark sweet eyes and Agron growled in frustration that he could not say no to this man.

“I’ll come with you.” He said shortly and when Nasir smiled all anger left him. Quickly the both of them went up the stairs. At the top of the stairs Agron turned around so that he could check if anyone was watching.

A few yards further, well hidden under a bush, a man sat holding a large camera. Now that Agron had turned around, he could snap perfect pictures of his face.
The man smiled, these pictures would serve well within a few days.


Nasir’s apartment had an elevator, even for one floor and Agron found that amusing. When Nasir explained that mostly elder people lived here he hoped that they would find it alright to see two men together, but then again, it was none of their business.

Nasir opened the door for Agron and he walked in. The space was indeed not very big, but it was bigger than Agron’s apartment and Nasir explained that there were two bedrooms, a separate kitchen and a separate bathroom, which was more luxury than Agron could afford on his pay.

The apartment was not really decorated yet, but Agron thought that Nasir was probably waiting for what might happen. No need to be making yourself at home when you have to leave two months after.

“It’s really nice, Nasir. You could make a home out of it.” Agron said as he looked around. The furniture was still sparse, Nasir had laid down a few big pillows since he didn’t own a couch yet, but through the opened door Agron could spot a bed in the bedroom and some chairs in the kitchen at the counter.

“I hope so.” Nasir replied as he made his way into the kitchen. “Do you want another beer?” He called out and Agron said a quick ‘yeah’ before carefully sitting down on one of the large pillows. It completely fell in and Agron had a hard time sitting up straight. Nasir laughed when he discovered Agron in the same position.

“I should have warned you about those.” He almost giggled as he set down the beers on the ground and reached out his hands so that he could pull Agron up again. With the momentum Agron got up, but Nasir almost fell on his ass from the force. Agron quickly held him so they came closer than he feared.

“I told you this was a bad idea.” He whispered as he cupped Nasir’s cheek. Nasir looked totally innocent at that moment and Agron could not figure him out. They both stayed perfectly still for what seemed like an eternity. Then Nasir stepped back.

“If you think it’s a bad idea then it’s best that you go.” He mumbled and he refused to look at Agron. Agron could see that tears were falling on the ground, little moist specks forming on the tiles and he sighed softly. He too two steps and wrapped his arms around Nasir, who sniffled and buried his head against Agron’s chest.

“I hate that whole goddamned trial.” He muttered and sniffed at the same time. “I want to get it over and done with. I need to get everything out of my system, Agron, I need us to be okay. I need… you.” He ended lamely, but Agron didn’t care about how Nasir said it, the message had come across.

“I know it’s a burden, that you have to relive everything they have done to you time and time again. It won’t be for long now. And I’m here, remember? You’re not getting rid of me easily, not this time.”

“What of your job?” Nasir asked and it seemed like they had that same conversation weeks ago when Nasir stayed at Agron’s apartment.

“Fuck’m.” Agron repeated Nasir with a smile and they both clung to each other, hoping that the world would stop turning tonight so that they would not have to face the morning.
Two more days to the trial.

“Do you want to stay the night?” Nasir asked and it left Agron with a choice, one he didn’t want to make. If he stayed than he would put everything at risk their team had worked on for weeks, he might fuck up the chance to put those beasts behind bars where they belonged, if they are spotted together. But this was Nasir’s place and nobody was going to barge in to check on them and he just had to be careful tomorrow.

“Yeah.” Agron agreed and the smile Nasir presented him with was all that he cared about right now. Nasir fiddled with the buttons on Agron’s shirt, out of nervousness for they were both quite new at feeling this kind of thing. Agron silently wondered if this was the love everyone talked about, when lightning struck, you couldn’t eat or breathe without the other. It might as well have been.

“I can sleep on the cushions, they’re big enough.” Agron offered and the look Nasir sent his way made him regret the words. Apparently the other man had been hoping for more and Agron immediately wanted to make it up, so he leaned down and pressed another kiss to Nasir’s lips. When Nasir pulled back just a little, Agron followed and wrapped his arms around Nasir, keeping him in place.

“Are you sure you want the cushions?” Nasir whispered softly against Agron’s lips, soft enough for him almost not to hear.

“Can you offer me something better?” Agron playfully asked in his turn, turning his attention to Nasir’s hair as he put stray strands behind Nasir’s ear.

“There’s the bed… it’s not very big but it’s comfy enough.” Nasir ventured and Agron nodded and let go of Nasir.

“Alright, you take the cushions and I’ll take the bed.” He said and the look on Nasir’s face was all worth it. When Agron started to laugh Nasir understood that he was being made fun of, but it all felt a little off. But then Agron held out his hand to Nasir and Nasir didn’t know what to do.

“Since you’ve been so kind to offer me your bed, I would like for you to be in it with me.” Agron stated and at that moment he was completely serious. His nerves often made him goof off and thankfully Nasir understood and wasn’t hurt by his earlier words, but he knew that it sometimes came across wrong.

Without another words Nasir took Agron’s hand and followed him to the bedroom, or Agron assumed it was since a bed stood there. Like the apartment, the bedroom was sparsely furnitured and only held the bed, but it seemed comfortable enough. When Nasir arrived at the treshhold, he let go of Agron’s hand.

“I have an extra toothbrush if you like, in the bathroom. I’ll just go and change, okay?” He quickly said before rushing out of the bedroom. Agron tried to understand and hoped that it was just Nasir being nervous. When Agron walked to the bathroom to brush his teeth and maybe take a quick shower, he heard Nasir softly sniffling.
“Nasir?” He asked as he knocked on the door.

“I’m fine, Agron, I’ll be out in a minute.” Nasir replied, muffled through the door, but Agron was too worried to just wait, so he knocked again.

“Agron, please! Give me a minute.” Nasir shouted louder and Agron took two steps back, ending up in the living room. He didn’t know what to do with himself, so he just walked back to the bedroom, stripped down to his boxers and crawled under the covers, waiting for when Nasir would join him. If Nasir would join him.

It took half an hour, but Nasir arrived at the bedroom door, with a shirt which seemed too big for him and a comfortable pair of pants in which he slept. He looked a little sheepishly at Agron and quickly joined him in bed.

“I’m sorry, I kind of freaked out.” He explained as he sighed. “I’m still not comfortable in these type of situations, although I want to be.”

“It’s okay.” Agron whispered as he tugged Nasir a bit closer, wrapping his arms around him. He kissed Nasir’s hair and held him close.

“Whenever you feel that way you just give me a push, alright? I’ll understand. This is as much about you as it’s about me and you have to feel comfortable with everything you do.”

“Thank you.” Nasir sighed in relief and nestled closer to Agron, lifting his head so that they could kiss. Nasir deepened the kiss and Agron hesitantly responded to it, thinking about the promise he made to Nasir about having to be comfortable. When Nasir’s hands touched his chest, Agron froze for a moment, but did not remove his hands from Nasir’s tee-clad hips and just held on.

Nasir explored Agron’s body, once in a while looking up if Agron was okay with it and returning to kiss his lips, his cheek or his neck. Agron had grown hard underneath the subtle touches, but he did not voice his need. Only when he brought Nasir closer again to kiss Nasir noticed.

“Do you… do you need…” He began but Agron shook his head and kissed Nasir again.

“Your touch is enough.” He murmured softly and he didn’t protest when Nasir resumed his kisses and touches, moaning softly as he came quite close to his belly, but letting Nasir choose what he wanted to.

When Nasir wrapped a hand around Agron’s length, Agron gasped at the touch and looked straight into Nasir’s eyes.

“You don’t have to.” He got out, half a gasp and half a moan.

“I want to, for you.” Nasir smiled, and stroked Agron while kissing him. It did not take Agron long to come and he held Nasir closer as he shivered for a few delicious moments. He placed a few kisses on Nasir’s lips and then he searched around for something to clean himself up. Nasir handed him a box of tissues and Agron vowed to clean up the room tomorrow before leaving.
He had held his hands on Nasir’s hips and now ventured a little lower, but Nasir stopped him.

“No.” Nasir shook his head and wrapped his arms around Agron. “This is enough, for now.” He sighed as he closed his eyes.


The next morning Agron woke up a little desoriented and strange, with a weight on him. He blinked a couple of times and noticed that Nasir was asleep next to him, an arm slung over Agron’s chest and a leg over his legs. Agron smiled at the sight.
He leaned over and kissed Nasir’s cheek, but it didn’t help. Only when he kissed Nasir’s lips did the man blink twice and opened his eyes a little bit.

“Agron?” He asked in a murmur and stretched a little.

“Yeah. It’s almost eight, we should be getting up. We’re expected at the office at nine. Spartacus wants to run through some of the last points before we are let go. Last day, Nasir… then you get a day of rest before the trial begins.”

Although Nasir would only have to testify by the end of the trial, he was asked to be standby for when it would be necessary to come in earlier. Nasir wouldn’t have a moment’s rest until the trial was over. Agron would have to talk about his brother very early on and it already frightened him somewhat, but he wouldn’t dwell on it too much.

Agron got up to make breakfast for the both of them, Nasir said that there would be some eggs left and perhaps something else, but Agron could not find much except for a bit of bread and some jam. Since he normally only drank coffee in the morning, this would be some big breakfast.

They did not talk about what happened last night, but when Agron heard Nasir in the shower he had to resist the urge to go in with him. He could almost picture that hot body underneath the water spray and… He shook his head to take away those thoughts.

“You okay?” Nasir asked as he got in the kitchen, still drying his hair with a towel.

“Yeah, thinking of how beautiful you look coming out of the shower.” Agron smiled in return and the kiss he received for his compliment was all worth it. They sat down to eat together and Agron quite liked this ritual. He glanced at his clock and went to the bathroom to find that extra toothbrush, take a quick shower and hop in his clothes from the day before.

“I should head home first, I can’t wear this to the office. Meet me there?” Agron asked and as Nasir nodded, Agron quickly went to his own apartment, taking a cab and not caring if someone saw him or not. Thankfully for him, most people were still asleep and when he got to his own apartment he rushed to get into the office on time.

When he arrived there at the front door Nasir was already waiting for him and they went in together. The whole crew was gathered when they entered the office and they all glared at them. It made Agron and Nasir take a step from each other and they both frowned, what the hell was going on?

“Had a good evening?” Spartacus asked and Agron could tell from his ice cold tone that something was up.

“Sorry about not coming back from lunch, it took ages to get the food and it wasn’t worth coming back anymore.” Agron answered, but the little white lie didn’t come across well and Spartacus slammed the paper which he had held on the table.

“Cut the crap, Agron. I told you to keep this professional.” He grumbled lowly and when Agron looked at the pictures, he groaned.

A snapshot of the both of them arriving at Nasir’s apartment and one of him alone looking around before entering. The title was very crude.

“Cop fucks witness.” Spartacus sighed and he took the paper away again, but not before Agron had seen that it was just one of those gossip mags you could pick up on every street corner.

“Nobody reads that kind of shit, Spartacus.” Agron was now angry too and it seemed like the both of them were getting ready for a shouting match, when Nasir intervened.

“Stop it!” He said hard enough for everyone to hear. “Agron came with me to my apartment because he was too drunk to get home. He slept in the living room, okay? We had a great lunch, it got a little late and we wanted to blow off some steam by getting drunk. Is it that bad?”

“It is according to that newspaper, Nasir. They’re going to try and question your testimony and you’re just giving them ammunition.”

Nasir now understood why Agron wanted to keep everything professional between them, even though he had tried to explain it several times before.

“Agron and I can still swear on the Bible that we’re not lovers, Sir.” Nasir stated and it made everyone look up. Technically it was true, they had not made love, they weren’t boyfriends. They were in that stage nobody wanted to tag a name to the relationship. Agron smiled at Nasir’s boldness and felt very proud.

“No harm done, Spartacus, really.” Agron hurried to help Nasir and it made Spartacus doubt the pictures. Maybe they weren’t all that important.

“It is now done anyhow, we can’t pull the pictures back, it’s too late. We’ll have to deal with it when it comes that far. Come on, we’ll go through everything again and then you two can go home. Please, go each to your own apartment this time!”

Agron and Nasir both smiled, but they stayed in a distance from each other and when Spartacus run them through their testimonies separately, one did not wait for the other. Agron just went home, as he did not have another assignment yet. He waited for two hours before he decided to call Nasir.

“Hey.” Nasir answered almost immediately.

“Hey… is it too soon to call? I just wanted to know how you are after all that shit with Spartacus. He doesn’t mean it in a bad way, you know, he just wants to get these bastards.” Agron explained the actions of his boss, but he didn’t know how Nasir would react.

“I understand, but that doesn’t mean I have to like it. I hate that paparazzi, why are they so interested in us, anyway?” He grumbled.

“You’re the star of the show, Nasir.” Agron said softly and Nasir knew it was true. He would have to get up and perform and it would be terrifying.

“You can’t come over this time, huh?” Nasir asked with a sigh.

“This time I really shouldn’t. It’s only for a few days, Nasir. My testimony is on the first day of the trial and then I hope to come and visit you and we can prepare a little together, alright? I’ll ask Saxa if she knows anything else that might help us.”

“Will you be okay, with talking about your brother?”

“I’ll have to be okay with it. You can’t come in the courtroom yet so I’ll just have to deal.” Agron sighed at the prospect of not having Nasir around at one of his most difficult moments but he would be fine, or so he hoped.

“I’ll think about you all day and when you’re finished you can come over. We can talk or drink, or play games, watch tv, whatever you like.” Nasir began, “Or hug and kiss, sleep…” He then smiled and Agron had to laugh too.

“That I’m really looking forwards to.” He answered softly and they both silenced. It was comfortable just to hear the other breathe.

“Agron, I have to go. Chadara is coming over tonight to distract me. I’ll call you tomorrow… or is it better to wait until you’re coming the day after?”

Agron didn’t know what would be best. He would be very grateful to hear Nasir’s voice again, but then he would like to hold him, be close and he already was shaking his head.

“It’s better if you don’t call me tomorrow. I’ll be fine for one day without you and the day after nothing is going to keep me from visiting you. Say hi to Chadara for me and I will pay her bill next time we’re going over there.”

“I’ll tell her. Bye, Agron.”

“Yeah.” Agron answered and shut his phone down, looking at his fridge. If he drank enough tonight he would sleep through most of the day tomorrow. He looked at Duro’s picture for a moment and the silent conversation between them ended with Agron walked to the fridge, pulling out some beers and downing them quickly.