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Cross the Country (Heechul/Siwon)

Aug 28, 2011 02:04

Cross the Country
Heechul/Siwon
~4500 words
PG

for faeen, help_japan ♥ This is disgustingly late, I am so sorry. Thank you for bidding, and I hope this is okay.

and thanks, Kim Heechul. You're going to be missed like no other. ;(((

( “It’s time,” the green pixie boy whispers urgently from the newly semi-defined sinew of Heechul’s left shoulder, “to grow fucking up.” )

sj: c: sungmin, sj: c: kyuhyun, sj: c: heechul, sj: p: heechul/siwon, sj: c: hankyung, fandom: super junior, sj: c: shindong, sj: bandfic, sj: p: heechul/kibum, sj: c: kibum, sj: c: donghae, sj: c: yesung, sj: c: leeteuk, sj: c: siwon, sj: c: ryeowook, sj: c: eunhyuk, sj: p: hankyung/heechul

Comments 36

tokkei_12 August 29 2011, 01:00:37 UTC

I almost didn't read this since it is Sichul, but I wanted some Heechul and it's you, so yeah :) Though perhaps I should have stayed away because I really really feel like crying now from how wonderful this is ;_; Heechul's characterization is perfect as always, no matter who he's interacting with or whatever the situation. Amid all the mild angst (oh gawd, the ninja Hanchul parts >.<), I couldn't help laughing over the humorous bits- Shindong and Donghae failing at a high five, the Suju Harry Potter manips, going to Siwon for a loan, and so on. And of course, the dialogue in combination with the descriptive/deep sentences was just gorgeous. Beautifully written, and I loved it! <3 <3 <3

Ever since I first read If You Go, Go Long (one of the very few stories I've bawled that hard over), you have been one of my favorite authors for this fandom. So thank you for everything you've written, and I shall miss your fics dearly :)

warmboys August 29 2011, 12:44:44 UTC

Haha XD;; well thank you for taking a chance on this ♥ don't cry!! ngl I posted this before Heechul's last performance and then after watching that and his/Teuk's winning speech started bawling :( it means so much that Heechul seemed like Heechul, because I never feel like I'm doing him justice. and glad you found parts of this funny! a friend of mine just said that there was no comedic relief in this at all XD;;

ahhh omg :( that's really sweet of you. that one took forever to write and ended up dense and confusing but it kind of summarized my feelings towards hanchul at the time--I'm really happy you liked it. <3

faeen August 29 2011, 04:08:11 UTC

First of all, spot. I am at my grandma's for Eid, so it'll probably be days before I can properly sit down and read. Secondly, thank you so much for this. I know it was a bit of a rough journey for you, writing this. I want to say I appreciate it very much.

warmboys August 29 2011, 12:57:57 UTC

Hey! Take your time, there is no rush. And no, seriously, thank you, and it meant a lot to me that I was given a chance to write them. Again, I'm sorry for making you wait so long. I really wanted to be able to focus 100% on this story, so I had to put it off until all rl obligations were fulfilled. And nothing about this was hard in a bad way--the struggle was in trying to make these characters measure up to very real people while explaining their relationship in the context of their unique circumstances. Especially with Siwon, who is such a mystery to me. I'm not sure how this fared, but it's a little sad that I don't have a reason to write them anymore. So thank you for giving me that ♥

faeen September 1 2011, 16:00:24 UTC

I really, really didn't mind waiting for this at all. And the fic is much much more than I could possibly expected. I would have settled for drabble after all, this is beyond perfect.

I don't know why, despite Heechul's tendency to make fun of Siwon in public, Siwon's eagerness to please his hyung (or rather his past eagerness), I always get this angst vibe from Sichul. Heechul is good at conquering differences, he is friends with a wide array of personalities but perhaps it only works when the defining term is "friends". Something beyond that is not possible for Siwon and Heechul.

When I watch good movies, I hope I can read the script. I hope I can know what kind of emotion the director told them the characters were in. When I read this, I want to know what kind of music inspires parts of it, the clips that colour Heechul and Siwon's personalities in this, because this fic is amazing in its details and emotion and if I could quote:

-which hit infrequently but also unfailingly like a punch below the belt-that someday soon he’d miss ( ... )

warmboys September 1 2011, 22:41:47 UTC

Oh my God before replying I have to say that I really wanted to make a playlist for this!! Just a list of the songs I listened to while writing--and also the photos that I drew inspiration from. I'll post something later tonight ♥

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shoelifted August 29 2011, 05:48:36 UTC

I haven't read super junior fic in a long time, nor do I tend to read sichul, but this really didn't disappoint. it's not a fic, I think. more of the entire relationship condensed into words and cleverly disguised as a fic. also do you know how much I've been wanting to read one of those enlistment fics without cringing at bad grammar and things ;______; heechul's growing up, isn't he? the fun was good while it lasted but I think he's finally doing what's best for him, and (somehow?) what's best for us in an awfully sad way. ah, and thank you for sticking with super junior for so long, and for everything you've contributed to fandom ♥

warmboys August 29 2011, 13:12:07 UTC

(haha omg I'm starting to understand there are very few sichul fans in this fandom) you know, what I love about the way Heechul's decided to go is it feels not just responsible but like he's reconciled a lot of things and either set them aside or made peace with them. He's almost a subdued version of himself... maybe the word I'm looking for is just "older." I love that he's the kind of person who lets you see through him and share in his anger and joy, personal triumphs and disappointments, and we have watched him grow (and regress, lawl), even evolving through Twitter. I guess my sadness is an entirely selfish one because this could and will very likely be good for him, but he won't be just a click away anymore, posting some stupid half-naked shot of him and his cats. I'm gonna miss that a lot :(

and um thanks for reading!!! lol

shoelifted August 29 2011, 13:29:38 UTC

actually I was more of a hanchul fan, sihanchul was brotherhood-ish, but then for hanchul it became rather distant and....dilute. there's definitely a sense of closure I think. nah most people ship eunhae and qmi nowadays if I'm not wrong ;; HAHAHA NO PROBLEMO IT WAS A GOOD READ.

starlitbright August 29 2011, 08:03:19 UTC

You know I have no words for how much I love this, as much as it hurts :( You also know that I started tearing up at the end at your footnote (WHO CRIES AT FOOTNOTES? ME, APPARENTLY) and just, ugh. That Sungmin line killed me (WHICH YOU KNEW IT WOULD) but I didn't even pick up that section was hanchul until Laura mentioned it and now it's just. A whole new light's been shed on the fic :( Usually in your fics, even if it's heartbreak the whole way through, there's still a bit of humour, a bit of a break for your heart -- BUT NOT IN THIS ONE. THIS ONE, YOU'RE SQUEEZING OUR HEARTS UNTIL THERE'S NOTHING LEFT, UNTIL IT'S JUST A WEAK, SHRIVELED LITTLE THING IN OUR CHEST AND B'AWWW :(

The end was my favourite :( Too close to the truth but also just thinking of Heechul in that situation -- From the back no one could’ve recognized him-another skinny guy in a buzz cut. For two years he will be ordinary, his patience tried, his ego occasionally bruised. -- and just how true that may or might not be and just ugh, summarises everything. It's ( ... )

warmboys August 29 2011, 13:24:33 UTC

th-there was comedic relief... ish! Yesung! Siwon's Beatnik romanticism? c'mon. WORK WITH ME HERE. okay it was mostly sad... or matter-of-fact. idk.

I still don't know how I feel, Cath. when you put it that way, Suju's been ending for a long time. they had so much set up against them. let's take a few of the boys and smash them up a little. then again. just by probabilistic intuition a group that large shouldn't work, and sure enough people began drifting, outright abandoning, one by one. let's put their fates in the hands of time, circumstance, national law--just when they're finally comfortable with the idea of ten, they'll have to lose another. or maybe they were only comfortable knowing it was bound to happen (the way before you go somewhere far away everyone is suddenly really nice to you).

I don't want to think of Heechul leaving as the end of the end, because poor Leeteuk, Yesung, everyone that has to leave a little later. I'm just going to miss him a lot :(

anonymous August 29 2011, 11:16:44 UTC

ughh this is so good I am so sad you don't plan on writing anymore ;________;

favorite lines

Do you ever veer away from this dull emotional neutral that you’ve built your life around? This speed bump-free flatline.

Only on a very bad day-the count of which seemed to be diminishing with time and, perhaps, wisdom. Thank God.

Efficiency, he learned later, had to do with more than just cars. You could be emotionally efficient and never waste a feeling on something that didn’t deserve to be felt for. There was energy conservation.

Heechul could be broken into different parts, one of which thrived in the darkest of dark corners, but Siwon was made whole. He needed light to survive.

And he pulled you in, and the water sealed you together, and you were a jar airtight, not breathing, because you couldn’t handle being kissed like this.

i just really like the way you phrase things:

Siwon was momentarily flattered by his trust before he remembered what was at stake. This was the approximate vocabulary his mind assumed that day: stiff, ( ... )

warmboys August 29 2011, 13:28:30 UTC

I will still/always be writing! maybe not for them, and maybe not fic, but that's a promise!

<333 Siwon really is tough ;; I recently watched them on Strong Heart and learned yet a whole other wealth of information about him I'd never known before. It's like, irl character development just never ends XDD;

thank you for reading! ♥