It is so tempting to stop caring, for repeated application of most things lead to indifference and not giving a GIGANTIC TAGER! about Za Warudo! around us. Things are not helped by the recognition that the right thing to do need not be the easy, publicly-palatable one. What, after all, is a man? I sincerely doubt indifference to be that mark, and ( Read more... )

I have had time to think these past few days. About the inequality of this broken world. Ipoh, for what flaws it may have, is quite a nice place. The slower pace there really seems to be a nice change, but as I have not stayed there for a truly long period I cannot really judge. It is one thing to call on myself to be dedicated to the Lord's work, ( Read more... )

Returned from church camp that started on 13th Dec and ended 16th Dec.

Now in Ipoh, Malaysia from 16th Dec to 21st Dec. Will be back night of 21st. Please try not to call unless it's real urgent.

Spread the _ word.

Are you particularly concerned, they ask.

I find myself saying no, and wonder with a bit of horror what this really means for me. I've gotten over the "I am a monster and must be purged" phase, but I wonder if there's anything in this picture I'm missing. Should I be? I don't know if I should.

18 points. If the tester had counted one more mistake...

Indeed, why concern the self with the fear of monstrosity? Neither this world nor the Lord are concerned with ineffectual, repeated self-flagellation. 'Tis a truth I am struggling to learn. Complacency, whether it be pride in a good habit or a bad one, is never easy to shake off. In such case, the concern is not about beating up the self, but about ( Read more... )

A show I caught on TVmobile today struck me - are we that weak? Are we that constrained by our unwittingly imposed limitations that we are paralysing by the slightest doubting of our abilities? Certainly almost all people seek to do what they think is right, even if their "right" may not be the commonly accepted "right". We're not even talking ( Read more... )

Do we cry for ourselves? Perhaps you wonder why I ask this question. Perhaps I wonder myself, too. Sometimes things just... just get to us. Maybe, even below and beyond the lofty desire to be a hero, the demands of walking the narrow path and being the good man are not things everyone can live up to.

Maybe the victory is not in the end result. The quest for what is currently unattainable drives us to greater heights, that though we miss the stars, we reach the planets? Or is there more to the issue than that?

I am tired of being answerable to the world around me. There may be disadvantages, but there are also advantages to not being bothered in this fashion. It's plain tempting to disavow the beast that is responsibility.