I'm so drunk that it's actually funny.

Kevin Millar knows I love him. I don't think he really cares, but I think that's really funny.

After a most amazing week, im looking forward to another one.

Yes, there are people I miss. Some of them are actually still alive. That doesnt factor much right now.

I'm living the life without the life. It's

Oh, it's just like a big kick in the head ( Read more... )

Things haven't been going my way for several months now, and everything just keeps getting less and less agreeable ( Read more... )

My friends treat me like crap. They blame me for everything they do wrong, and they make me feel bad about being alive. I'm always the bad guy, no matter what i do. I'm sick of it. I'm not sure why but I kind of get the feeling that I don't deserve to be treated like this. I'm probably wrong. I'm always wrong. I'm so angry... I want to kill things ( Read more... )

This sociology class is seriously making life very grey for me. So for the 15 minutes before my next class starts, I feel very down and hopeless.

And then I get to Magneto's class, and suddenly everything seems useful again. Life feels like it's not just a waste of time.

Tuesday and Thursdays are messed up.

Hi. I still exist. Um.... MSI in Providence was fun. Breaking Benjamin in Connecticut was great.... looking forward to Deftones in Boston.... Family Values and Ozzfest were amazing. I've gotten too lazy to write concert reports.

My friends mostly just make me angry.

Oh, just so everyone knows... I DID buy a new car. I didn't want to say anything till it all went through and I had it in my possession.

And yes, I love my brand new bright red sporty dodge neon. its a great car!

4 A's... a "Pass" in that godforsaken fencing class... and a B+ on an 89.5 average because my eng. lit. teacher is a douchebag. Total GPA for the semester... 3.860 (I should have gotten at least a 3.9) Best semester so far.

I've learned so much about myself this year. I've learned that I am absolutely horrified by the thought that I'm going to have to die someday, whether or not I want to. It paralyzes me with fear, and I haven't been able to stop thinking about that for the past month. It scares me, and I'm unable to cope with this.

Because of this, I've been afraid ( Read more... )

I met Korn. Yes, KORN. KORN KORN KORN! My heroes. The band, not some strange vegetable. Face to face. And they smiled for pictures when I asked them to! Me go die happy now! I wanted to take a picture with them, but since they did not want to let us, I settled for asking each member of the band to smile for a picture separately, and all of them ( Read more... )