my life is turning out like that liz phair song "fuck and run", except the part about fucking and leaving the person right after, and change the "i want a boyfriend" part to girlfriend, and keep the "i can feel it in my bones, i'm gonna spend another year alone" part ( Read more... )

so i had to get a barium enema this morning. i won't go heavy into details about it, but to prepare for it you can't eat any food 2 days prior, so for about 65 hours i hadn't eaten anything. i almost fainted during the procedure and i start dry vomiting, except since i had nothing in me, i couldn't vomit, it was disgusting. i want to die, i'm ( Read more... )

so i'm getting a barium enema tomorrow morning at 9am. i ate one thing yesterday and then after 1pm i did not eat anything except drink gatorade and water and i can't eat anything today or tomorrow morning, just fluids. i am very angry but i can't do anything about it. at this point i'm getting used to being sick all the time. photoshoot went well ( Read more... )

so today my friend Dan Monick asked me to be in a photo shoot this weekend in downtown la. i've never been in a photo shoot so i told him i am totally down to do it. i will be dressed up as a gay hooker and me and another 25 year old guy will be like, "hooking" in the picture, it's gonna be a lot of fun. it might end up in this australian mag ( Read more... )

more tests, dropped all my classes, spend my nights sleepless and my days watching tv and movies, and occasionally going into work to sell records and hang out with men in their late 30's who drink tallcans at 1pm. r.kelly, you the man.

on my way home tonight from valencia i decided to stop at amoeba real quick to see if they had the devendra banhart 'rejoicing/nino rojo' 2xlp and they totally did and i got it for $2 thanks to a credit slip i had. i have been waiting for this record for so long and i am so happy i finally got it, i don't think i need to buy another record this ( Read more... )

so i'm out of the hospital where i stayed overnight wednesday, and they did a few more tests on my body to determine what is wrong with my stomach. well the endoscopy (where they stick a tube camera down your throat and into your stomach) said there was nothing wrong, as well as the other tests, so they sent me home. i've lost 15 pounds in the ( Read more... )

i'm dropping all of my classes this semester and am going into the hospital tomorrow. they better give me a cure soon, i'm tired of feeling like crap all the time. thank you everyone for being my friend.

so the last three days of last week i was in and out of an imaging center and the doctor's office getting a ct scan, a stomach ultrasound and an upper gi x-ray and they are waiting on results from the latter two tests. they figured out it isn't cancer, but they still don't know what it is and my body still feels tired all the time and i'm still on ( Read more... )

i have self diagnosed myself with a kidney stone, and then i just read on the internet that passing a kidney stone is akin to giving birth to a child, this really sucks ( Read more... )