Hey everybody, how's it going. Yesterday I went to the high school where the band and stuff was going on. Me and my two brothers went and handed out flyers for my moms company. It was pretty fun. Although I didn't know the band was there. There for Matt and Jenny were there and all of those guys. So I didn't end up seeing Matt until like ten ( Read more... )

hey everybody. i swear i'm so fuckign tried of trying to please me goddamn dad. he thinks he's so fuckign smart. i asked him if i could go to church because i had two C's in my classses. and he made it sound like i'd beable to go. but then when he came home he's like well you don't diserve to go. I was so fucking pissed. I think i should just give ( Read more... )

I ADPOTED A LAMA. HAHA BEAT THAT MARILYN MANSON. BLEH. LAMA LAMA.
O'H AND I MIGHT BE GOING TO CHURCH TONIGHT. SCORE!


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3:00 AM... THE DARKEST PLACE KNOWN TO MAN... HELL RIASES ITS FORCES...
THE DEATH PARADE BEGINS

hey everybody. well it's like 1 in the am. i've been kept up all night qwaiting to talk to matt because cmy brother is to fuckign lazy and won't get a damn job and make so easy cash so he can pay for his own fuckign phone line and then he can talk all the fuck he wants. i mean he 's fuckign almost twenty. he came in my room tonight so drunk that i ( Read more... )

ok so i guess things are going pretty much ok. i wanted to talk to matt today but he went to his moms and he's spending the night with adam. so i guess i won't talk to him thihs weekend. it's kinda upsetting but i'll get over it. he didn't come by today either wich only upset me more because i miss himn being able to give me really big hugs and not ( Read more... )

ok i will tell you the truth. honestly the truth. i've been praying to god for about a month now. i thought that maybe if i prayed he might help me and things will get better but the truth is they haven't they have only begun to decline faster. i'm at a lose i just don't know what to do any more. maybe i'm just not trying hard enough but i don't ( Read more... )

hey everybody. how's it goign. k so i'm still grounded. sunday me and my dad got into yet another fight and he told me to getthe fuck out of his house. i asked if he would call the police and he said no. si i grabbed my shoes and jacket and marched my ass out the door. then my step mom came and got me and said my dad was gonna turn this all on me ( Read more... )

hey everyone, how has it been. i'm still grounded but now from music tv and every other god damn thing. i hate this and my dad found out about the scratch i made on my arm and he wants me back in therapy but my step-mom says he should beat me and that will make me stop. i was like bullshit. i think i get ungrounded monday. but now that my dad knows ( Read more... )

I got suspended from school again today. First thing in the damn morning. Ms. Granger said that these black people told her that we were kissing and all. That is bull shit. So basically I got suspended for lies and sitting with Matt. Me and him were talking about it and he said he knows his dad will make sure that after this he will never see me ( Read more... )