May 6-
wt- 53.0 kg
food- half bagel/ cr ch
lc panini, peaches, cheddar bunnies, choc goldfish
fries/ ranch, pasta, bread, sprite, 3 pc choc
exercise- yeah still none.
vitamin and ACV, check!
$- $9 at walgreens for pictures, $3 at Galaxy Diner, $46 at Kroger

Events- Woke up this morning and the power was out. When I called Cliff to tell him I'd be late, he ( Read more... )

 May 5-
I'm not even doing any margarita drinking. BUT I do have some narcotics in my system. Which is totally better.
wt- 52.7 kg
food- half bagel, coffee
coconut milk yogurt, ravioli, cheddar bunnies, granola bar
lc pizza, more cheddar bunnies, sun chips, hummus/half bagel, mini milkyways 
(too much food, grazing is dangerous, i just couldn't get full ( Read more... )

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 May 3, 2009
wt- 53.0 kg
$-  Bought nursing textbooks online: $59.09 (Camp Nursing, NICU Nursing, Medical Spanish)
Food- cereal/ milk, oj
slice of spinach and mushroom pizza (Felini's)
applesauce, graham cracker goldfish, cheddar bunnies, chocolate, fiber one granola bar
Exercise- none
vitamins- check

Events- Church with Jonathan and Josh Pham. The sermon ( Read more... )

I wasn't calling to tattle on you ( Read more... )

 Attention is about the last thing I care about concerning my eating disorder, but you are convinced it is a priority. And every time you try to apply this theory, it will seem to make sense. But I assure you, it doesn't matter. Have you not noticed how mortifying I find attention to be? Yes, let me starve myself because I want everyone to look at ( Read more... )

i want to cut myself to feel pain, then i want to take oxycodone to feel better, i want to throw up because i think i deserve it, and i want to sleep all day tomorrow. i want to quit my office job and go shopping.

i want to clean the house and pack for the weekend and go grocery shopping and buy healthy food and cook so i actually have food around ( Read more... )

Weight: 51.3 kg (yay!)

Food: lunch was pasta and flat bread, dinner was at O'Charley's with Carmen

Events: Well let's see... I woke up at Lauren's at like 10:45. Came home a couple hours later and ate some tortellini with this tomato alfredo sauce and some flat bread. It wasn't very good, actually, and ever since then I've felt kinda nauseated off an ( Read more... )

Sunday, June 15
Well that was Father's Day.
Intake- bagel, cream cheese, coffee w/ honey
veggie burger, fries, brownie w/ ice cream
pizza, salad
Exercise- 15 minute run
Events- Patrick and I took Dad out to breakfast at Panera and then went with him to Christ Church. After that we went to the Cathedral to pick up Mom. I wandered around the bookstore and ( Read more... )

Oh life, how unmanageable you are lately! Not really for any reason other than that I haven't been writing things down and dutifully keeping track of all my lists.

So today my weight was inexplicably 58.0 kg. Thursday it was 56.5 so I dunno what's going on.

Yesterday- Saturday June 14th

Weight- 57.4 kg
Intake- bacon biscuit, sushi, cookie
apple, ( Read more... )