you could be a hero
ok, this big update i talked about a few days ago, i dont even know what it was going to be about now, so whatever. one thing was about this conflict i got into with brandon about some shit. but it was thru amy, so yeah. i was very upset and this is the conversation we had on yahoo msngr:
Brandon: im really, really sorry... but a lot of this is all...like.. a LOT of miscommunication..so im kind of hoping that you'll call me...because trust me, im not in the best mood either.. but im really worried because me and you both have been being really selfish to two other people and we both need to talk...come on sweetie, its ME...we WILL fix this and everyone will feel better in the morning and be at ease if you call me...and i really hope you do... but if you dont want to tonight and just hold it off for a couple of days (i have to spend the night with kay...promised) and let this all linger...we can wait. its up to you but i love you and im sorry..
Brandon: i hate this.. this is like...me and you...fighting...its not right
Brandon: im going to lose so much sleep over this and im sure you will too
Brandon: but uhm...just....its up to you linds.....but im sorry...you really did misunderstand a lot of things that would be better to hear from me...and i probably need to hear some things from you too...i think we have a lot more to talk about than the subject at hand....
lindsey1786 : i dont see how i have been selfish to anyone. you're making it sound more complicated than it is. i don't think there was miscommunication...it was amy being the mediator AGAIN....and she doesn't fuck up with that. seriously...just leave it be. and we'll talk about it another day
lindsey1786 : so im going to go. and ill ttyl
Brandon: i cant leave it be...and there is a lot more to talk about than you think....im just asking you, as a friend...my best friend...to call me so we can work this out at least for the sake of amy and ronnie because they arent too happy right now either and its OUR fault....but if you want to wait, i will wait.
lindsey1786 : WHAT IS MY FAULT?!?! i dont understand! i will call you bc i love you, but not tonight, and i cant put up with this anymore. i need to go. try to sleep and we'll talk soon.
Brandon: alright.
Brandon: love you too.
lindsey1786 : bye
Brandon: bye
we went to ft worth. had a grand time. hit two bookstores that evening and had red lobster for dinner. MmMmMm...crab legs. which i had. my favorite. and the hotel was great. it was like brand new and they were still working on the parking lot...we had a fresh, brand new room. it was cool. my mom and i went down to the pool close to dark. i didnt have anything to swim in, so i went in my green cargo shorts and a t-shirt. my mom just put her feet in and we talked. it was fun.
the next day, tuesday, we hit another bookstore and had brunch at ihop. meh...wasn't what i was craving, but it was still good. then we went to fireside lodge, where my mom used to work, and saw her old patients and co-workers. it was fun, until they all started crying. not cool.
then it was off to haltom city to see my mom's friend sarah. we spent about an hr-2 hrs at her place, visiting. she's fun. her and her husband are going to try to move down here within the next three years and her and my mom are going to start a pediatrics business together.
so yeah. that was that and we got home around 7 last night.
today was a lazy day. mainly bc it started out bad for my parents. the $94,000 check sent to the mortgage company to pay off the house was presumed lost. scary. stressful. tense. not fun house this morning. silence and grumbling. worrying. THEN the mail came and there was the receipt...the stupid lady on the phone didn't know what she was talking about.
church was good, gave charlie and julie (our preacher and his wife) the gifts we got them in ft worth. julie cried. hugs were exchanged.
it poured rain like nobodies business. it got so loud at once, we could hardly hear charlie speaking, and he was speaking into a microphone. AND our room isn't that terribly big. maybe uhmm...60 ft by 30 ft? rough estimate, bc i suck at those kinds of estimates. so yeah. crazy storming.
my sister and the kids weren't there either. she says she had a bad day. oh, well.
my mom, stepdad, and i had dinner at pizza hut afterward. talked a lot. funny conversation with my mom!!!!!!!!!
i'm playing an arcade game...some off road driving thing. i was in 3rd out of 8 places and was like, "woot!" then i looked away, and messed up. so i ended in 6th. i headed back to the table and i go...
me: "poo!"
mom: you said poo. *pause* do you cuss lindsey?
me: uhmm...*nervous giggling*
the whole time my stepdad is grinning at me like, "uh oh"
mom: well i was just wondering bc i've never heard you cuss and i don't know. have you ever?
me: mom! i'm 18! of course i've cussed
mom: well what have you said?
me: oh my gosh....
mom: how bad was it? like, what was it?
me: (to stepdad) she's losing it...
mom: no, really...i just want to know...when was it?
me: hey...the pizza's coming!
isn't that a bit weird?? i was cracking up when it was over, going, "this is going to be a great story to tell...!"
im tired now, so im going to lay down.
maybe someday i'll get those pictures i posted fixed so they're not all little red x's. can anyone at all see them? let them know.
goodnight.
Brandon: im really, really sorry... but a lot of this is all...like.. a LOT of miscommunication..so im kind of hoping that you'll call me...because trust me, im not in the best mood either.. but im really worried because me and you both have been being really selfish to two other people and we both need to talk...come on sweetie, its ME...we WILL fix this and everyone will feel better in the morning and be at ease if you call me...and i really hope you do... but if you dont want to tonight and just hold it off for a couple of days (i have to spend the night with kay...promised) and let this all linger...we can wait. its up to you but i love you and im sorry..
Brandon: i hate this.. this is like...me and you...fighting...its not right
Brandon: im going to lose so much sleep over this and im sure you will too
Brandon: but uhm...just....its up to you linds.....but im sorry...you really did misunderstand a lot of things that would be better to hear from me...and i probably need to hear some things from you too...i think we have a lot more to talk about than the subject at hand....
lindsey1786 : i dont see how i have been selfish to anyone. you're making it sound more complicated than it is. i don't think there was miscommunication...it was amy being the mediator AGAIN....and she doesn't fuck up with that. seriously...just leave it be. and we'll talk about it another day
lindsey1786 : so im going to go. and ill ttyl
Brandon: i cant leave it be...and there is a lot more to talk about than you think....im just asking you, as a friend...my best friend...to call me so we can work this out at least for the sake of amy and ronnie because they arent too happy right now either and its OUR fault....but if you want to wait, i will wait.
lindsey1786 : WHAT IS MY FAULT?!?! i dont understand! i will call you bc i love you, but not tonight, and i cant put up with this anymore. i need to go. try to sleep and we'll talk soon.
Brandon: alright.
Brandon: love you too.
lindsey1786 : bye
Brandon: bye
we went to ft worth. had a grand time. hit two bookstores that evening and had red lobster for dinner. MmMmMm...crab legs. which i had. my favorite. and the hotel was great. it was like brand new and they were still working on the parking lot...we had a fresh, brand new room. it was cool. my mom and i went down to the pool close to dark. i didnt have anything to swim in, so i went in my green cargo shorts and a t-shirt. my mom just put her feet in and we talked. it was fun.
the next day, tuesday, we hit another bookstore and had brunch at ihop. meh...wasn't what i was craving, but it was still good. then we went to fireside lodge, where my mom used to work, and saw her old patients and co-workers. it was fun, until they all started crying. not cool.
then it was off to haltom city to see my mom's friend sarah. we spent about an hr-2 hrs at her place, visiting. she's fun. her and her husband are going to try to move down here within the next three years and her and my mom are going to start a pediatrics business together.
so yeah. that was that and we got home around 7 last night.
today was a lazy day. mainly bc it started out bad for my parents. the $94,000 check sent to the mortgage company to pay off the house was presumed lost. scary. stressful. tense. not fun house this morning. silence and grumbling. worrying. THEN the mail came and there was the receipt...the stupid lady on the phone didn't know what she was talking about.
church was good, gave charlie and julie (our preacher and his wife) the gifts we got them in ft worth. julie cried. hugs were exchanged.
it poured rain like nobodies business. it got so loud at once, we could hardly hear charlie speaking, and he was speaking into a microphone. AND our room isn't that terribly big. maybe uhmm...60 ft by 30 ft? rough estimate, bc i suck at those kinds of estimates. so yeah. crazy storming.
my sister and the kids weren't there either. she says she had a bad day. oh, well.
my mom, stepdad, and i had dinner at pizza hut afterward. talked a lot. funny conversation with my mom!!!!!!!!!
i'm playing an arcade game...some off road driving thing. i was in 3rd out of 8 places and was like, "woot!" then i looked away, and messed up. so i ended in 6th. i headed back to the table and i go...
me: "poo!"
mom: you said poo. *pause* do you cuss lindsey?
me: uhmm...*nervous giggling*
the whole time my stepdad is grinning at me like, "uh oh"
mom: well i was just wondering bc i've never heard you cuss and i don't know. have you ever?
me: mom! i'm 18! of course i've cussed
mom: well what have you said?
me: oh my gosh....
mom: how bad was it? like, what was it?
me: (to stepdad) she's losing it...
mom: no, really...i just want to know...when was it?
me: hey...the pizza's coming!
isn't that a bit weird?? i was cracking up when it was over, going, "this is going to be a great story to tell...!"
im tired now, so im going to lay down.
maybe someday i'll get those pictures i posted fixed so they're not all little red x's. can anyone at all see them? let them know.
goodnight.