I don't even know where to begin. I'm a horrific journaler. I journal religiously for a while and then I stop and then I'll write one entry and stop. This is a prime example of that, it has been months since I posted here, but Stephie was after me to post the other day and I figured now was as good a time as any to attempt to start again ( Read more... )

So I officially haven't posted since may (yes I am that lame.) Summer was really good for the most part, I really enjoyed being home with my family and working in Fantasyland was fabulous. I did start to miss Tampa though (not sure why. Yes, I'm still a little bitter about the fact that my friends abandoned me when I needed them most ( Read more... )

Wow it's been ages since I've written anything in here. I guess I just got lost in moving home and falling into a new routine. It is a little weird being back here, I haven't lived here full time in almost two years. I'm glad to be home though. Really glad. It's nice to be taken care of ( Read more... )

I feel trapped
I can't breath
I'm locked inside myself
I want out
I want to be free
I want to be happy and whole
Why am I holding myself prisoner?
Why have you all deserted me when I need you the most?

Why can't you see my pain? Why can't you look past your own ego and see how much you're hurting me? You glance at the surface. You see my door slamming and my ignoring you as childish anger, when if you'd only look deeper you could see how much pain I'm really in. You used to be able to do that, back when we were friends. You probably aren't even ( Read more... )

I am sick and everything hurts.

Sooo...Apparently I have the inability to update while I'm at home. Not that I can't physically, I just can't remember to. I don't really have anything to say today, so I'm just going to list the 10 things I'm thankful for ( Read more... )

In the wake of bad news, and realizing how very depressed I've been lately, I've decided to try something new. This is an attempt at making myself see the positives in my life, even when everything else sucks. So here's my experiment: When I was younger my mom had me keep a 'Thank You' book. I had to write down five things I was thankful for ( Read more... )

I don't know what wrong with me, maybe I'm bipolar, this morning I felt ok and I feel completely overwhelmed and abandoned. I don't understand how I can go from being completely ok to completely not when I haven't moved from my desk. I feel like crying, I haven't done that in a while.

I feel like blank pages in a book today, I just need to write the story.