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[waterlily_becca]

My great grandmother just died. And I don't know if I care?

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[slagroom]

-hugs-
let me know if there's anything i can do, either way.
love you pretty xox

[waterlily_becca]

Thanks, Katers. I love you too *hugs*

[kidviciousdonna]

its hard to feel upset when someone you may not be close to dies. its ok to feel sad someone passed, but you don't need to be bawling over it.

[waterlily_becca]

Well, no, I never thought I'd cry or anything. She was very old, and she wasn't... Always very nice. She was decent to me, but she could be a real bitch to my little brother, and... That's just not ok. I just thought I'd feel SOMETHING, you know? But there's nothing.

[readyfuels]

I can see why you'd not be sure if you care. It feels like you should, because you're related, but if you're not close its hard to - plus as she was your great grandmother, she was really quite old and its just something that happens when people get really old.
Its not disrespectful or anything, its just how it is.

[waterlily_becca]

I don't know. I just feel like, since I did know her, I'd at least care. Not cry my eyes out or anything, but at least feel something, anything, at all. But I don't? I feel, maybe, a little sorry for my grandmother, but that's about it, really. If that. I don't really care if it's disrespectful or not, she wasn't a very nice human being, I guess disrespectful would fit perfectly, really, she managed to ruin a lot of people's lives that woman. But she was still nice to me, oddly enough. She was a bitch to my mum and brother though. Especially my brother, and I still don't know why. Which reminds me, I haven't told him she's dead. Although, there, I REALLY don't think he'll care.

[futuremistakes]

i felt the same way when my nan [my dads mum] died. she never liked me and i never liked her. like, there was love there but that was because there had to be y'know? i was never allowed to call her 'nan', i had to call her by her name and she never attempted to make any time for me or my mum. she was a very cold woman and when she died i didnt feel anything at all and honestly, i dont miss her at all and half the time i dont even think of her 'less it comes up as her birthday or the anniversary.

i dont think what you're feeling is weird and i dont think you should feel guilty at all, its just the way things are.

*squishes*

[waterlily_becca]

Thank you. That's pretty close to what I'm feeling, or not feeling, right now.
I don't know what else to say. Thank you, Jo. *hugs*

[omgsiriusly]

I am disgustingly late, but *hug*
I hope you're doing okay.
Love you <3

[omgsiriusly]

Also, because I pressed post too fast somehow:
My great grandmother died about a year ago? And I guess, I kind of felt the same. I mean, I was sort of sad kinda sorta, but I didn't shed any tears or anything. She was always nice to me, but she was weird and she gave my grandmother and her father a lot of grief over the years. She wasn't that nice a woman. So I kind of felt like I had to care but on the other hand: meh?

I can't explain.

[waterlily_becca]

You make me smile, Saar. You always do. I don't know how you do it.
And I know what you mean. I pretty much know exactly what you're trying to say. Did I tell you that this is the woman that more or less forced my grandmother to put my dad in foster-care 'because the whole thing was just such a disgrace for the family'. Yeah, the upperclass *rolls eyes* Psht.

Giving people grief. She did that. A lot.

Thank you, Saar. I love you too!