I didn't think I'd be sad that I'm not going to school right now, but I am.. It's crazy that I wish I had homework and organization and something to keep me busy.. I'm just soo bored..

I'm really sad tonight was the only football game I get to watch my brother play in this year.. Maybe I am stupid for leaving, but it's the choice that I've made and I'm not going to be upset about it. There's nothing left for me in Ishpeming anymore, in terms of my own personal life. I mean sure there's my family and a few close friends, but other ( Read more... )

I think I finally know how to be a whole person again.. Oregon is a good place to be ;-)

I'm so damn exhausted today..ugh.. But I have the next three days off and I'm hoping maybe I'll find somewhere to go for a few of them just to get away. I mean I am leaving in a week, but I'd like to get away now too if I can ( Read more... )

I wish I could feel the way I felt this morning, all the time. I don't know what it was that put me in the mood I was in, but it felt so good. I haven't smiled and been happy in a very long time. I just wish that feeling would stick.

Ohh and on another note, I went bowling the other night. And I bowled completely out of my ass. The best I've ever ( Read more... )

Winter Moonlight

The snow, so peaceful and serene,
caressed by the soft moonlight,
gave magical feelings to the night.

The soft blue glow,
the lovers' words that then did flow,
their lips closer and closer
until, locked in the throes
of a passionate embrace,
he decided to express his feelings,
to keep her safe.

He whispered softly,
his words like music to her ( Read more... )

Gotta love little kids and their memories...

"Where's Jimmy?"

As if a four year old remembers me and asks where his cousin is. I wish I still felt that bond with the entire family.

Friday morning at 1030 am I'll finally be getting help. What a relief....

I really want to jump ahead to August 6th and Enjoy the 8 days after it, and then skip about the next 3 years of my life ( Read more... )

I'm finally going to make myself get help. And I'm afraid, but it has to be the right thing to do. I know things will get harder if I don't.  I've been trying to pretend I didn't need help, but I'm ready to admit I do.