I feel powerless because, there's this person that I want to be, but I can't be that person until I get rid of a certain element. And, it's not easy to get rid of this element, you see. It would take time, patience, and hard work. So I guess that's what's hard for me to handle, because I like to do everything the easy way, and I like things to happen at my own pace. This is more or less me in a nutshell.
And as you talked about the boy named Michael I couldn't help but think of my old friend Tyson. Tyson was an incredible friend and a special person; our love and affection for each other was simple, platonic, but beautiful in a way I can't quite describe. I don't think you really get but one friend like that in your life.
I'm sorry you feel that way. =/ But I can really relate. It's just so aggravating.
It sounds like to me Tyson was to you like Michael was to me. It was funny that I was thinking about him today, because if there was a movie of my life, his role would not be big, possibly even cut out. But as I reflected on it, I realized what he could have been to me. & now that opportunity is gone.
I know how you feel. Sometimes I wish I could go back & say things I wish I would've said. I guess it's true "you never really know what you have til it's gone" :-/ but sometimes it's hard to appreciate everyone & everything at one time
Wow. I'm trying to think of something to say, and it's just not coming out. I'm trying to think of who would be my Michael in my life... Chance is probably the closest to being in that role. Hindsight sucks because it's always 20/20 and sometimes you wish the present-sight was just as good.
I feel powerless because, there's this person that I want to be, but I can't be that person until I get rid of a certain element. And, it's not easy to get rid of this element... I feel that way about myself all the time. The me I want to be is more outgoing, adventurous, and definitely more spontaneous that I am now. I plan things too much and want everything to be perfect, instead of just doing it and living in the moment. Someday we will be that person we want to be, right now is the hard work and patience part that we both hate some much.
wow... i need to drink coffee, i'm sound philosophical. lol.
You're beautiful, in every single way, no lie. Maybe Michael is happy now? I wish I could help or say something comforting to help you. There's no words, because there's no prophet typing these words.
I hope wherever he is, he is happy. He deserves it. He is such a wonderful person.
And you don't have to be a prophet to give advice & to comfort. What you said, what everyone here said really comforted me, even if they only related. It made me feel less alone.
& who need prophets anyway? i hear they have big egos lol.
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This is more or less me in a nutshell.
And as you talked about the boy named Michael I couldn't help but think of my old friend Tyson. Tyson was an incredible friend and a special person; our love and affection for each other was simple, platonic, but beautiful in a way I can't quite describe.
I don't think you really get but one friend like that in your life.
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It sounds like to me Tyson was to you like Michael was to me. It was funny that I was thinking about him today, because if there was a movie of my life, his role would not be big, possibly even cut out. But as I reflected on it, I realized what he could have been to me. & now that opportunity is gone.
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I feel powerless because, there's this person that I want to be, but I can't be that person until I get rid of a certain element. And, it's not easy to get rid of this element... I feel that way about myself all the time. The me I want to be is more outgoing, adventurous, and definitely more spontaneous that I am now. I plan things too much and want everything to be perfect, instead of just doing it and living in the moment. Someday we will be that person we want to be, right now is the hard work and patience part that we both hate some much.
wow... i need to drink coffee, i'm sound philosophical. lol.
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I hope wherever he is, he is happy. He deserves it. He is such a wonderful person.
And you don't have to be a prophet to give advice & to comfort. What you said, what everyone here said really comforted me, even if they only related. It made me feel less alone.
& who need prophets anyway? i hear they have big egos lol.
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