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[weare]

I was just thinking about my therapy session yesterday. How I told her my doubts about wanting to know what had happened to make me split. About how until recently I believed that I was multiple "just because"...that I was born this way. That some people are multiple and some aren't and it's not necessarily because of any trauma. etc

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[ambyrhawk]

If something did happen. It could help stop if from happening to someone else.

[weare]

true... *hugs*

[sesemperamabo]

i had schizophrenia, im sure of it. i had hallucinations, and i heard things no one else did and i was dillusional and paranoid. and my father told my therapist a while ago that he had always suspected. ...but i still have no idea what caused the first dissociation... (and i dont have any memories of dissociation though i remember the voices and hallucinations that vanished when i was 11)
*hugs*
~Ca n the gang

[amethystrse]

Yeah, I used to see and hear things more when I was younger. Though, I still hear them and sometimes I can see stuff that supposidly isn't there. I was always told I was seeing spirits and didn't know I was multiple until 2 years ago. *shrugs* But, as far as disociating...I only have a few memories of it. Usually I just wasn't aware of it.

[sesemperamabo]

the funny thing is i always knew that i was the only one who could see them. most of the time i just ignored it, but i think some of the others were not so accepting of "seeing things" and they freaked out, which really scared my family. my nonnie always told us they were demons and i just had to pray to make the "monsters" leave. at 11, when i got them to disapear (mostly-theres still some there but its not vivid) i also became an atheist...though now im pagan...
<3 ca & the gang

[weare]

My mom once took me to see the family pastor when I told her about the things I would see, feel, and hear. He told me that God gave me a gift and that I was seeing spirits and whatnot. I still believe that a lot of the time I'm seeing or hearing spirits though I understand that at least sometimes it's not.

An example of something I'll see... I'll sometimes look at a tree and see something moving along/in it. Kine of like ripples along the bark. I've always believed this to be the dryad (or spirit) of the tree and at one time used to hear them talk.