now i am in fact listening to pixies

"bird dream from olympus mons"

this song is very special to me.

pixies are very special to me.

i listened to them during a special time in my life and then forgot about them.

i wish i wasn't such a jerk.

i don't like that last post. it was shitty. and i intended writitng it to show that i know exactly what i want, but now i just realize it shows that i have no idea. it sucks.

THE ONLY THING THAT CAN SAVE US IS DESPAIR:
(A RAMBLE BY ME)

SO THE ONLY THING THAT CAN SAVE US IS DESPAIR. the only thing that can save us is despair ( Read more... )

UNPRECEDENTED HAPPINESS IS QUITE AN ELUSIVE GOAL. BUT YOU KNOW WHAT ISN'T? COMPLETE DESPAIR. YEP. THE ONLY THING THAT CAN SAVE US IS DESPAIR. SO. I WAS THINKING TODAY. AND THAT'S LIKE ONE STEP FORWARD, TWO STEPS BACK.

I STILL DON'T LIKE THE FUTURE. I GUESS THAT MEANS I'M AFRAID. I JUST WANT THE WORLD TO STAY LIKE IT IS NOW FOREVER.

now i just want to listen to pixies.

THINGS "AREN'T GOING GREAT" WITH MY TRIAL...

WHERE ARE YOU GOING? TODAY I HAD SOME REAL THOUGHTS. I KNOW HUMAN NATURE IS GOOD. I HOPE SOMEONE SOMEDAY READS MY LIVEJOURNAL AND CALLS IT "EDWALLIAN STOICISM". I IMAGINED WHAT IT WOULD BE LIKE IF IN 100 YEARS SOME DOUCHEBAG NAMED DR. FAABORG TALKS ABOUT HOW EDWALLIAN STOICISM WAS DIFFERENT FROM REGULAR STOICISM. AND MAYBE SOME SMUG KID IN THE ( Read more... )

I HONESTLY DON'T KNOW HOW I COULD BE HAPPIER RIGHT NOW...

WAIT, YES I DO. I NEED BEER.

,TODAY COLLEGE WAS STUPID. I HAD SOME HOS FOR SOME ENGLISH PROJECT AND IT BOMBED. I HAD 2 AND A HALF, MAYBE 3 HOURS OF FREE TIME AT COLLEGE, SO INSTEAD OF DOING HOMEWORK I READ "THE PERKS OF BEING A WALLFLOWER". I FELT GOOD BECAUSE I ONLY PAUSED TO SEE WHAT TIME IT WAS. I LIKE THIS BOOK ( Read more... )