i don't know

[weary_abjection]

I just want something different. Is that so hard to understand? I'm just not sure how smart it is to try to be happy anymore, or to make the best of things. I don't know really what has happened to me because I didn't used to be this meak or quite so indecisive and moody. I know I'm pregnant but geez, how much can you accredit to that. The phone

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[emmerz_lee]

Oh, honey...I completely understand how you feel. Try and talk to Matt...or even if you want to talk to me; I know it won't be the same talking like, online or through emails or even this, but seriously, I still want to try and help you however I can. I still love you Amanda, even though we don't talk so much anymore. All I can say is that I PROMISE you that things will get better; I've learned a lot in the past year and I completely understand what it feels like to be at your lowest point and it sucks. I always remember that there are people who do care about me though and even if it doesn't seem like, at that moment, people could give a flying fuck about me I just remember EVERYONE. Seriously, everyone who has ever shown any niceness towards me and it makes me smile and I just seem to feel a little better. And don't worry about seeing someone; if you really feel like it will help you then go for it but...well I think you know my attitudes about "shrinks" by now! Just remember the good times love!