AHH ( Read more... )

So here i am again. I went to bed around 10:30, tossed for a bit. I took my sleeping pill at 10. what the hell, its almost mid-night and i'm still awake. I think i am the most insane person i have ever met. who does this?? I know i'm tired. I can feel it in my body. ughhh. So here i am writing a stupid blog entry about how i hate stupid nights. Is ( Read more... )

I'm doing my nanny job right now. But my little love baby is sleeping...THANK GOD. He has been sick, so kind of grumpy. Anyways, I couldn't sleep again last night. even my pills didnt work. Ugh i'm so frustrated with insomnia. Last night i tired warm milk, taking a bath, writing in my journal, listening to mellow music, writing down all my problems ( Read more... )

I passed out this morning getting ready for work.
I was taken to the ER.
They donno whats wrong with me.
Story of my life.
Now My head hurts, and my shoulder.
I'm still shaky too. Hmm?

I tried to sleep today because i couldnt last night. But I couldn't. This Insomnia needs to stop..NOW.

Oh. I'm just so tired of it all.

As of today many things have happened since the last time I posted. Which was either in November or Dec. Cause all i remember about it was i was talking about mike masons oh so "lovely" dogs. But I been wanting to write in here for a while but i didnt think i had much to say. I still don't but i guess i can shove some stuff out. haha. Plus Peter ( Read more... )

I will tell you all right now, if the Mason's ever ask you to watch their house, let me let you in on a favor: SAY NO!!!. Everytime I do, something always happens. The first time their oldest dog got really sick and barfed everywhere. The 2nd time the dogs pooped everywhere and I flushed it down the tolit with a paper towel and the whole bathroom ( Read more... )

Christmas was okay. It wasen't bad. yesterday felt more like christmas because i was with "real" family. My Church Family and the Goetts again. I think that I would have had a bad Christmas today, but i tryed to have a different outlook on it all. And it worked. Even though it was like all the other years, i learned that life will never be perfect ( Read more... )

Sometimes I Think I Made The Biggest Mistake Of My Whole Life. And Sometimes I Wish I was Strong. And Sometimes I Pray it Would Leave Me Alone.

I Think my heart is getting stone cold. plan hard. yet, i cried for the first time in front of someone today in a really long time. i broke down. Yet i feel like im going to build a wall. Just forget everything and start over. I think I had things to well, yet i want to tell someone how i feel, yet i feel like the one person i tell everything to is ( Read more... )

The Rain Sounds So Beautiful. There Is So Much That Sounds So Beautiful Tonight. Like The Sound Of The Music Playing In My Room, All Around Me ( Read more... )