Ok i don't know what to do i'm torn on what i want and wht i should do, things seemed so much easier just a few months ago. Yet now everything is seems blurry and i feel really torn. I feel torn for the past that I still yearn for and a future that might not be there but is a potential that seems more evident everyday. I really feel like a ( Read more... )

Hey guys i found my dream girl, i mean the girl from my dream and it she is so damn hot that i almost went silent.(dream girl see second entry before this) It wasn't a perfect match but she was damn close and that was freakishly intriguing. Ionno i must delve much more into this girl first cuz i am not gonna try to go for her until i'm sure she ( Read more... )

I feel perfectly content with all i have. Like i would like to meet someone kool and all but i don't need it lie before finding a good companion for some time was what drove me and being woth my friends did too, but not so much anymore. Like i can hang with my friends which i still love to do, yet it isn't as necessary as i would say it was a ( Read more... )

So i've been dilly dallying around all week doing really nothing but just being a lazy bum and i love it hehehehehehe. Just wanted to post that i had one of the weirdest dreams ever and i can't stop thinking about it. This dream was in no way sexual but it was about a girl i had never seen before like she was beautiful and everything, plus the ( Read more... )

Ok so sunday was one heck of a day that ended with me and the cops good times as usual lol. Well i decided to go back to umass to go to a party with some friends and just chill, relax and say my goodbyes, yeah didn't end up that way at all cuz Ra's suck real bad. Well at the new dorms on campus me and my friends were chilling playing a card game ( Read more... )

Everything seems to finally be looking up for a change. I don't know how long it's gonna last but let's wait and see.

Thought you were my friends but i was dead wrong i should have listened to mom and dad when they said don't trust those people they will leave you at the first sign of anything bad. Yet i was like no way hells no these are my friends they'll always be there but wow i was dead wrong and you know what i'm glad i got to know people like you cause i ( Read more... )

The early november concert was something i really needed thank you the Early novmeber. I feel a bit better then i did earlier this week but not back to my normal self and i don't think i'm gonna be back there for a while but hey time can fix that. Anywho i'm just posting to say i think i need to talk to some people about some things and believe ( Read more... )

I can walk around, i can be with people and have a smile, i can laugh tell jokes and just be wat everyone loves, but i am in reality falling into pieces inside. Today must have been tied for my worst day ever, it just seems as if the world is turning in on me i can't run away but only sit here and let it fall on me. I try and i can't stop feeling ( Read more... )