as of lately, i hate sleeping. because all i'm doing is dreaming. and my dreams are of family/friend situations, that cause me to stress out or wake up wondering "What the fuck". and to make matters worse, similar situations occur during the day/week so it causes me this whole deja vu ( Read more... )

so i met derek back in february off an online dating site, [same site i met matt]. and we had nothing in common but we decided to do a one night stand type deal...and naturally i don't hear from him. until the other day. and he comes right out and says "so when are we gonna fuck next?". i say "uh, never"...and then he turns it quickly around by ( Read more... )

so. the wonderful monthly is here ( Read more... )

i know i haven't posted in here in awhile ( Read more... )

well that will teach me to not stretch before i start working out. or rather, should i say dancing. is this a sign i'm getting old? gheeeeeeez ( Read more... )

so i just was on the phone with my little sister and she says "have you talked to matt lately?"...and i said no. cause i haven't for a few months now, and it was good, he was out of my head, and i came to the conclusion i won't see the $60 he owed me for the futon, but that's fine, he'll get what's coming to him ( Read more... )

when one guy loses interest, another guy pops up from the woodwork. this new guys name is rob. and he's turning out to be a real sweetheart. he's 22 though. age doesn't bother me, most of the time. but apparently i have a tendency to be patronizing ( Read more... )

no this isn't a man bashing blog, just a frustrated one ( Read more... )

i woke up feeling sick this morning. i had such a weird dream last night and it bothered me a lot. and i don't know why or what it means ( Read more... )

is there such a thing? like someone to just be there when i need them, to help me make sound decisions, help me figure out how to make a good next step, etc ( Read more... )