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[aryliana]

I find myself getting in and out of these moods of happiness and hopelessness. Sometimes I'm in a great mood and I feel like nothing can bring me down. Other times though, I just get so low that I break down. It's about all sorts of things. The fact that everyone close to me is currently dating someone and doesn't really have time for me anymore,

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[unhappygurl82]

wow -
your post couldn't be anymore like me....

i have the same mood swings - a happy high and then a low low.

My bf of 5 years just left me - im 28 - fat - and depressed.
I am not excited about dating anymore - I feel hopeless - I will probably be alone the rest of my life.

When I was 22 I was suppose to get married - the guy left me - so the relationship I had with my ex was completely affected I always - worried if one day he would wake up - and leave me - and he did - he got tired of it and i don't blame him.

I take xanax and was just looking online about how to OD - i hate my life - and now I don't know what to do with myself.

Oh and most of my friends are married - which sucks 4 me.

[aryliana]

wow...you do sound a little like me. but please don't OD...it really isn't worth it. Cliche to say, I know, but it's true.

[sleepytaco]

I'm pretty big too, so dont feel discouraged. I've lost 20 lbs so far and I'm looking to lose another 60 before school starts!

I haven't thought about that last issue. I can see how it'd make you feel better - then you're not alone. I do, however, LOVE seeing my friend's bodies. All my friends are so cute and its even more encouragement to get skinny. Kinna like thinspo IRL lol.

[aryliana]

yeah I'm 5'4'' and I weigh about...IDK...if I had to guess a number I'd say 135. I definitely want to drop to at least 120-125 range before classes start up again in September.

[sleepytaco]

Thats alot less than I need to drop D: I'm trying to drop 65 lbs. Lol doubt thats gonna happen unless I get lipo. I wanna be somewhere between 115 and 130.

[867_lovefool]

I totally know how you feel! I'm so scared to get on the scale... I just know that I'm HUGE!

I saw a friend the other day that put on a lot of weight, and I felt bad because it made me sort of weirdly happy.

[aryliana]

exactly! It makes you feel like you aren't the only failure out there. It's horrible but it makes me happy. I just can't bring myself to face the numbers on the scale right now.It's too much