Man I love it when people say I've lost weight and I look good. I get such a confidence boost. I had accepted the fact that I'm not going to be a size 3 but who knows maybe one of these days I'll look even better than I do now!!!

I wish I wasn't such a fool. I knew my heart couldn't handle this and yet I jumped in head first and now I feel my heart ripping into pieces. I am so stupid sometimes. Now what do I do?

I think it's something about this time of year that makes me so happy. I feel so good, even when things suck, for some reason I am able to look past it and be happy. It's about time I started enjoying life. I think I am always way too uptight. It's nice to know that no matter how bad things get, and believe me it gets bad, I still can be happy.

Man it's been quite a while since I've had a good drunken cry. I really feel so much better now. We have to one of those again, soon.

It is so wonderful to be able to take a shower in my own bathroom. I never realized how much it sucks to not have water.

Nothing beats this feeling I have right now! That's all I'm saying.

You know that feeling you get when you feel kinda like the oddball around everyone else? For the first time in ages I felt like that today. I had forgotten how bad that feeling sucks.

I find it mindboggling the way love can consume you in an instant, and take over your entire body, mind, health, emotions, and soul. In that same instant can flee from you, leaving only a large dent in your heart. You find yourself standing there crushed, confused, and alone again. I hate feeling alone, the kind of alone you feel when you attend a ( Read more... )

It is 4:18am and here I sit, another sleepless night. It has become habbit to sleep my life away during the day, and spend the entire night wide awake feeling insanity starting to kick in. On top of being wide awake I am extremely thirsty and we have nothing to drink. This sucks! Everytime I lay down to go to sleep I just end up getting back up and ( Read more... )

Wow, I never thought riding a bike would be so difficult. I used to ride my bike all over Panama City. I thought I was going to die. I guess I just need to get back into shape ( Read more... )