Hope is around the corner Part2/?
TITLE: Hope is around the corner Part2/?
AUTHOR: wemwems
GENRE: AU
PAIRINGS: 2min, OnKey, JongKey for now :)
RATING: PG-13 to NC-17
SUMMARY: Lee Taemin isn't a normal 17 year old boy. The death of his family has given him a new insight to life, and he is on a mission to change the world. However, he didn't plan on falling in love with Choi Minho, his favourite Korean idol, who loves him more than life itself. But which is more important to him: Being with the one man who can give him a second chance of having a family, or his dream to make the world a better place? If only he could have both...
A/N: I noticed that this chapter definitely has a different feel to the first one. I managed to get in everyone's point of view, which makes me feel like I'm squishing too many things together... Oh well please let me know what you think of this chapter xxx Oh and let me know if you want me to spot you I'd be happy to :D
Part 2
Key POV
I feel so ashamed of myself. Here I am, feeling sorry for myself that I have to choose between two of the most wanted idols in Korea, when poor Taemin has lost so much. Ohh the poor puppy!! After he finishes his speech he breaks down in excessive tears. Aigooo! I run to him and give him a giant hug. "Don't worry Taemin, umma is here," I say to try and sooth him. "You're amazing you know that?" He doesn't respond at all. He's still crying with his head buried in my shoulders. Minho comes to me and whispers in my ear.
"Take him backstage, he shouldn't be infront of the cameras like this."
"Why don't you take him Minho?" I want to take him, but I saw the minute Minho locked eyes with Taemin that he had a thing for him. I only noticed because I was trying to get Taemin to look at me, he's so pretty! But Jjong and Onew are more than enough for me and anyway, I feel motherly towards Taemin more than anything.
"Okay I'll take him." I transfer Taemin in to Minho's arms and he takes him backstage.
The fans are going crazy. Somehow, about 100 more Taemin signs have appeared, some of them even have his picture on them. I'm not surprised though, Taemin is a natural fangirl magnet. They're either crying, shrieking or screaming "Lee Taemin, Lee Taemin!!" The staff are trying to calm the crowd down, it's getting pretty messy out there.
"Okay, okay, okay settle down now everyone!!" Leeteuk tries to get the show back on track. "This is Star King's gift to you for being faithful viewers. We hope you follow Taemin's advice, and his example. Remember, he's only 17…"
"Ahh 17. So young! When I was 17 all I cared about was girls and my hair…" Ho Dong interrupts, trying to lighten the atmosphere. "But what a waste of time." The audience starts to giggle as the camera man zooms in on Ho Dong's balding head. "Let's ask SHINee, what did you think about Taemin?"
"Taemin earlier said he thinks of me as a role-model. Really, it's the other way round. He's been through a lot at a very young age, yet he acts like he's very experienced and wise." Onew comments. It looks like Taemin got to him too, because his eyes were red.
"Yes, to be honest I thought that debuting at a young age was very hard, and that we were very, how do you say it.. admirable and brave for being able to handle the life of an idol as teenagers. But looking at Taemin and his courage I feel put to shame." I add. It's true, I thought idol life was hard, but look at Taemin. I really need to stop being selfish trying to hold on to both Jonghyun and Onew. It's time to let one of them go, I'm going to do it tonight. My thoughts are interrupted as Taemin and Minho walk back on to the stage. The crowd explodes once again.
Minho POV
I just, I can't believe it. I can't believe the boy infront of me is for real. As he speaks, he keeps glancing back at me. I do my best to put on an encouraging face, since he looked so nervous. But as his speech went on he got more and more confident. He really seemed like a different person when he got in to it. It was like, this was what he was born to do. He's finished but, ahh he's crying so much. Thank goodness Key has gone to hug him. I mean, ofcourse I would love to but Key is much more suited for these kind of things. The atmosphere is so tense right now with everyone crying, and Taemin bawling his eyes out on camera isn't helping at all. I tell Key to take him back stage, but instead he hands Taemin over to me. I tell myself to thank Key later, he always knows what's going on in my head, it's his motherly instinct.
Once we're out of the camera's view I try and pry Taemin away from my shoulder (although I quite like him leaning on me). "Taemin, are you okay?" He just snivels and looks down. "Listen Taemin, I'm sure it was really hard for you to do that. Thankyou, so much."
"Minho… I…." He stutters. He was still in my arms, but completely tensed up and stiff as if he were frozen.
"Taemin? Are you okay?"
"I.. It… It's hard."
"Taemin, ofcourse it is, I understand. This is your family we're talking about. I'm so amazed that you're doing this."
"Thankyou."
"Listen, if you ever need somebody to talk to, or if you need a friend, or just a shoulder to cry on. I'm here." I want to be there for him. After all that he's lost, I just want to make him feel like he has somebody. I want to be with him all the time, just so he knows he's not alone. Oh boy, I'm falling for him aren't I? "You can trust me Taemin." I finally feel him relax into me, but he starts crying again.
"I just, I miss them so much. I've done this so many times, but it never gets any easier."
I don't know what to say now. But I don't feel like I need to say anything. I just need to be here for him right now, and so I hold him closer. He suddenly stops crying and looks up. "I'm sorry I got your shirt wet."
"Any time." I smile at him, and he smiles back.
A member of staff approaches us with a box of tissues. "Excuse me, sorry. The scriptwriters are asking if you're ready to go back on stage."
"Taemin?"
"Yes, I'm ready to go back on."
We walk back on to the set and once again hear the deafening roar of the crowd.
Taemin POV
I can not believe I am with Minho Choi right now, crying all over his shoulder. I don't usually get this upset, at least not until I am completely out of public view. But there's something special about this broadcast. I feel uncomfortable being so close to Minho. I'm trying so hard to stop crying, but I just can't. I picture my father in his hospital bed, asking me to keep fighting for him. I'm trying to, I'm trying but it just hurts so much. Everyone I've ever loved has left me. I haven't let anyone get close to me after the death of my family. I'm so scared to let anyone in anymore. But, when Minho tells me he wants to be there for me, I can't help but trust him. I feel so safe in his arms when I finally surrender and sink in to them. Unless it's part of my presentation, I don't talk to people about how I feel about my family. Which is why I'm surprised when I say:
"I just, I miss them so much. I've done this so many times, but it never gets any easier."
I enjoy the silence that follows, and his tightened grip tells me he understands. I look up and apologise for ruining his shirt. He gives me this amazing smile, that instantly makes the corners of my mouth curl upwards, and I grin back at him like an idiot. Once again, he gives me the courage to go back on the set, and we conclude the show with thankyou's and goodbyes.
Onew POV
After Taemin comes back on the set HonDo and Leeteuk quickly wrap up the show, give tons and tons of thanks and gratitude to Taemin for being so brave. Taemin puts on a brave face for the rest of the show, and tells the viewers he hopes his message has reached their hearts. It's definitely reached mine. One day his family was there, the next day they were gone. If that happened to Key, I don't know what I would do. And then I realise that could happen any minute, if Key decides to pick Jonghyun over me. I can't let him do that, I have to prove to him that I'm the only one for him.
After the broadcast Taemin rushes off, leaving a very disappointed looking Minho on the set. But I can't worry about Minho right now, I've got to talk to Key.
"Kibum!" I shout to him, and I take him by the hand to a quite spot in the building. I love how soft his hands are.
"What is it Onew?" Just hearing him say my name sends shivers down my spine. I love this boy more than anything.
"Listen I er…" Oh crap… This is not happening right now. I just, I'm not great with words, especially when it comes to Key. This is what I envy about Jonghyun, he always knows what to say.
"What?" he prompts impatiently, taking the diva pose (a hand on his hip, which is jutted out with his foot impatiently tapping).
"About Jonghyun. And you. And me.. It's just that I.." I take a step towards him. But he ducks away.
"Listen Onew, I haven't decided yet. But I will. I promise. Actually, I'm planning on making my decision tonight."
Tonight? What? I could lose Key tonight? Wait, then again, Key could be mine tonight. Finally, all mine. The thought of that, the thought of finally having Key all to myself makes my heart beat 10 times faster than it should be. I take a step towards him again.
"Kibum. I, I want you to pick me. You have to."
"Why? Tell me why. Make it easier for me."
I run my hand through his short brown hair and put my forehead to his. "Because, no one can love you like I do." I whisper in to his lips. "Because you mean the world to me." I feel him shudder. "Because if you were to die in a plane crash tomorrow, my life would fall to pieces." I take his hand and put it on my heart.
"Onew. It's beating… so fast"
"And if you left me it would stop beating all together."
He doesn't say anything. All that can be heard is our rapid breathing, and I realise that I've started shaking from our bodies being so close together. He sighs deeply. "Onew. I…"
"It's okay Key. I'll wait till tonight. You don't have to say anything."
He takes a step away from me, and tears fill my eyes. He walks away without looking back.
Taemin POV
I need to get away. I just need some air, some space, and some time to cool off. I don't want to go back to my rented apartment, so I decide to wonder around. I don't know Korea that well, but have my phone and some money for a taxi back. I walk aimlessly, thinking about life in general. I've got 2 months of school left. Then I can finally start to study medicine with "Doctors without boarders". To be honest, I don't think that i would make a great doctor. I'm pretty good at my sciences, but not passionate about them at all. My passion comes from my want to help others. The subject that I'm passionate about is dance. Ever since I can remember, I've always loved to dance. My father was always making jokes about it, saying that it's okay if I want to dance since it will make money that I can use to benefit others. He said I can dance my way to end of world hunger. I always liked the idea of that. But after he left, I knew that I had to help in a more direct way. Which is why I picked medicine.
I hear music and realise that I've walked in to a giant park, where a group of b-boys are breaking to music. I immediately feel my body aching to dance with them. I walk over to where they're dancing and watch the boy in the middle of their circle dance He's amazing. The way he dances just mesmerises me. I hang around in the background till he's finished, and then go and talk to him.
"Hey, great dancing."
"Thanks man. Wait, you're Taemin! Man, we just saw you on TV."
I blush unintentionally.
"You were great! Really inspirational." He had quite a thick American accent.
"Do you speak English?" I ask him. I would feel a lot more comfortable talking in English. Speaking in Korean takes effort.
"Yeh ofcourse I do, I was raised in the States. My name's Jay. Well Jae Bum, but yeh just call me Jay." He shakes my hand.
"Haha it's a relief shaking your hand instead of bowing." I admit. "Anyway I just wanted to compliment your dancing."
"Thanks man. Do you dance?"
"Err, yeh a bit."
"Well come join us!"
To be honest, I was kind of hoping he'd ask me. I'm normally shy but I'll dance any time any where. As soon as I hit the middle of the circle my body takes control over me. I pop and lock and let my body flow wherever the music takes me. I feel completely at ease and relaxed. The music stops and I look around and realise that a small crowd has formed. In the crowd I notice someone with a cast on their leg who looks a lot like Jonghyun from Shinee. I'm just about to investigate further when I hear a girl screaming "Taaeeeemmiiiinnnn!!" I'm pretty sure that the big crowd heading towards me are a hoard fan girls. I really don't like this type of attention, and so I quickly leave after thanking Jay for the dance.
I decide to go back to my apartment and rest. I've got another presentation to make tomorrow oh Chinchin radio, and I'm pretty worn out. I take a taxi home, which was really unnecessary as I realise it would have only taken 15 minutes to get there if I only knew the route. Then again, I didn't want to be stopped on the street every 5 minutes by more fan girls. Just another week and I'll be back in London, where I just blend in. During the taxi ride, Minho suddenly comes in to my mind. What happened between us back there? I mean, I was in tears but I still felt the sparks flying back and forth. I remember the feeling of being in his arms. Oh, I just left him there at the studio. Without getting his number, or making plans to meet later.Wait, there's someone on the steps leading up to my doorway. Is that… is that Minho?
Jonghyun POV
I know I'm supposed to be resting my leg at the moment, especially since my members are at a schedule, but I really want to get out of this house and go feed the ducks at the park. It always relaxes me. It was there that I realised that I loved Key, when we were having a contest on who could make a duck throw up. Me and Key always had so much fun together. We're so alike, our personalities just click. We just make so much more sense that him and Onew, why can't he see that? There's a commotion going on around the b-boys. Whatever, it's just the same old guys there. Oh but wait, I've never seen him before. The way he moves, he's not a b-boy. I hobble over there ignoring the usual stares and camera flashes. But as soon as I get there he quickly makes a run for it. Oh well. I hear my phone go off and my face lights up when I see I've gotten a text from Key.
From: Almighty Key:
To: Bling Bling Jonghyun
Hey Jjong :)
I need to talk to you, can we meet up?
I reply quickly
From: Bling Bling Jonghyun
To: Almighty Key
Anytime, any place, anywhere :)
From: Almighty Key:
To: Bling Bling Jonghyun
See you at the park, our spot, 15 minutes.
DON'T BE LATE
I hobble over back to the pond. My favourite spot, where Key and I feed the ducks. Key arrives in 10 minutes. No wonder he's always complaining about waiting when he's always early.
"Kibum!" I welcome him in to a hug. "I've missed you." Instead of blushing like he always does, his face is expressionless. This really discourages me. "How was your day."
"Ohh my goodness. Haven't you watched our broadcast yet?"
"No I was here at the park. Oh by the way I saw the most amazing dancer today right here in the park. You just missed hi…"
"Jjong," he interrupts. "Listen I called you here because I need to talk to you seriously." The look on his face tells me I'm in for a deep conversation. One that I'm not going to like. I take a deep breath.
"Don't tell me you've chosen Onew."
"Not yet. I just want to know, well, today Onew let me know exactly how he felt."
"What did he say?"
"It doesn't matter. I want to know how you feel."
Oh gosh. This is it. I basically have to convince Key that I belong with him. I go behind him and wrap my arm around him in a bear hug, squeezing him tightly.
"Key. If I had the choice, I would never let you go. I would stand here forever, protecting you. If you left me for Onew, I'd… I'd have to leave. I'd have to leave SHINee, I'd have to leave Korea. I'd have to move to the other side of the world, and then I still wouldn't be able to forget you. You have become all that I think about, all that I care about. Please Key, you know we're meant for each other."
I turn him around and pull his waist close to mine. But he pulls away.
"Jjong, no. I'm going to make my decision tonight." I knew that he was going to say something like that. "I heard what you have to say, but don't confused me by… by doing that."
"By doing what?" I ask, though I know exactly what he means. And I don't let him answer. I grab his waist again and bring his body to mine, and with my hand guiding the back of his neck I bring my his lips to mine and kiss him as if it were the last kiss we would ever share. I shudder when I think that it could be. He seems tense at first but soon surrenders to the kiss, allowing me to explore his mouth. Soon, he's clutching on to me, his grip tightening with every flick of my tongue. When our lips separate I whisper in to his ear. "Key. I love you. Please don't leave me."
Minho POV
"Have you seen Taemin? Did you see where Taemin went? Hey, have you seen…" No one seems to know where Taemin is. He hasn't left the building already has he? I was hoping I could take him out after the broadcast, and maybe get to know more about him. But it looks as though he's gone. I guess I'm going to have to find out where he's staying, because there is no way I'm going to just let him go. When I was comforting him backstage, and holding him in my arms, I just wanted to stay like that for the rest of the day. Of course, minus him crying.
After pestering a few of the staff members, I finally find out that he's renting a small apartment in the south of town. Well I have no idea where Onew and Key went, so I guess I'll just head over there and wait for Taemin. I just have to see him. I have to tell him how I feel about him. I know I just met him, but that boy means so much to me at the moment.
Key POV
Dam. Dam DAM DAMMMIT. I don't know. Aarrghh I don't know I just don't know. Onew, Jonghyun, Onew Jonghyun. Onew? For some reason, I felt nervous and vulnerable when Onew and I had our moment. It's as if, I could feel how much I meant to him. No one has ever looked at me the way he did. My heart felt so heavy, like it was about to fall out of my chest.
On the other hand, I felt exactly the opposite when Jonghyun kissed me. My heart felt so light I felt as if it was going to fly away. Everything is so natural with Jonghyun. We get along so well, and it's easy to be around him. I feel like I can be myself.
But… I know that I can't have both. Taemin has taught me that life surprises you, and that you have to take advantage of the days that you have left. I close my eyes, and imagine myself as an old man. And, there's only one man I can picture myself with at that age. I smile, because I know who I'm going to pick.
I take out my phone and punch in his name. I can't even breathe as the phone rings. "Kibum!" I smile when I hear his voice, and I know that I've made the right decision.
I only have two words to say to him. "It's you."
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A/N: I just thought that I'd share this link with you guys. This guy, he inspires me so much. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ciYk-UwqFKA&feature=related
AUTHOR: wemwems
GENRE: AU
PAIRINGS: 2min, OnKey, JongKey for now :)
RATING: PG-13 to NC-17
SUMMARY: Lee Taemin isn't a normal 17 year old boy. The death of his family has given him a new insight to life, and he is on a mission to change the world. However, he didn't plan on falling in love with Choi Minho, his favourite Korean idol, who loves him more than life itself. But which is more important to him: Being with the one man who can give him a second chance of having a family, or his dream to make the world a better place? If only he could have both...
A/N: I noticed that this chapter definitely has a different feel to the first one. I managed to get in everyone's point of view, which makes me feel like I'm squishing too many things together... Oh well please let me know what you think of this chapter xxx Oh and let me know if you want me to spot you I'd be happy to :D
Part 2
Key POV
I feel so ashamed of myself. Here I am, feeling sorry for myself that I have to choose between two of the most wanted idols in Korea, when poor Taemin has lost so much. Ohh the poor puppy!! After he finishes his speech he breaks down in excessive tears. Aigooo! I run to him and give him a giant hug. "Don't worry Taemin, umma is here," I say to try and sooth him. "You're amazing you know that?" He doesn't respond at all. He's still crying with his head buried in my shoulders. Minho comes to me and whispers in my ear.
"Take him backstage, he shouldn't be infront of the cameras like this."
"Why don't you take him Minho?" I want to take him, but I saw the minute Minho locked eyes with Taemin that he had a thing for him. I only noticed because I was trying to get Taemin to look at me, he's so pretty! But Jjong and Onew are more than enough for me and anyway, I feel motherly towards Taemin more than anything.
"Okay I'll take him." I transfer Taemin in to Minho's arms and he takes him backstage.
The fans are going crazy. Somehow, about 100 more Taemin signs have appeared, some of them even have his picture on them. I'm not surprised though, Taemin is a natural fangirl magnet. They're either crying, shrieking or screaming "Lee Taemin, Lee Taemin!!" The staff are trying to calm the crowd down, it's getting pretty messy out there.
"Okay, okay, okay settle down now everyone!!" Leeteuk tries to get the show back on track. "This is Star King's gift to you for being faithful viewers. We hope you follow Taemin's advice, and his example. Remember, he's only 17…"
"Ahh 17. So young! When I was 17 all I cared about was girls and my hair…" Ho Dong interrupts, trying to lighten the atmosphere. "But what a waste of time." The audience starts to giggle as the camera man zooms in on Ho Dong's balding head. "Let's ask SHINee, what did you think about Taemin?"
"Taemin earlier said he thinks of me as a role-model. Really, it's the other way round. He's been through a lot at a very young age, yet he acts like he's very experienced and wise." Onew comments. It looks like Taemin got to him too, because his eyes were red.
"Yes, to be honest I thought that debuting at a young age was very hard, and that we were very, how do you say it.. admirable and brave for being able to handle the life of an idol as teenagers. But looking at Taemin and his courage I feel put to shame." I add. It's true, I thought idol life was hard, but look at Taemin. I really need to stop being selfish trying to hold on to both Jonghyun and Onew. It's time to let one of them go, I'm going to do it tonight. My thoughts are interrupted as Taemin and Minho walk back on to the stage. The crowd explodes once again.
Minho POV
I just, I can't believe it. I can't believe the boy infront of me is for real. As he speaks, he keeps glancing back at me. I do my best to put on an encouraging face, since he looked so nervous. But as his speech went on he got more and more confident. He really seemed like a different person when he got in to it. It was like, this was what he was born to do. He's finished but, ahh he's crying so much. Thank goodness Key has gone to hug him. I mean, ofcourse I would love to but Key is much more suited for these kind of things. The atmosphere is so tense right now with everyone crying, and Taemin bawling his eyes out on camera isn't helping at all. I tell Key to take him back stage, but instead he hands Taemin over to me. I tell myself to thank Key later, he always knows what's going on in my head, it's his motherly instinct.
Once we're out of the camera's view I try and pry Taemin away from my shoulder (although I quite like him leaning on me). "Taemin, are you okay?" He just snivels and looks down. "Listen Taemin, I'm sure it was really hard for you to do that. Thankyou, so much."
"Minho… I…." He stutters. He was still in my arms, but completely tensed up and stiff as if he were frozen.
"Taemin? Are you okay?"
"I.. It… It's hard."
"Taemin, ofcourse it is, I understand. This is your family we're talking about. I'm so amazed that you're doing this."
"Thankyou."
"Listen, if you ever need somebody to talk to, or if you need a friend, or just a shoulder to cry on. I'm here." I want to be there for him. After all that he's lost, I just want to make him feel like he has somebody. I want to be with him all the time, just so he knows he's not alone. Oh boy, I'm falling for him aren't I? "You can trust me Taemin." I finally feel him relax into me, but he starts crying again.
"I just, I miss them so much. I've done this so many times, but it never gets any easier."
I don't know what to say now. But I don't feel like I need to say anything. I just need to be here for him right now, and so I hold him closer. He suddenly stops crying and looks up. "I'm sorry I got your shirt wet."
"Any time." I smile at him, and he smiles back.
A member of staff approaches us with a box of tissues. "Excuse me, sorry. The scriptwriters are asking if you're ready to go back on stage."
"Taemin?"
"Yes, I'm ready to go back on."
We walk back on to the set and once again hear the deafening roar of the crowd.
Taemin POV
I can not believe I am with Minho Choi right now, crying all over his shoulder. I don't usually get this upset, at least not until I am completely out of public view. But there's something special about this broadcast. I feel uncomfortable being so close to Minho. I'm trying so hard to stop crying, but I just can't. I picture my father in his hospital bed, asking me to keep fighting for him. I'm trying to, I'm trying but it just hurts so much. Everyone I've ever loved has left me. I haven't let anyone get close to me after the death of my family. I'm so scared to let anyone in anymore. But, when Minho tells me he wants to be there for me, I can't help but trust him. I feel so safe in his arms when I finally surrender and sink in to them. Unless it's part of my presentation, I don't talk to people about how I feel about my family. Which is why I'm surprised when I say:
"I just, I miss them so much. I've done this so many times, but it never gets any easier."
I enjoy the silence that follows, and his tightened grip tells me he understands. I look up and apologise for ruining his shirt. He gives me this amazing smile, that instantly makes the corners of my mouth curl upwards, and I grin back at him like an idiot. Once again, he gives me the courage to go back on the set, and we conclude the show with thankyou's and goodbyes.
Onew POV
After Taemin comes back on the set HonDo and Leeteuk quickly wrap up the show, give tons and tons of thanks and gratitude to Taemin for being so brave. Taemin puts on a brave face for the rest of the show, and tells the viewers he hopes his message has reached their hearts. It's definitely reached mine. One day his family was there, the next day they were gone. If that happened to Key, I don't know what I would do. And then I realise that could happen any minute, if Key decides to pick Jonghyun over me. I can't let him do that, I have to prove to him that I'm the only one for him.
After the broadcast Taemin rushes off, leaving a very disappointed looking Minho on the set. But I can't worry about Minho right now, I've got to talk to Key.
"Kibum!" I shout to him, and I take him by the hand to a quite spot in the building. I love how soft his hands are.
"What is it Onew?" Just hearing him say my name sends shivers down my spine. I love this boy more than anything.
"Listen I er…" Oh crap… This is not happening right now. I just, I'm not great with words, especially when it comes to Key. This is what I envy about Jonghyun, he always knows what to say.
"What?" he prompts impatiently, taking the diva pose (a hand on his hip, which is jutted out with his foot impatiently tapping).
"About Jonghyun. And you. And me.. It's just that I.." I take a step towards him. But he ducks away.
"Listen Onew, I haven't decided yet. But I will. I promise. Actually, I'm planning on making my decision tonight."
Tonight? What? I could lose Key tonight? Wait, then again, Key could be mine tonight. Finally, all mine. The thought of that, the thought of finally having Key all to myself makes my heart beat 10 times faster than it should be. I take a step towards him again.
"Kibum. I, I want you to pick me. You have to."
"Why? Tell me why. Make it easier for me."
I run my hand through his short brown hair and put my forehead to his. "Because, no one can love you like I do." I whisper in to his lips. "Because you mean the world to me." I feel him shudder. "Because if you were to die in a plane crash tomorrow, my life would fall to pieces." I take his hand and put it on my heart.
"Onew. It's beating… so fast"
"And if you left me it would stop beating all together."
He doesn't say anything. All that can be heard is our rapid breathing, and I realise that I've started shaking from our bodies being so close together. He sighs deeply. "Onew. I…"
"It's okay Key. I'll wait till tonight. You don't have to say anything."
He takes a step away from me, and tears fill my eyes. He walks away without looking back.
Taemin POV
I need to get away. I just need some air, some space, and some time to cool off. I don't want to go back to my rented apartment, so I decide to wonder around. I don't know Korea that well, but have my phone and some money for a taxi back. I walk aimlessly, thinking about life in general. I've got 2 months of school left. Then I can finally start to study medicine with "Doctors without boarders". To be honest, I don't think that i would make a great doctor. I'm pretty good at my sciences, but not passionate about them at all. My passion comes from my want to help others. The subject that I'm passionate about is dance. Ever since I can remember, I've always loved to dance. My father was always making jokes about it, saying that it's okay if I want to dance since it will make money that I can use to benefit others. He said I can dance my way to end of world hunger. I always liked the idea of that. But after he left, I knew that I had to help in a more direct way. Which is why I picked medicine.
I hear music and realise that I've walked in to a giant park, where a group of b-boys are breaking to music. I immediately feel my body aching to dance with them. I walk over to where they're dancing and watch the boy in the middle of their circle dance He's amazing. The way he dances just mesmerises me. I hang around in the background till he's finished, and then go and talk to him.
"Hey, great dancing."
"Thanks man. Wait, you're Taemin! Man, we just saw you on TV."
I blush unintentionally.
"You were great! Really inspirational." He had quite a thick American accent.
"Do you speak English?" I ask him. I would feel a lot more comfortable talking in English. Speaking in Korean takes effort.
"Yeh ofcourse I do, I was raised in the States. My name's Jay. Well Jae Bum, but yeh just call me Jay." He shakes my hand.
"Haha it's a relief shaking your hand instead of bowing." I admit. "Anyway I just wanted to compliment your dancing."
"Thanks man. Do you dance?"
"Err, yeh a bit."
"Well come join us!"
To be honest, I was kind of hoping he'd ask me. I'm normally shy but I'll dance any time any where. As soon as I hit the middle of the circle my body takes control over me. I pop and lock and let my body flow wherever the music takes me. I feel completely at ease and relaxed. The music stops and I look around and realise that a small crowd has formed. In the crowd I notice someone with a cast on their leg who looks a lot like Jonghyun from Shinee. I'm just about to investigate further when I hear a girl screaming "Taaeeeemmiiiinnnn!!" I'm pretty sure that the big crowd heading towards me are a hoard fan girls. I really don't like this type of attention, and so I quickly leave after thanking Jay for the dance.
I decide to go back to my apartment and rest. I've got another presentation to make tomorrow oh Chinchin radio, and I'm pretty worn out. I take a taxi home, which was really unnecessary as I realise it would have only taken 15 minutes to get there if I only knew the route. Then again, I didn't want to be stopped on the street every 5 minutes by more fan girls. Just another week and I'll be back in London, where I just blend in. During the taxi ride, Minho suddenly comes in to my mind. What happened between us back there? I mean, I was in tears but I still felt the sparks flying back and forth. I remember the feeling of being in his arms. Oh, I just left him there at the studio. Without getting his number, or making plans to meet later.Wait, there's someone on the steps leading up to my doorway. Is that… is that Minho?
Jonghyun POV
I know I'm supposed to be resting my leg at the moment, especially since my members are at a schedule, but I really want to get out of this house and go feed the ducks at the park. It always relaxes me. It was there that I realised that I loved Key, when we were having a contest on who could make a duck throw up. Me and Key always had so much fun together. We're so alike, our personalities just click. We just make so much more sense that him and Onew, why can't he see that? There's a commotion going on around the b-boys. Whatever, it's just the same old guys there. Oh but wait, I've never seen him before. The way he moves, he's not a b-boy. I hobble over there ignoring the usual stares and camera flashes. But as soon as I get there he quickly makes a run for it. Oh well. I hear my phone go off and my face lights up when I see I've gotten a text from Key.
From: Almighty Key:
To: Bling Bling Jonghyun
Hey Jjong :)
I need to talk to you, can we meet up?
I reply quickly
From: Bling Bling Jonghyun
To: Almighty Key
Anytime, any place, anywhere :)
From: Almighty Key:
To: Bling Bling Jonghyun
See you at the park, our spot, 15 minutes.
DON'T BE LATE
I hobble over back to the pond. My favourite spot, where Key and I feed the ducks. Key arrives in 10 minutes. No wonder he's always complaining about waiting when he's always early.
"Kibum!" I welcome him in to a hug. "I've missed you." Instead of blushing like he always does, his face is expressionless. This really discourages me. "How was your day."
"Ohh my goodness. Haven't you watched our broadcast yet?"
"No I was here at the park. Oh by the way I saw the most amazing dancer today right here in the park. You just missed hi…"
"Jjong," he interrupts. "Listen I called you here because I need to talk to you seriously." The look on his face tells me I'm in for a deep conversation. One that I'm not going to like. I take a deep breath.
"Don't tell me you've chosen Onew."
"Not yet. I just want to know, well, today Onew let me know exactly how he felt."
"What did he say?"
"It doesn't matter. I want to know how you feel."
Oh gosh. This is it. I basically have to convince Key that I belong with him. I go behind him and wrap my arm around him in a bear hug, squeezing him tightly.
"Key. If I had the choice, I would never let you go. I would stand here forever, protecting you. If you left me for Onew, I'd… I'd have to leave. I'd have to leave SHINee, I'd have to leave Korea. I'd have to move to the other side of the world, and then I still wouldn't be able to forget you. You have become all that I think about, all that I care about. Please Key, you know we're meant for each other."
I turn him around and pull his waist close to mine. But he pulls away.
"Jjong, no. I'm going to make my decision tonight." I knew that he was going to say something like that. "I heard what you have to say, but don't confused me by… by doing that."
"By doing what?" I ask, though I know exactly what he means. And I don't let him answer. I grab his waist again and bring his body to mine, and with my hand guiding the back of his neck I bring my his lips to mine and kiss him as if it were the last kiss we would ever share. I shudder when I think that it could be. He seems tense at first but soon surrenders to the kiss, allowing me to explore his mouth. Soon, he's clutching on to me, his grip tightening with every flick of my tongue. When our lips separate I whisper in to his ear. "Key. I love you. Please don't leave me."
Minho POV
"Have you seen Taemin? Did you see where Taemin went? Hey, have you seen…" No one seems to know where Taemin is. He hasn't left the building already has he? I was hoping I could take him out after the broadcast, and maybe get to know more about him. But it looks as though he's gone. I guess I'm going to have to find out where he's staying, because there is no way I'm going to just let him go. When I was comforting him backstage, and holding him in my arms, I just wanted to stay like that for the rest of the day. Of course, minus him crying.
After pestering a few of the staff members, I finally find out that he's renting a small apartment in the south of town. Well I have no idea where Onew and Key went, so I guess I'll just head over there and wait for Taemin. I just have to see him. I have to tell him how I feel about him. I know I just met him, but that boy means so much to me at the moment.
Key POV
Dam. Dam DAM DAMMMIT. I don't know. Aarrghh I don't know I just don't know. Onew, Jonghyun, Onew Jonghyun. Onew? For some reason, I felt nervous and vulnerable when Onew and I had our moment. It's as if, I could feel how much I meant to him. No one has ever looked at me the way he did. My heart felt so heavy, like it was about to fall out of my chest.
On the other hand, I felt exactly the opposite when Jonghyun kissed me. My heart felt so light I felt as if it was going to fly away. Everything is so natural with Jonghyun. We get along so well, and it's easy to be around him. I feel like I can be myself.
But… I know that I can't have both. Taemin has taught me that life surprises you, and that you have to take advantage of the days that you have left. I close my eyes, and imagine myself as an old man. And, there's only one man I can picture myself with at that age. I smile, because I know who I'm going to pick.
I take out my phone and punch in his name. I can't even breathe as the phone rings. "Kibum!" I smile when I hear his voice, and I know that I've made the right decision.
I only have two words to say to him. "It's you."
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A/N: I just thought that I'd share this link with you guys. This guy, he inspires me so much. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ciYk-UwqFKA&feature=related