When there's no way out, the only way out is to give in.
(00:32:25) Zhanna Tulchinskaya-Winchell: oh my gosh you and brandon are making mr.sandman mad because he is a very impatient person. fare thee well, pigbot hahahahaa
(00:32:41) Ashley Robot: dumb whorebot was better
(00:33:02) Zhanna Tulchinskaya-Winchell: what an oxymoron (little piggy)
(00:33:09) Ashley Robot: FATBOT
(00:33:27) Zhanna Tulchinskaya-Winchell: UGLYBOT
(00:33:32) Ashley Robot: MANBOT
(00:33:39) Zhanna Tulchinskaya-Winchell: TARDBOT
(00:33:44) Ashley Robot: STUPIDFACEMCGEEBOT
(00:33:53) Zhanna Tulchinskaya-Winchell: BADNEWSBOT
(00:34:02) Ashley Robot: IHATEYOUBOT
(00:34:22) Zhanna Tulchinskaya-Winchell: GLORIAINEXCELSISBOT
(00:34:26) Ashley Robot: YESSSSSSSS
(00:34:34) Ashley Robot: ABOYANDAGIRLBOT?
(00:34:44) Zhanna Tulchinskaya-Winchell: ABOYANDABOT
(00:35:08) Zhanna Tulchinskaya-Winchell: THEGOODTHATWONTCOMEBOT
(00:35:28) Ashley Robot: AMAN/ME/BOT
(00:35:39) Zhanna Tulchinskaya-Winchell: IMSORRYFORBEINGSUCHACRAPPYBOT
(00:35:46) Ashley Robot: NOT A REAL SONGBOT
(00:36:04) Zhanna Tulchinskaya-Winchell: WHYBOT?
(00:36:12) Ashley Robot: RKDIDN'TBOTIT
(00:36:16) Zhanna Tulchinskaya-Winchell: ABETTERSON/BOT
(00:36:24) Ashley Robot: THEABSENCEOFBOT
(00:36:28) Zhanna Tulchinskaya-Winchell: YOUAREWHATYOUBOT
(00:36:34) Ashley Robot: THECHARGINGBOT
(00:36:42) Zhanna Tulchinskaya-Winchell: THEEXECUTIONOFALLBOT
(00:36:51) Ashley Robot: DOESHELOVEBOT
(00:36:53) Zhanna Tulchinskaya-Winchell: MYSLUMBERINGBOT
(00:37:00) Zhanna Tulchinskaya-Winchell: SCIENCEV.BOT
(00:37:03) Ashley Robot: WITHARMSOUTBOT
(00:37:11) Ashley Robot: MOREADVENTUREBOT
(00:37:21) Zhanna Tulchinskaya-Winchell: PLANECRASHINBOT
(00:37:37) Ashley Robot: IT'SABOT
(00:37:42) Ashley Robot: RIPBOT
(00:37:47) Ashley Robot: SALUTEMYBOT
(00:37:54) Zhanna Tulchinskaya-Winchell: PORTIONSOFBOT
(00:38:02) Zhanna Tulchinskaya-Winchell: ASSBOT
(00:38:06) Zhanna Tulchinskaya-Winchell: LOVEANDBOT
(00:38:08) Ashley Robot: TEENAGELOVEBOT
(00:38:19) Ashley Robot: ACCIDENTALBOT
(00:38:25) Zhanna Tulchinskaya-Winchell: JENNY,YOUREBARELYBOT
(00:38:31) Ashley Robot: GLENDORBOT
(00:38:36) Ashley Robot: THEBOT
(00:38:37) Zhanna Tulchinskaya-Winchell: THREEHOPEFULBOT
(00:38:47) Zhanna Tulchinskaya-Winchell: SMALLFIGURESINAVASTBOT
(00:38:52) Ashley Robot: HAILTOWHATEVERYOUFOUNDINTHESUNLIGHTTHATSURROUNDSBOT
(00:39:12) Ashley Robot: PAPIBOT
(00:39:13) Zhanna Tulchinskaya-Winchell: ITJUSTBOT
(00:39:20) Ashley Robot: IBOT
(00:39:27) Zhanna Tulchinskaya-Winchell: ARUSHOFBLOODTOTHEBOT
(00:39:34) Ashley Robot: hey now
(00:39:40) Ashley Robot: you changed artists on me
(00:39:48) Ashley Robot: I"M SLEEPYBOT
(00:39:53) Zhanna Tulchinskaya-Winchell: SQUAREBOT
(00:39:57) Ashley Robot: i'm going to bedbot
(00:39:58) Zhanna Tulchinskaya-Winchell: DAMNITBOT
(00:40:02) Zhanna Tulchinskaya-Winchell: THISISFUNBOT
(00:40:04) Zhanna Tulchinskaya-Winchell: HAHAHAHHABOT
(00:40:05) Ashley Robot: monkeybutt
(00:40:08) Ashley Robot: NO BOT
(00:40:13) Ashley Robot: haha IT IS THOUGH@
(00:40:15) Ashley Robot: bot
(00:40:16) Zhanna Tulchinskaya-Winchell: YOUWONTFINDSOMEONETODOTHISWITHINJMUBOT
(00:40:22) Ashley Robot: FUCKYOUBOT
(00:40:22) Zhanna Tulchinskaya-Winchell: IBOT.
(00:40:27) Zhanna Tulchinskaya-Winchell: ILOVEBOT.
(00:40:48) Ashley Robot: ILOVEBOT
...what can I say, we're amazing.
I have a bad habit of getting back together with ex's. But this one isn't Ian, so I'm pretty optimisitic. Not like we're back together...but after not seeing him for two years, I've seen him twice in the last three days, and plan on seeing him tomorrow. I forgot how much he meant/means to me. I'm excited! And I haven't been genuinely excited about anything since...about this time in May last year.
But I don't know how okay I am with this whole "feeling emotions" thing. I am a robot (hence that conversation). And I was content being bulletproof(bot). I can't make exceptions. So right now my choice is...continuing to be empty or allowing myself to be vulnerable.