Its mostly gonna be good music and photos and lovin from now on...

[wendenglow]

Here I am... I have been having a mini meltdown of sorts, trying to reprioritize my life.... Must take time to learn and to chill and to be me and to give love to those that I love. I'm gonna make a change.. A huge change in my life.. I am going to put less pressure on myself. I can't do everything. It feels good to slow down... I lost my mind

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[extrastout]

You have been doing a tremendous amount from what I can tell. Slowing down is probably the perfect things. Life a balancing act, you just can’t go too far in one direction for too long. Though extremes for a little while sometimes can be just what you need.

By the way, did you find someone better to talk to than that ditzy grad student?

[extrastout]

As for me, I'm having a hard time regulating that self imposed pressure myself . . .

[wendenglow]

Do you still teach martial arts? My aunt and uncle practice Ishinru (sp?) karate... When I visited I saw them do their Kata with the bow and this little pitchfork thingy.. What kind do you practice/teach?
I still talk to that grad student, but thats one of the things that I'm gonna cut out.... I realized that its too much for me to work through/think about traumatic memories while i'm in school... i can't be al emotional all the time...
And I'm only gonna work one day a week now and I'm gonna eat at home more to save money so that I don't need to work as much... lunch in Manhattan in expensive....
Still workin on the windmills?

[wendenglow]

Oh and what all are you trying to juggle in your life?

[extrastout]

Me, I'm working on a few bad habits that have plagued me most of my life. Largely has to do with procrastination and hedonism. . . the level I have it at probably aren't that bad for most people but, combine it with my pride, my desire to run my own business, and to do so many other active things it becomes a big problem.

Either I accept the sort of life I've always avoided living (typical 9-5 job, settling down etc.) or I need to change these habits. So the habits have got to go.

I want too many things in my life.

My stress is self imposed, but sometimes that's needed.

I still make sure I'm having fun though.

[restartsmyheart]

I hope things get better, slowing down is always nice. I think the spring sometimes helps.

[wendenglow]

Yes, they will be better... I'm cutting a lot out of my schedule so that I may be sane...=)

[extrastout]

Yep, my sight is under construction but you can find a short bio of what I do here: http://www.progressivema.com/instructors.htm

And yeah, talking to her is probably no help because it doesn't sound as if she can offer you and useful perspective on what comes up or skills to work with it. . . you'd think they'd have a better screening process.

I'm sending in the proposal for the grant tonight. . . looks like the project will cost around $5000. Without a grant I don't think it will be feasible. Here’s hoping . . .