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Slight trauma and the dawning realizations that came with it have created a new phase for me.
Today when I went to the bank to get some cash the teller sent me an envelope back with just my i.d in it. I pushed the teller call and we laughed about how we've both had a long few days. No worries. Feel better. You too. I'm almost off work. I'm on my way. We're fine. Thanks for reminding me. Thanks for understanding.
Thank you for always being that person who magically calls me when I'm at my worst. Thank you for being my twin even when I'm acting ridiculous. Thank you for letting me turn everything back to me in moments of insecurity. Thank you for saying you like my nose. Thank you for wishing me happy birthday four days early "just to be safe". Thank you for only knowing my photography and yet still asking if I'd like to do a project with you, despite your many years of experience over me. Thank you for saying I inspire you. Thank you for taking me shoe shopping and then buying me candy today. Thank you for the lovely package full of adorable earrings and necklaces. Thank you for always popping that one spot on my hand I can't ever get when I run into you. Thank you for calling to check in on me even though as fifteen year olds we broke each others hearts for the very first time. Thank you for showing me the waterfalls I would eventually start to miss every day of that summer. Thank you for holding me when we went camping and thought we heard a cougar but really it was a very loud humming bird. Thank you for being the first person I ever truly loved and letting me do so for so long. Thank you for breaking into the student center and getting me Odwalla and rice crispie treats. Thank you for the best pen pal letter in the world. Thank you for attempting to steal me a kitten even though you later went crazy and threw my pumpkin out a window. Thank you for the extra fruit roll up you put in my Kids Pak. Thank you for letting me sleep on your couch for three days straight. Thank you for being my NIP/TUCK partner. Thank you for Ugly cookies and Bruce Lee. Thank you for trying teach me stick shift in the Target parking lot, even though I couldn't figure out how to get out of reverse. Thank you for a summer of selling fireworks. Thank you for cuddling and watching movies with me even after I'd gotten off work at Eagan's and smelled like grease. Thank you for trains and carrying me in the woods.
Step One: Join gym. Health. Become comfortable with my body. Endorphins.
I won't write in this again until I'm twenty and I've had another few days to figue out exactly what I need. I'm sure this seems dramatic and silly but I don't mind. Two decades down. I'm growing up.
"All human beings should try to learn what they are running from, and to, and why."
Today when I went to the bank to get some cash the teller sent me an envelope back with just my i.d in it. I pushed the teller call and we laughed about how we've both had a long few days. No worries. Feel better. You too. I'm almost off work. I'm on my way. We're fine. Thanks for reminding me. Thanks for understanding.
Thank you for always being that person who magically calls me when I'm at my worst. Thank you for being my twin even when I'm acting ridiculous. Thank you for letting me turn everything back to me in moments of insecurity. Thank you for saying you like my nose. Thank you for wishing me happy birthday four days early "just to be safe". Thank you for only knowing my photography and yet still asking if I'd like to do a project with you, despite your many years of experience over me. Thank you for saying I inspire you. Thank you for taking me shoe shopping and then buying me candy today. Thank you for the lovely package full of adorable earrings and necklaces. Thank you for always popping that one spot on my hand I can't ever get when I run into you. Thank you for calling to check in on me even though as fifteen year olds we broke each others hearts for the very first time. Thank you for showing me the waterfalls I would eventually start to miss every day of that summer. Thank you for holding me when we went camping and thought we heard a cougar but really it was a very loud humming bird. Thank you for being the first person I ever truly loved and letting me do so for so long. Thank you for breaking into the student center and getting me Odwalla and rice crispie treats. Thank you for the best pen pal letter in the world. Thank you for attempting to steal me a kitten even though you later went crazy and threw my pumpkin out a window. Thank you for the extra fruit roll up you put in my Kids Pak. Thank you for letting me sleep on your couch for three days straight. Thank you for being my NIP/TUCK partner. Thank you for Ugly cookies and Bruce Lee. Thank you for trying teach me stick shift in the Target parking lot, even though I couldn't figure out how to get out of reverse. Thank you for a summer of selling fireworks. Thank you for cuddling and watching movies with me even after I'd gotten off work at Eagan's and smelled like grease. Thank you for trains and carrying me in the woods.
Step One: Join gym. Health. Become comfortable with my body. Endorphins.
I won't write in this again until I'm twenty and I've had another few days to figue out exactly what I need. I'm sure this seems dramatic and silly but I don't mind. Two decades down. I'm growing up.
"All human beings should try to learn what they are running from, and to, and why."